Il LiLAzNb0i Il: wanna read todays convo
si n s 2 d ie: eh/
si n s 2 d ie: there's more!?
si n s 2 d ie: sure
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il cancels request; no connection was made.
si n s 2 d ie wants to directly connect.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: connect
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: bitch
Il LiLAzNb0i Il has not responded; no connection was made. (Your 'Internet
Connection Firewall' may be on. If you and your buddy are each behind a
different firewall, then the connection will not work.).
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
si n s 2 d ie ignores request; no connection was made.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
si n s 2 d ie declines request; no connection was made.
si n s 2 d ie: oops
si n s 2 d ie: go
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il has cancelled request due to no response from you; no
connection was made. (Your 'Internet Connection Firewall' may be on. If you
and your buddy are each behind a different firewall, then the connection will
not work.).
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il is now directly connected.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jbAybEeDuCk: hi
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: n how r u
jbAybEeDuCk: finer
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: finer? you got lots of beauty sleep or something?
jbAybEeDuCk: yup bout u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: um, you mean 'how bout u"?
jbAybEeDuCk: well duh!!!
jbAybEeDuCk: im 2 lazy 2 write all that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dunno, i fell asleep eventually
jbAybEeDuCk: k
jbAybEeDuCk: i guezz
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: doing anything today
jbAybEeDuCk: kidsittin
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but thats only till 3 or so
jbAybEeDuCk: 230 2 b exact
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well see that still leaves a lot of time..
jbAybEeDuCk: otherwise bein me
jbAybEeDuCk: at least till im asleep then im in my own lala land if u know wat i mean
dude
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: o,O
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jaymie?
jbAybEeDuCk: nooooooope
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jennifer?
jbAybEeDuCk: nope im the little kid shes babysittin
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: .........
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: alright
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: :-\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ....ok wutever
jbAybEeDuCk: ur weird did u know that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yea
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i've been told
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it's juz me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: deal with it
jbAybEeDuCk: she has 2 deal w/ u and i think shed like a break mr weirdo
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: grr
jbAybEeDuCk: hiss
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yes
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: plez
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: be mean to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i deserve everything
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: for all that i didnt do
jbAybEeDuCk: shur my pleasure but ur weirs but cool
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: gee thanx
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: here have some candy
jbAybEeDuCk: where
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i hid it jaymie's hair
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: go find it
jbAybEeDuCk: she washed she takes good care 4 her hair
jbAybEeDuCk: well mr weirdo wat do u got 2 say 4 ur self
jbAybEeDuCk: callin jaymie a bad carehair person
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i didnt say she has bad hair..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i juz said i hid candy in it...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it doesnt necessary mean she has bad hair does it
jbAybEeDuCk: same difference
jbAybEeDuCk: hello anyone on
jbAybEeDuCk: y r u bin mean
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: dont you haf anything better to do then talk to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: why would you want to talk to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: who does
jbAybEeDuCk: uv got issues myb u need tissues
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: actually
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i ran out
jbAybEeDuCk: TMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!D
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ...?
jbAybEeDuCk: to much info
jbAybEeDuCk: DUH
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sorri
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: see
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i said you wouldn't want to talk to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: go play ddr or somethign
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: go pig out in their kitchen
jbAybEeDuCk: plus ur the only other person who i can mess w/
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: wow thanx
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ur so kind
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: my day is starting to get better already
jbAybEeDuCk: and i dont pig OUT
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you..pig in?
jbAybEeDuCk: im very careful 4 my health
jbAybEeDuCk: not in not out
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: keep talking to me and you wont haf any health
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: !
