Do you ever question your life, do you ever wonder why? Do you ever see in your life, all the castles in the sky. I see them everyday in through the eyes of the man I love. To the fans he is a heartthrob to the but to me he's just Chris. The man I love with all my heart. Six years ago today, he walked into my life for the first time and with one hello I knew my life would never be the same. As I think now of this crazy world that has come to be I am thankful to have him. He doesn't know how I feel, I haven't told him, haven't told anyone. Watching as he sleeps like an angel I am worried. He has been getting headaches for weeks bow but he has stubbornly refused to see a doctor. Perhaps I am over protective, perhaps I love him too much. Curling up beside him I want to wrap my arms wrapped around him, I want the world to stop so I can lay like this forever. I know it can't. Soon we will be up to face another day in the life we live as celebrities. His eyes opening he attempts to focus on your face.

"What are you doing in here" asked Chris puzzled

"I was umm...I was just watching you sleep" said JC getting to his feet.

"Why" said Chris

"I was worried, I came to check on you. Are you feeling any better?" asked JC.

"Not really" replied Chris rolling onto his back.

"Chris you up" said Joey entering the room with almost no care.

"Don't you ever learn to knock" said JC.

"Why would I want to knock when your just going to tell me to come in" said Joey smiling.

"I'll be right back I want to talk to Joey for a second" said JC.

"Look, I'm sorry I didn't knock you know but it's not like you were doing anything" said Joey as JC ushered him into the hallway.

What, why would you think Chris and I would be..."

"He's single, your both gay. You know you two could..."

"He's my friend I would never...Look I'm really worried about these headaches he's been getting. Ithink he needs to see a doctor" said JC.

"Is he feeling worse?" asked Joey.

Well he hasn't said anything but I can see it in his face. I'm really worried" said JC.

"You know how stubborn he is, he's not going to go to a doctor" said Joey.

"Then we'll make him go" said JC.

Opening the door JC's heart began to race as he saw Chris clutching his head

"It's ok, I just had a little pain for a second."

"Ok, that's it, we're getting you to a doctor" said JC.

"Doctor? I'll be fine, I'll just lay back down for a minute" said Chris.

"Chris, this is serious, you've been like this for weeks.

"JC's right, you need to go" said Joey"

"Man it is a madhouse around here tonight" said Joanie.

"Your telling me and I've been up since four. Oh, I almost forgot we've got a new one coming in. They called about five minutes ago said he was complaining of a headache" said Joanie.

"Did you get the vitals?" "No, their coming by car" said Joanie.

"Hold on a minute I'll get the door" said Joey.

"Guy's, really I'm fine I can do it" said Chris.

"Would you just humor us, it's not going to kill you" said Joey.

"Hi, can we get a wheelchair for my friend" said JC approaching the desk.

"Sure, are you the one who called earlier?" asked Joanie.

"Yeah."

"Their should be a wheelchair out front, just bring him in and take a seat" said Joanie.

"Wheelchair, this is crazy. I shouldn't even be here" said Chris.

"Look were here just let them check you out" said Joey.

"Which one of you would like to register him in?" asked Joanie.

"I can register myself" said Chris attempting to stand.

"Would you sit down before you pass out. Jeez, your going to give us all a heart attack" said Justin.

"Have you been here before?"

"No, he hasn''t" replied JC..

"Ok name?"

"Umm... do we really have list his name?" asked JC.

"I have to have a name for the records."

"Couldn't we list him in as John Doe?" asked JC.

"I'd have to have his real name, hospital policy" said Joanie.

"You see the problem is were in a group Nsync, you might have heard of us" said JC.

"Yeah, I think I saw you on TV once" said Joanie.

"Well he has a lot of fans and we really don't want them getting wind of..."

"Hmm... we could register him in under his real name but I'm sure we could list him as John Doe. What's your name?" asked Joanie.

"Chris Kirkpatrick."

"Age?"

"19."

"And why are you here?" asked Joanie.

"He's been getting a lot of headaches and he's not too steady on his feet.

"I told you I fell because I tripped" said Chris.

"Ok, why don't we put you in cubicle two. I'll need you to put this gown on and someone will be with you shortly" said Joanie.

"Their going to make me wear a gown" said Chris frowning.

"You need any help getting undressed" said JC.

"What I need is to go back to the hotel" said Chris.

"Melana the John Doe arrived" said Joanie.

"John Doe, great just what I need another John Doe tonight" said Melana.

"No, he's not a John Doe, I just registered as a John Doe. He's famous, he's in some group or something. Didn't want fans to find out he was here" said Joanie.

"God this is so embarrassing, this gown doesn't even cover my butt" said Chris irritated.

"Aww, I think you look cute in it" said Joey trying not to laugh.

"Hi, I'm Dr. Kanakardes, you must be our John Doe."

"Yeah" said Chris attempting to keep the gown closed.

"So what seems to be the problem?" asked Melana.

"He's having some headaches and...."

"Hello, she asked me you " said Lance half smiling. "Fine you tell her" snapped Justin playfully.

"I've been having these headaches and sometimes my arm gets all tingly." said Chris.

"Tingly, does it go numb."

"Yeah, like it went to sleep or something" said Chris. "I think the first thing is to draw some blood, then we'll get some x-rays and see what's going on" said Melana.

"Can you give me something for this pain" said Chris.

"I think we need to hold off on any pain killers until see what the tests show" said Melana.