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heya peepz.. well first i'd like to give credit
to the peepz at  & lovepoetry.com becuz a lot of these
poems are theirs.. and then i'll like to give credit
to my friends for their poems as well.
and i wrote some poems too but no credit for me.
and credit to the person who wrote the story.


Tomorrow©
(credit to chuck)

When tomorrow starts without me, 
And I`m not there to see, 
If the sun should rise and find your eyes 
All filled with tears for me; 
I wish so much you wouldn`t cry 
the way you did today, 
While thinking of the many things, 
We didn`t get to say. 
I know how much you love me, 
As much as I love you, 
And each time that you think of me, 
I know you`ll miss me too; 
But when tomorrow starts without me, 
Please try to understand, 
That an angel came and called my name, 
And took me by the hand, 
And said my place was ready, 
In heaven far above, 
And that I`d have to leave behind 
All those I dearly love. 
But as I turned to walk away, 
A tear fell from my eye 
For all my life, I`d always thought, 
I didn`t want to die. 
I had so much to live for, 
So much left yet to do, 
It seemed almost impossible, 
That I was leaving you. 
I thought of all the yesterdays, 
The good ones and the bad, 
I thought of all the love we shared, 
And all the fun we had. 
If I could relive yesterday, 
Just even for a while, 
I`d say good-bye and kiss you 
And maybe see you smile. 
But then I fully realized, 
That this could never be, 
For emptiness and memories, 
Would take the place of me. 
And when I thought of worldly things, 
I might miss come tomorrow, 
I thought of you, and when I did, 
My heart was filled with sorrow. 
But when I walked through heaven`s gates, 
I felt so much at home. 
When God looked down and smiled at me, 
From His great golden throne, 
He said, "This is eternity, 
And all I`ve promised you." 
Today your life on earth is past, 
But here life starts anew. 
I promise no tomorrow, 
But today will always last, 
And since each day`s the same way 
There`s no longing for the past. 
You have been so faithful, 
So trusting and so true. 
Though there were times you did some things 
You knew you shouldn`t do. 
But you have been forgiven 
And now at last you`re free. 
So won`t you come and take my hand 
And share my life with me? 
So when tomorrow starts without me, 
Don`t think we`re far apart, 
For every time you think of me, 
I`m right here, in your heart.

Stop My Tears©
 You know I love you and everything you do.
You make it a point to say you love me too,
But why waste your breath on something so untrue
Knowing full well all the pain that I've been through?

I wish I could tell you what you mean to me,
But the way you'd react, I can't guarantee.
So I'll keep it inside and just let things be,
Hoping, on your own, the love I feel, you'll see.

Hearing you voice is a sweet, yet, painful bliss.
It leaves me wanting your love, even just one kiss.
I'm so afraid to go, how can I leave this?
How can I let you go, when you are what I'll miss?

It's selfish to have you... and probably wrong.
But you've got to take chances, life's not that long.
I'll make it through alone, I'll try to be strong.
I'll never forget you, but I will move on.

I want to make the most of the time I have here,
By putting away my grief, my pain, and my fear.
So, love me and hold me and help stop my tears.
And I'll love you and want you and always be near


 

This is What I Meant
by Anita Katherine Sharp©

When I told you that I loved you,
I meant it, and I still do.
Whether or not the feeling is mutual,
I know this is a feeling that comes too few.

True Love rarely comes along in one's life,
This is what I thought I saw in you.
What I need to know, What I need to hear,
Is this what I can find in you?

Will you walk with me,
When the rest of the world walks out?
Can I believe in what you say,
Have faith and no doubt?

A shoulder to cry on, a counselor,
And companion will you be?
But most of all,
Will you look inside and see the real me?

Don't be afraid of what you might find,
Only the future can tell us.
Remember our past, but don't linger behind,
Please tell me what you have in mind.

For these are all traits of one deep love,
But also a true friend.
So which are you? Please clarify,
Either way, please say you'll be there till the end.

Do not assume, think, or attempt love,
You must learn, know and accept it.
For it is a gift form the heavens above,
Do not take it for granted.

 

Dream
by Michelle Lynn O'Malley ©

I had a dream last night 
I dreamt you were mine 
I dreamt I was happy 
but it passed with time 

I dreamt we had each other 
and nothing else mattered 
But as the sky began to brighten 
the dream I dreamt was shattered 

And as the day went on 
I longed to be asleep 
For in my dreams you needed me 
and my wounds were not so deep 

I long for the crescent moon 
and fear the sun's light 
For the day is full of empty promises 
that are only fulfilled at night 

So, if my mind seems somewhere else 
and my eyes drift into space 
Please do not disturb me... 
...I'm longing for the dream I chase 

And if my heart seems weary 
and I'm lost in a different place 
I'm only searching for the night 
and the warmth of your embrace.

Do you think of me?
by Rohan H.B Khan ©

Do you think of me when it is late,
wondering... is this fate?
Do you think of me at night
when you shut out the light?
Do you think of me as you awake
or does your heart break?
Do you think of me when you walk
or even when you talk?
Do you think of me when you are alone
or when you hear the phone?
Do you think of me sitting in your car
wishing upon a star?
Do you think of me looking at the moon
or listening to that special tune?
Do you think of me when you cry
or do you just sigh?
Do you think of me when you are blue
hopeing this love will come true?
Do you think of me, too
The way I do of you?