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well then
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you're juz a pig then
jbAybEeDuCk: and ill take that as a compliment
jbAybEeDuCk: how wude
jbAybEeDuCk: rasberry
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont think its rude enough
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: blueberry
jbAybEeDuCk: i like blueberrys
jbAybEeDuCk: by the way u could b a model ur picture looks horrible
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you're not any better kid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: did jennifer sent you to insult me or something
jbAybEeDuCk: a model 4 dorks of the USA
jbAybEeDuCk: u dont even no me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you're the pres of it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and you know what
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you're right
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont know anyoen
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: apperantly
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and not even myself
jbAybEeDuCk: ur a bad speller
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i am
jbAybEeDuCk: u cant anyone right
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you leave out words
jbAybEeDuCk: mr im am sam
jbAybEeDuCk: this is instant messaging get a clue
jbAybEeDuCk: mayb u should watch that movie
jbAybEeDuCk: get a clue its comin out next friday on disney 700 b there or b square
Il LiLAzNb0i Il wants to directly connect.
jbAybEeDuCk is now directly connected.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: A
jbAybEeDuCk direct connection is closed.
jbAybEeDuCk: back at ya loser
jbAybEeDuCk: w/ a capitel L
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: are you hafing fun
jbAybEeDuCk: well ur good target practice 4 insulting friends just like u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: friends juz like me?
jbAybEeDuCk: mr i cant spell
jbAybEeDuCk: not really friends
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
jbAybEeDuCk: eniemies just like u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
jbAybEeDuCk: r u slow on things or dumb 2 put that way
jbAybEeDuCk: cuong
jbAybEeDuCk: it's me now
jbAybEeDuCk: im sorrie
jbAybEeDuCk: jennifer
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it's ok
jbAybEeDuCk: im not the kid
jbAybEeDuCk: um she means
jbAybEeDuCk: "im not" - the kid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh really
jbAybEeDuCk: im not sorry not really-the kid
jbAybEeDuCk: um and she's gonna go play ddr now
jbAybEeDuCk: darnnabet
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
jbAybEeDuCk: seeya mr weirdo ill b sure 2 keep in my prayers 4 good help on the
brain
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: thank you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i need it
jbAybEeDuCk: well i figured imen ur brain is very slow
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: is it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: maybe it juz have too much to think about
jbAybEeDuCk: tjimkin bout waht exactly
jbAybEeDuCk: i mean thinkin wrong button
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm bout how much life sucks
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: seems like im back to where i started
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ever play that game life? its like landing on the go back to
start square
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..or was that another game...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: u should know, ur a lil kid, it's been years since i've played
board games
jbAybEeDuCk: ecuse me i barely like bord games and but i do like ddr
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: then go play already
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: break a leg
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or both
jbAybEeDuCk: break yur neck
jbAybEeDuCk: bye
jbAybEeDuCk: um hi
jbAybEeDuCk: u told her she sucks!?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: n
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: o
jbAybEeDuCk: she's a kid!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i gave her a heart
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..it was..a..heart..none the lesss
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what if it said you suck on it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: she does
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: all she said was mean stuff..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that rhymed sometimes..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: man go push her off the ddr pad for me
jbAybEeDuCk: =\
jbAybEeDuCk: she's a kid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im jk
jbAybEeDuCk: i am reading wat u wrote rite now
jbAybEeDuCk: it wasnt nice
jbAybEeDuCk: do u talk to all kids this way?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well maybe im not in the mood to be nice
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: she started it..
jbAybEeDuCk: she's really smart
jbAybEeDuCk: hahahahaha
jbAybEeDuCk: i didnt even tell her to say dat stuff
jbAybEeDuCk: and yet....
jbAybEeDuCk: it totally applies
jbAybEeDuCk: dont u think?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh you meant for her to say that stuff though huh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sure
jbAybEeDuCk: anyways
jbAybEeDuCk: now im being mean
jbAybEeDuCk: im sorrie
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont want to be mean
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: juz do as you wish
jbAybEeDuCk: did u IM me because u had something to say?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: why
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cant we juz talk
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or do i have to have something to say
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i figured i need to talk to ya if i wanted to get anywhere..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and i dont think its helping any...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: am i gonna haf to like talk without getting any response
again..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..i guess that's a yes..
