on the verge of tears
I'm afraid that she'll never understand me
I'm afraid that no one ever will
And, no, I am not OK
And these thoughts come and go from my mind
I distance myself from everything I once held close
I turn my friends against me
So they won't miss me
I give in to my enemies' hopes and thoughts
how would you do it?
I'd swallow a bunch of pills and hope to never wake
Just one quick action in a series of lifeless events
how easily it could all change
when things get tough, why do I always see this
as my way of giving up?
those surrounding me would seem uneffected
There is nothing left to miss
some times I wonder what I'm waiting for
Maybe this definitive moment when the time was exact just passed
it's only a matter of time
why can't I start living
and stop thinking about dying?
this life takes its toll
but some how we all survive
why can't I?
what I wouldn't give to be normal
to fit into place for just one day
and not have thoughts of this
running through my mind
I always hoped in time I'd get better
but I see that's all just a lie
nothing gets better
I will never be...
frustration leads to anger again tonight
wish I could find some other way
