You're my Sacred Jezebel
The Devil and the Saint
I'm your crucifixion
Burn me with your loving hate
Your enigma, my stigmata
And my blood pooled on the floor
Locked inside our mindgame
More deadly than a war
You're my Sacred Jezebel
Worse than little Alice with her knife
As you're slicing up my soul
You're tearing up my life
Yet like a pilgrim to Jerusalem
To your alter I am drawn
Stumbling through your darkness
But cursing at the dawn
Do you hurt me because I know the secrets
you've got buried deep within?
Do you hurt me just to try to let me
know that somehow you care?
Do you hurt me when you love me because
you know you're veil is wearing thin?
Or do you simply hurt me since I'm
the only one that's there?
Yeah, you're my Sacred Jezebel
More precious than my life
You, my Sacred Jezebel
Cloaked in eternal night
And every time I come to worship
At the altar of your bed
You take another piece of me
Use me up; left for dead
And as the dawn approaches
And you make your getaway
I know that I'll live for you
Again for one more day....
A firestorm. A flashflood.
All these things and more.
A demon swept my soul away.
Left it bleeding, bruised, and torn
Like a junkie with a needle.
Like a suicide with his knife.
Like a candle with a dampened flame.
Like the Hangman holds my life.
Like walking on a spider's web.
Like swimming a tumultuous sea.
All these things and more was this
blasphem'd love you gave to me.
You reeled me in.
You poisoned me.
You, a demon monstrosity.
A trap set so easily;
a glare and skull-like grin.
Do you realize the demon you are?
Do you, demon, realize you're sin?
And once, when most upon your love I do depend,
you turn and take it all away;
just a grave-robber in the end.
The fire's out, the water's gone.
The demon has set me free.
But I still cling to the spider's web,
though I'm drowning in the sea.
The hooks of your love are in me,
they tear my flesh away.
And as I sink below the waves
to the Devil I will pray.
Apathy, Grief, Despair,
consume my rotting flesh
as I marvel at how short a time it took
for you to leave me here in Living Death.
"An Ode to the Brevity of a Demon's Kiss Called Love"
Long ago I walked with pride
Among the men of Legend
Gold and jewels, I had my share
Yet all good things must end
The gold has turned to copper
My jewels are naught but stones
And now my debt cuts like a knife
Right down to the bone
Candles burn to nothing
As I sit here in my cell
My mind is wavering fast now
I know this must be hell
I live in a world of make-believe
Where life's a fantasy
I can't tell if I'm awake or asleep
Oh, God! What's reality!?
Voices call me constantly
Begging me to go
With them to the Unholy Place
The Black World far below
Resistance grows much harder
With every passing day
I just want this life to be
Something more than day to day
I sit here in this cold rock cell
Rotting, oh, so slow
I can't tell what's real and what's a dream
Yet that's all I want to know
So I'll sit here longer
Until the end of time
Trapped inside this invisible box
A prisoner in my own mind...
Trapped, silent; in the winter of my mind.
Try to forget, try leaving it behind.
I've apologized one thousand times to an empty...
...but I'm wishing it was you.
Sitting, waiting, anxious, by the telephone.
Knowing even if you called, there's still nobody home.
I hug my knees and bite my lip and cling to Misery...
...but I'm wishing it was you.
I'm wishing it was you
Instead of Misery
That was here right now
To keep me company
But I did the things I've done
And a lot of them hurt you
Now there's nothing left for me
But to ache and wish for you
And this pain that now consumes
I'm wishing it was you...
I'm wishing anything was you....
Waves rumble against the cliffs
The wind whips at my face
The sky dark and ominous,
pushing against the clouds.
I stare out into the Void.
My clothes ragged, my hair disheveled
Eyes weathered as the storm.
The leaves whisper unkept secrets in the trees
And I stare out into the Void
Searching for Calmness
In these books blackened by fire
I sift through your passion and desire
But in these words inked by your hand
All I read of is desert wastelands and sand
You speak of pain and scaring
Given to you from ones you called "Darling"
What happened Dear Child
Was the night never mild?
No fond rememberances of any you held
Was anguish, betrayal and remorse all you ever felt?
Such sad tales from one I adore
And all these loves lost shattered you to the floor.
Fear not, I am with you now sweet one
I cannot take back what has been done
Nor can I piece you back together the way you were before
This only do I hold in my power-to love you as no other
Love you with no betrayal, no anguish, no remorse.
Yours forever more.
Shattered and broken on old dusty wood
try to get up, get it back together
But I know I'm not really in a fighting mood
Terrified and alone, listening to the echoes of my nightmares
Worse than nightmares is reality. In eternal sleep I'll find a haven
Is there an exit? I can't find the door
Please don't say there's only wall and the floor
Is it just my imagination or are they slowly cavin'?
Cavin' down on me
A light in the shadows, barely at my fingertips
But is there strength enough to grasp a new day
It filters away through half closed eye lids
And my last chance at salvation slips away
Here in this room, it all becomes so clear
The knowledge of my mistakes is my true hell
Final Farewell, I've come to terms with what I've become and face my fear
I dont believe I gave up, after all I did give my best
Final Farewell, soon for the first time I'll know silence and rest.
Come sing to me, oh Ancient Sage!
Whisper sweetly your enchanting secrets to my eager ear!
The golden glowing goblet lulls me near
I drink your Knowledge bitter
It blinds my eyes and opens my mind
And all to well I finally see
Oh great Disdain!
(was it you who brought me here?)
And to where does the world turn now?
Only I know
(a fiery doom for all who do not weep!)
Heaven help my tortured soul
Quietly resting in someone's twined embrace
Basking in the comforts the dark has come to endow
Hidden away in the harbors of the shadows
The warmth of another's touch
Two hearts joined together by a singular love
Pulsating in a slow rhythmic dance
Safe, Secure, Silent