jbAybEeDuCk:
jbAybEeDuCk: well u hav to intend to talk to me about something
jbAybEeDuCk: u can't jus start talkin
jbAybEeDuCk: and not hav any idea wat u'll be saying
jbAybEeDuCk: its pointless
jbAybEeDuCk: the same drivel and pointless things we'd always talk about
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im sorrie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but actually, it covers many random points
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or not..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: am i gonna get to see you again
jbAybEeDuCk: sure
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: before you leave
jbAybEeDuCk: um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: for kentucky
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well i juz thought
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we could do something normal
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: as friends
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we dont get much of a chance to do anything like that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i wish we could have, but its wasnt ur fault..so it was good
juz to get to see you whenever i could...but anyways...yea...
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah i gueess we dont
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh and i thought
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i could get my shirt back..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: before my mom notices it is gone
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: unless you wanna keep it and wear it or something...
jbAybEeDuCk: u can hav it back
jbAybEeDuCk: if u want it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well..i do..
jbAybEeDuCk: ok, i'll return it to u then
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well, but that's not the mean point
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: main
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..but..ok
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but really..how do you feel about all this...?
jbAybEeDuCk: about wat?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: us..everything
jbAybEeDuCk: i feel a lot of things rite now
jbAybEeDuCk: it's hard to explain
jbAybEeDuCk: or jus pick one
jbAybEeDuCk: um i could try
jbAybEeDuCk: ...
jbAybEeDuCk: i feel
jbAybEeDuCk: sad, angry, confused
jbAybEeDuCk: a lil scared
jbAybEeDuCk: and u?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..do u still feel love for me?
jbAybEeDuCk: . . .
jbAybEeDuCk: u didnt answer me
jbAybEeDuCk: um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: answer me first
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: if its hard for you to say then forgot it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i know i still feel it for you though
jbAybEeDuCk: no
jbAybEeDuCk: its not hard for me to answer
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
jbAybEeDuCk: im not sure wat'll happen if i do answer that tho
jbAybEeDuCk: i am jus trying to predict the ramifications of my anser
jbAybEeDuCk: answer*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: juz say what you mean
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it wont give me up
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and it surely wont take away hope
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: give me hope*
jbAybEeDuCk: do u seriously not kno the answer to this question?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i believe you love me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but i juz want to know im not a fool to believe so
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
jbAybEeDuCk: im not sure i kno wat love is
jbAybEeDuCk: im not sure if u do either
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: me and hubert feels like everything's we've found is falling
apart, and we don't know what to do or say to make things right. its like
we've gone back to where we started. and this isn't the first time for
hubert either.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i know what loves means to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: maybe its juz something you feel, you have to decide if its
right or not
jbAybEeDuCk: well then
jbAybEeDuCk: honestly
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont feel like its rite
jbAybEeDuCk: i mean not rite now
jbAybEeDuCk: but
jbAybEeDuCk: i cant say that it wont be ever
jbAybEeDuCk: jus that
jbAybEeDuCk: *sigh*
jbAybEeDuCk: iono
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well that means you're still giving us a chance..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and that's all i ask for..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: love is a feeling that you feel when you feel like you about
to feel a feeling you've never felt before
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: there is no real answer
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: there's different types of love, love for a parent/child
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: love mean different things to different people
jbAybEeDuCk: i can tell u that i care about u
jbAybEeDuCk: a lot
jbAybEeDuCk: i neva planned on going out with u
jbAybEeDuCk: i neva imagined i would
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you never expected to be with someone like me
jbAybEeDuCk: and yet i did
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i know
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and why did you
jbAybEeDuCk: i think i loved u
