Poems
These are some of my poems, I wrote them years ago, so they arent great
Finding my way out
The mist keeps getting thicker
It’s harder now to see
Blinded by the things I’ve lost
The things I’ll never be.
The past is like a blanket
Smothering out my life
Clouding me under this layer of guilt
Hurting be like a knife.
The regret floods my heart
Like a giant tidal wave
Drowning all my present dreams
What hopes are left to save?
I don’t know how to push through
This barrier of my past
How can I move on now
Knowing that one chance was my last.
hollow echoing
vibrating fury
released on six trembling strings
fingers rushing across the metal
creating a pure and true sound
amplified through the wooden casing
of my classical guitar
No More
No going back
To the stony grey walls
Of the innocent whining
of a child.
No going back
To the sleeping all day
And playing in the sandbox.
The swing on the tree
is empty
But gently swaying.
It was the wind that moved it,
not a child,
the child is gone.
You were like a bad drug:
I got you in my veins
And I couldn’t get you out.
You infected my mind
until I was disillusional,
Sometimes believing everything
was wonderful,
Other days wanting nothing more
than to curl up and die.
Then I locked myself in a cold, dark room
Without you.
Forced myself to leak the
soiled blood from my veins
Until only what was meant to be there
ran through my body.
I was clean again
Freed
from the grasp you snuck on to me,
left only with the occasional wont
And the overlying knowledge
that being with you so long
was a Mistake
And only an Addiction.
it’s Funny that
yoU seem to
Care so little
yet claim to be my Knight in shinning armour
Your words are about as meaningful
as an Obscure shaped rock on the beach
and just as Useless
You Bastard
You hurt me and left me here
my open wounds
becoming infected with the
reoccurring memories of the shit
you put me through
I hate you
and your presumptuous speeches
the knife of your tongue
piercing through my skin
strait to my heart
causing a slow yet continuous
leakage of blood in to the cavities
of my soul.
And then you laugh at me
when I call you crying
Tell me I’m crazy.
But guess who put me this way.
it was you
and only you
that disrupted my happiness
You seep into my veins
like a drug
escaping through my mouth
in cries of agony,
Then you tell me you loved me
and always will.
What a load of shit.
Bastard.
your eyes
tell me that everything will be ok
they say that the world is not strong enough to take us down
if we fight it together
your eyes
tell me that I don’t have to be scared anymore
nothing can get me in the safety of your arms
and nothing will make you let go
your eyes
tell me everything I need to know
in your eyes my life is reflected
and my thoughts are understood without question
your eyes
are always forgiving
no matter what I do, no matter what I say
your eyes are always full of love
This one I really like, but not even sure if it was me who wrote it...
When I saw you...I was afraid to talk to you.
When I talked to you... I was afraid to hold you.
When I held you... I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you... I'm afriad to lose you .
Sometimes love hurts... But if it doesn't hurt... Then it isn't love...
Hold on to the person u love...Before they slip away...Or else u can never get them back...
I was born
when you kissed me...And I died when you left me...
But I
lived for the two months u loved me...Until there was you, I
cried myself to sleep...
While I had you, I fell asleep with
a gentle smile on my face.
Before I lost you, I worried myself
to sleep..Now that I know u r gone, I sit up at night,
waiting for u to come back.
there are so many more but I cant find them and its 2am