jbAybEeDuCk: i really really dont kno y
jbAybEeDuCk: maybe thats wat ur talking about
jbAybEeDuCk: that u cant explain
jbAybEeDuCk: its jus
jbAybEeDuCk: that whole time
jbAybEeDuCk: that u and kenny we're trying to vie for my affection
jbAybEeDuCk: or watnot
jbAybEeDuCk: all i kep thinking was
jbAybEeDuCk: i want cuong to do this
jbAybEeDuCk: i want cuong to talk to me
jbAybEeDuCk: i want it to be him
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: if it was me vs the world - enrique it'll still be me~!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jk
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: did you not consider the option
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: of neither of us
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it doesnt haf to be me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or kenny
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i didn't think it would be the either of us
jbAybEeDuCk: of course i thought that
jbAybEeDuCk: i had looooong convos with stacy bout it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so it wasnt juz like an option of me or kenny, you actuallyed
_wanted_ it to be me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that must means somethign
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah i guess it does
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i never completely answered ur question of how i feel
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i feel sad
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that this had to happen
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i feel stupid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: for letting this happen
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i feel confused
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: about you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and im upset with you...but yet confused..and at my self
jbAybEeDuCk: i left out one thing that i feel
jbAybEeDuCk: ....sorry
jbAybEeDuCk: i think maybe i should hav told u how i felt in the beginning
jbAybEeDuCk: that things worried me ever since a long time ago
jbAybEeDuCk: and not keep it all bottled up inside
jbAybEeDuCk: i wanted to tell u
jbAybEeDuCk: i really did
jbAybEeDuCk: and iono i guess thats jus how i am
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well i forgive you, but that doesnt change anything now will
it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well is there anything more i should know
jbAybEeDuCk: did u get all that?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what do you mean? um did you say something while i got
disconnected
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or are you asking if i understand all that you've been trying
to tell me..
jbAybEeDuCk: the first one?
jbAybEeDuCk: i mean
jbAybEeDuCk: the first one
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: nope
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sorrie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: again please?
jbAybEeDuCk: i said i make excuses for how i felt
jbAybEeDuCk: and that loving was the bottom line
jbAybEeDuCk: but
jbAybEeDuCk: i questioned everything
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
jbAybEeDuCk: im sorrie if i can't tell u definite things
jbAybEeDuCk: about how i feel
jbAybEeDuCk: for u especially
jbAybEeDuCk: because i kno ur sure of wat u feel
jbAybEeDuCk: or at least u think u are
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont think i can give that to u
jbAybEeDuCk: wat u want from me
jbAybEeDuCk: or wat u need
jbAybEeDuCk: or iono
jbAybEeDuCk: am i making sense still?
jbAybEeDuCk: um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
jbAybEeDuCk: u also remember how i used to say i dont deserve u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yea
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: who does :-D
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jk
jbAybEeDuCk: heh
jbAybEeDuCk: someone better
jbAybEeDuCk: thats who
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont _want_ someone better
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont _believe_ there is someone else for me
jbAybEeDuCk: someone who can be everything for u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but who cant mean everything to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: !!!!
jbAybEeDuCk: someone who's dam sure of their feelings
jbAybEeDuCk: whos not messed up and sillie
jbAybEeDuCk: and confused
jbAybEeDuCk: and confusing
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: take all the time you need to be unconfused and be sure
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ill wait
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and you are everything that you can be for me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you are a girl
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that's a big plus
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh jp
jbAybEeDuCk: :-)
jbAybEeDuCk: u always make me smile
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i can take care of you, i can make you happy, and actually
tell that you are, i was happy to be with you and to have you, you needed
me, ur pretty and cute, and smart, and hell of a baker, fun to talk to,
relaxing to be with, i dunno what more can i want
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: in a girl
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what do you think you lack
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: (i got work in 30 min)
jbAybEeDuCk: ur soulmate?
jbAybEeDuCk: somebody who can meet u all the way
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: souls can't mate sillie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and if we'd still togehter..i would say..but we can ;-)..but
blah
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i took this test once
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and it said we were soulmates
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that was before we went out
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you can stacy i showed her the results, but she doesnt
really remember stuff though
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: blah
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i feel at lost again
jbAybEeDuCk: well thats wat i want
jbAybEeDuCk: a soulmate
jbAybEeDuCk: i don think u understand
jbAybEeDuCk: cuz ur a guy
jbAybEeDuCk: is like innate or something that u wouldnt get it
jbAybEeDuCk: i really dont wanna give u hope
jbAybEeDuCk: because im not sure of wat i feel
jbAybEeDuCk: honestly i dont kno if i can get back together with u
jbAybEeDuCk: and then if we dont
jbAybEeDuCk: ........
jbAybEeDuCk: and that sounds really harsh and bad
jbAybEeDuCk: the only thing i can tell u is
jbAybEeDuCk: i want it to be u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hold on
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sorrie parents came home
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and i want it to be me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: too
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so what is a soulmate to you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: exactly
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or more exact, then what you already said
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
jbAybEeDuCk: someone who knows me
jbAybEeDuCk: inside and out
jbAybEeDuCk: and still loves me
jbAybEeDuCk: how am i supposed to kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz..you should know urself..
jbAybEeDuCk: i can't give u instructions on how to be one
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i know life doesnt come with instructions
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well, will you help me though
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i can't juz
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont even know where to start
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: at least i dont right now
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i want to know you inside and out
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but i am not sure how to do that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: if you dont talk about yourself to me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but i think you said it was sorta my fault that you dont..and
that you want to..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so yea, im not psychic or anything
jbAybEeDuCk: i jus think
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sadly however much feminine i might be i am still a guy
jbAybEeDuCk: u cant understand and u neva will
jbAybEeDuCk: and thats the real bottom line
jbAybEeDuCk: therefore, i cant be with u
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: no
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: nooo
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that's is _not_ the bottom line
jbAybEeDuCk: and
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i can if you give me a chance
jbAybEeDuCk: i will NOT change u
jbAybEeDuCk: i will not change the person u are
jbAybEeDuCk: u dont deserve that
jbAybEeDuCk: u dont need to be something for me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i deserve you!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: really
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: how am i to understand
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you cant say i neva will
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we dont know that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont get it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you're like i want it to be you, adn then you're like i can't be
with you
jbAybEeDuCk: because iono
jbAybEeDuCk: its up to u
jbAybEeDuCk: not me
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno how to make it be you
jbAybEeDuCk: and i dont want to hav to
jbAybEeDuCk: i jus
jbAybEeDuCk: want my friend back
jbAybEeDuCk: *cries*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i am ur friend..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but i still dont get how i am to understand...are you gonna
talk to me...and then ill understand?!?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or am i juz to assume and guess
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: from what?!?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: this is why am angry with you! the only reason!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont see how im able to understand... im like standing in
the middle of nowhere
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: without a clue
jbAybEeDuCk: and this is y i am mad at YOU!
jbAybEeDuCk: no
jbAybEeDuCk: not mad
jbAybEeDuCk: frustrated*
jbAybEeDuCk: all
jbAybEeDuCk: the
jbAybEeDuCk: time
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that i dont understand?!?
jbAybEeDuCk: *sigh*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its not that i want to i dont know how!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont know how to understand
i dont know what to understsand
i dont when ill understand
but i know i will! if its the last thing i do!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but i can't do it without you!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i asked giani last nite at like 3, she agrees with meee...i
really dont what i am to do..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im going to work now
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and ill be thinking about you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and hopefuly i wont pass out wrong meds
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: good bye
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: um i didnt make matters worse did i?
jbAybEeDuCk: i think we talk sometime
Auto response from Il LiLAzNb0i Il: @work till ~8 15
jbAybEeDuCk: face to face i mean
jbAybEeDuCk: not behind a computer screen
jbAybEeDuCk: i cant see ur face
jbAybEeDuCk: and
jbAybEeDuCk: u cant understand
jbAybEeDuCk: go to work
jbAybEeDuCk: i am thinking about u too
jbAybEeDuCk signed off at 4:25:58 PM.
jbAybEeDuCk signed on at 7:53:45 PM.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =-O
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: juz when i got home
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: did you get on to seeee me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh jp
jbAybEeDuCk: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so watcha been doing
jbAybEeDuCk: nuthin
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: and u?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well i did say i was at work
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah
jbAybEeDuCk: of course
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: do you want some ice cream
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm i think itd melt before i get to ur house though
jbAybEeDuCk: um
jbAybEeDuCk: wat kind?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: wutever you want?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: from braums
jbAybEeDuCk: wat kind do u think i want?
jbAybEeDuCk: hmm?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: the yummy kind
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: banana
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: or chocolate
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: do you know what i would get
jbAybEeDuCk: cookies n cream
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oo
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: good job
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what would i get from bruams
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh =P
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: (it was in my subprofile too =P)
jbAybEeDuCk: strawberry shortcake?
jbAybEeDuCk: but
jbAybEeDuCk: thats not ice cream
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yay
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sure it is
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: vanilla ice cream
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: on a piece of cake
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so oh well
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: :p
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but sigh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: still
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we got that off of eachother's subprofile
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: haha
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: isnt that great
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =\
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah
jbAybEeDuCk: oh so great
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im sorrie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you know
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i remember that song in ur profile
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i liked it too when it came out
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and strangely, it reminded me of you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it came up during the first semester of gym
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: out*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: in 9th grade
jbAybEeDuCk: um it did?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yea
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we talked about the movie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it was a song in the movie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so it must have
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: the pokemon movie
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: wat did we say about it?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: man
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: my memory isnt _that_ great
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i think
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we were talking about the cartoon
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and how you watched it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and how pikachu is cute i think
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah i think i remember that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yes, and apparently i am a gazelle
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im juz a prey to be hunted...
jbAybEeDuCk: =\
jbAybEeDuCk: no
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im jk
jbAybEeDuCk: =\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and im sure jackie was too
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jbAybEeDuCk: i think we talk sometime
jbAybEeDuCk: face to face i mean
jbAybEeDuCk: and
jbAybEeDuCk: u cant understand
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: do you have a specific sample by any chance
jbAybEeDuCk: um
jbAybEeDuCk: ?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz i dont know, cuz i think i follow ya must of the time...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you think when we talk in person i can't understand what
you are saying?
jbAybEeDuCk: oooopps
jbAybEeDuCk: i meant
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ....
jbAybEeDuCk: we should talk*
jbAybEeDuCk: face to face
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hahah
jbAybEeDuCk: instead of behind a computer screen
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that's a big difference
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: then
jbAybEeDuCk: isnt dat wat i wrote
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yes i agree
jbAybEeDuCk: wat?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yea
jbAybEeDuCk: ohh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it's what you wrote
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i thought you meant, "when we talk face to face, not
behind a computer screen, i dont think you understand"
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but ok i see what you are saying now
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: wel i agree that we should
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and you know
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: when ever you want
jbAybEeDuCk: anytime is good for me
jbAybEeDuCk: i guess
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but not anytime is possible
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..right
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont work tomorrow
jbAybEeDuCk: well i'll be home by myself
jbAybEeDuCk: i hav to take jaymie to summer school tho
jbAybEeDuCk: and then go home
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: eh, are you saying i should come over and talk to you
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: would you be comfortable alone with me in ur house like
that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont care, but im still scared you dad would come home
again...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: at least he can't kill me for being ur bf though heh...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: *waves hand in front of face*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: are you there
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
jbAybEeDuCk: watever u want
jbAybEeDuCk: or dont want
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you tell me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: where when
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im not a picky guy (right?), wutever is fine
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont care
jbAybEeDuCk: tomorrow if u want
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i meant when more specifically
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: as in a time
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: last time you were asleep still and had to stand out there
like 5 min and u were all yelling at me...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i had to *
jbAybEeDuCk: i will be up at 730
jbAybEeDuCk: taking jaymie to class at 8
jbAybEeDuCk: and picking her up at 1130
jbAybEeDuCk: so iono
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ill come by around 8 30 - 9?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and leave when you leave i guess
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: if its fine with you
jbAybEeDuCk: fine
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: alright..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: should i be scared
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jk
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but really..how do you feel about all this...?
jbAybEeDuCk: i feel
jbAybEeDuCk: sad, angry, confused
jbAybEeDuCk: a lil scared
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: lil scared @ wha?
jbAybEeDuCk: not of u!
jbAybEeDuCk: :p
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: then about what
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well there's no need to be scared
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im here for you still :-) heh
jbAybEeDuCk: yeah, i kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but, do you really dont know, or do you not want me to
know..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: si n s 2 d ie: tell jennifer that her poem sucks
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what poem
si n s 2 d ie: in her info
si n s 2 d ie: hehe
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its a song
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: dork
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: dokr!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: omg
si n s 2 d ie: lies!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: m2m
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its their first popular song
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: dont say you love me
si n s 2 d ie: wow, really? i thought she wrote it
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ah sillie boy
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: are you gonna say something
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: watcha doing
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm..im not a gazelle anymore.. =\
jbAybEeDuCk: is that a poem?
jbAybEeDuCk: urs i mean
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: no
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: a song as well
jbAybEeDuCk: u used 'baby' a lot
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: well then
jbAybEeDuCk: they say 'baby' a lot
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: do you still want a poem
jbAybEeDuCk: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i was trying to be funnie
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but hah?
jbAybEeDuCk: wat?
jbAybEeDuCk: ??
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i asked
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: if you still want a poem
jbAybEeDuCk: and?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and that's the whole question..Do you still want a poem?
jbAybEeDuCk: are u being serious?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm, i meant to say i wasn't trying to be funnie. cuz i
thought you said heh at my question
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yes i am
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so?
jbAybEeDuCk: ......
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i was juz wondering
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dont care if you do or not
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz im probably gonna write one anyways
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz except for the first one and the last one
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i only write them when im sad..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: anyways
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im going to go take hubert and karen and peggy out to
icecream now..
jbAybEeDuCk: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz food and friends (and driving) will cheer me up some..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm?
jbAybEeDuCk: im not stupid
jbAybEeDuCk: *sigh*
jbAybEeDuCk: um go hav fun then
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: did i imply you're stupid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ?
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: um ok..well..i know you're not stupid...
jbAybEeDuCk: (i didnt need an explanation of y ure going out)
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: like its some validation of u having fun
jbAybEeDuCk: or watever
jbAybEeDuCk: i dont kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: im sorrie
jbAybEeDuCk: blah
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i did offer to bring you some..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but its kinda late now, karen took forever to finish her dad's
tax forms
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well bye
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: talk to later
jbAybEeDuCk: you*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yea
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: sorrie
jbAybEeDuCk: bye then
jbAybEeDuCk: sorrie?
Auto response from Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i scream, you scream, we all scream for
ice ream....
jbAybEeDuCk signed off at 9:51:23 PM.
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hi again
jbAybEeDuCk: hi
jbAybEeDuCk: my hair won't grow now
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: becuz?
jbAybEeDuCk: i started drinking caffeine again today
jbAybEeDuCk: a LOT
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm deja vu
jbAybEeDuCk: ?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i dunno, i've juz imagined you saying that before
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: caffeine? as in? coffee? or coek
jbAybEeDuCk: like coke
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i drink like two cans a day
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: my hair grows...
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you can't tell that it stopped growing already sille
jbAybEeDuCk: well i kno it has
jbAybEeDuCk: so um
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm?
jbAybEeDuCk: nm
jbAybEeDuCk: wat are u doing?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i was in the bathroom
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: and you
jbAybEeDuCk: chewing my hair
jbAybEeDuCk: *sigh*
jbAybEeDuCk: i hate doing that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: o.O
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: in fraustration at me :-)?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: id chew it too, if it was long enough
jbAybEeDuCk: y are u smiling at that?
jbAybEeDuCk: :p
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: cuz
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its a joke
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: unless you really are
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: then
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: :'(
jbAybEeDuCk: i used to chew it a lot
jbAybEeDuCk: in middle school
jbAybEeDuCk: i only do it rarely now
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =-O
jbAybEeDuCk: and u can smile at that if u want
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: y were u chewing at it back then
jbAybEeDuCk: *shrug*
jbAybEeDuCk: it was a bad habit
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: stop ruining ur pretty hair
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: steve's lil sis said u had pretty hair, from look at those green
pictures you took
jbAybEeDuCk: aww
jbAybEeDuCk: how sweet of her
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: i was gonna take her out for ice cream too
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but her mom wouldn't let her out
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: something about how we were too old to be with or
something
jbAybEeDuCk: how old is she?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: she's gonna be a freshman next year, at garland
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: so er
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: 14?
jbAybEeDuCk: oh
jbAybEeDuCk: thats not too young
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well then
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: her mom was mean and didnt want her to haf ice cream
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: *shrug*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: jbAybEeDuCk: jaymie was rite
jbAybEeDuCk: it was too soon
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: que is too soon
jbAybEeDuCk: um talking to u?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =\
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..so is it..still too soon
jbAybEeDuCk: no
jbAybEeDuCk: i was talking about yesterday
jbAybEeDuCk: we
jbAybEeDuCk: well ya kno
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: yes
jbAybEeDuCk: and then we talked like the whole day
jbAybEeDuCk: sorta
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well i was afriad..
jbAybEeDuCk: not when u went to work tho
jbAybEeDuCk: but u kno wat i mean
jbAybEeDuCk: afraid?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that if i didn't talk it out with you now..wed never get to
doing so
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: hmm
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh jaymie doesnt have to unwillingly lie to her dad anymore
jbAybEeDuCk: jaymie was heartbroken
jbAybEeDuCk: is*
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: huh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: wha
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: why
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: you broke two hearts~!
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: heh
jbAybEeDuCk: cuz of you!
jbAybEeDuCk: hehe
jbAybEeDuCk: dont u feel special now?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what
jbAybEeDuCk: um
jbAybEeDuCk: shes sad for me
jbAybEeDuCk: i guess
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: oh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ..ok
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: what about for me...
jbAybEeDuCk: oh yeah
jbAybEeDuCk: thats wat i meant
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: o.O
jbAybEeDuCk: shes sad for YOU
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: haha
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: ok
jbAybEeDuCk: not me
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: =P
jbAybEeDuCk: she always has to go against me doesnt she?
jbAybEeDuCk: heh
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: no
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its juz
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: everyone has to go with me =P
jbAybEeDuCk: ok u can hav them all
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but you have me..
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: therefore you haf them all as well
jbAybEeDuCk: well i dont want them
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: but you want me though
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: right
jbAybEeDuCk: i want enrique
jbAybEeDuCk: hehehe
jbAybEeDuCk: jk
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: we can share him
jbAybEeDuCk: no!
jbAybEeDuCk: he's all for me!
jbAybEeDuCk: ;p
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: *catfight*
jbAybEeDuCk: ok u win
jbAybEeDuCk: u can hav him
jbAybEeDuCk: hehe
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its even longer
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: well
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: it does span from like 12pm to 12 am
si n s 2 d ie: heh
si n s 2 d ie: i have time
si n s 2 d ie: is this a split personality!?
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: no
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: its a lil kid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: a lil 11 yr old kid
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: that iw as talking with
Il LiLAzNb0i Il: at first
si n s 2 d ie: that little girl's a bitch, you shoulda been mean with her