I am Always Here©
by lori beth whitenight 

tell me if you're hurting
please let me feel your pain
because I’ll never leave you standing 
in the pouring rain

when your world is clouded over
when you don't know who to turn to
just cry your tears and come to me
for i am always here for you

lay your head on my shoulder
tell me your troubles and fears
i will listen to your stories
i will try to dry your tears

so, when your world is out of control
your life no longer a straight line
come to me... i'll make you see
that soon it will all be fine

your life is what you make it
so, do what you've got to do
but remember this- when you can't go on
I am always here for you.

 

Don`t *bleep* Wit Azn`z 

It`s not dark or lite, 
It`s pure asian, that`s rite! 
Asian Pride thro thick and thin, 
Cuz all we asians always win! 
We are strong, in and out, 
That`s what asians are all about! 
We dont take no shiet from u, 
Cuz we can take u`r a$$ on too! 
Asian Pride! We stick by our side, 
If u gotta problem with that, then let`s take it outside! 
To all u asians, remember it`s true, 
That asian blood runs thro u! 
Asian Pride, World Wide! 
Dedicated 2 all mah fellow asians 
"Don`t *bleep* around wit us, foo!" 

Dream©
by Michelle Lynn O'Malley 

I had a dream last night
I dreamt you were mine
I dreamt I was happy
but it passed with time

I dreamt we had each other
and nothing else mattered
But as the sky began to brighten
the dream I dreamt was shattered

And as the day went on
I longed to be asleep
For in my dreams you needed me
and my wounds were not so deep

I long for the crescent moon
and fear the sun's light
For the day is full of empty promises
that are only fulfilled at night

So, if my mind seems somewhere else
and my eyes drift into space
Please do not disturb me...
...I'm longing for the dream I chase

And if my heart seems weary
and I'm lost in a different place
I'm only searching for the night
and the warmth of your embrace.

Friends©

It`s very rare
And hard to find
A special friend
Someone who`s kind

To keep your secrets
And never tell
No matter how mad
They will never yell

Always there
Tried and true
Pick you up
When you feel blue

Make you happy
When you`re sad
Protect you at all cost
When you`re bad

Never leave you
Always by your side
Shows true feelings
The truth never hides

My best friend
Sweety is you
Love me forever
And I`ll always love you

If Your`re Askin If I Love You,
The Answer Is Forever,
And If Your`re Asking If I`ll Leave You ,
The Answer Would Be Never,
If Your`re Asking What I Value Most,
The Answer Would Be You
And If Your`re Asking If I Need You,
The Answer Is I Do.
Friendship Lost
by Logan-Anne Michelle 

I thought we had the ideal friendship
The kind that really lasts
But as I finally take off this blindfold
I see I'm only treasuring the past.

I don't quite know what happened
There's not a whole lot left
But maybe if we search pretty hard,
We can find all of the rest.

I can't help but wonder, 
If you feel the same as me
Are you longing too?
For the friends we used to be?

How did we do this?
How did we lose track?
Let's start over,
And try to win it back...

A friend is a treasure©

A friend is someone we trust
To when our spirits needs a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure for
Our friendship is a gift,
A friend is someone who fills
Our lives with beauty,
Joy, and grace and makes
The world that we live in
A better and happiness place

If You Only Knew©

I can`t say what was going through my mind
I`m not even sure what I was thinking at the time
I know from the start, I had found a friend so true
But the feelings that later came, I had no clue
These feelings that I have, I`m unable to say
In fear that you will surely turn the other way
My feelings I will keep and treasure each night
My heart I will pour out to you only 
when the time is right
Until then I will enjoy our time far and few
And from a distance I will go on loving you...

True Luv
Written with a pen, sealed with a kiss
If you luv me, pleeze answer this
Do you love me, or do you not
You told me once but I forgot
So tell me now, in the truth
So I can say “I love you”
Of all the guys I’ve ever met
You’re the one I’ll never forget
And if I die before you do
I’ll go to heaven and wait foe you
But if you’re not there on judgement day
I’ll know you went the other way
I’ll give the angels back their wings
And risk the loss of everything
To prove to you my love is true
I’ll go to hell just to be with you.

To Die Foe Luv

There was a guy I liked so well
He liked me too, I could tell
He came and took my heart from me
And now he wants to set me free
He sat a girl on his knee,
And told her things that he never told me
I ran home and cried on my bed,
Not a word to my mom I had said,
My dad came home late at night
He searched for me left and right,
Then up the stairs my door he broke,
And found me hanging on a rope,
He got a knife and cut me down,
On the ground a note he found...
"Dig my grave and dig it deep
Place a statue at my feet
And at the top place a dove
To show the world I died for love.”

EVERY TIME©
If every time you crossed my mind,
a drop of rain should fall
We could swim forever,
in the greatest ocean of them all.
If every time I dreamed your face,
A flower bloomed anew,
I could walk eternally
in my garden next to you.
If every time I imagined your smile,
a star was placed in sight,
Darkness would never fall upon
our love's endless light.
And if every time I needed you,
A bird sang its song
Our symphony would keep on playing
long after we are gone

 

MY STAR©
In a vacant field, in the dead of the night;
Gazing up at the sky, I think of my plight.
Billions of stars in the heavens above;
Knowing these stars all represent love.
A star for each person, that much I can see;
A star for each person, but no star for me.
Tell me what I did wrong, tell me how did I fall?
A life without love, is no life at all.
Suddenly in the darkness, intense shining light;
A beautiful star, so brilliant and bright,
Catches my eye and outshines all the rest;
Feelings of joy fill the hole in my chest.
Could this be my star, is this one for me?
So perfect to look at, how can this be?
Oh that I could have wings and fly up above,
To be with my star, the one that I love.
I reach towards the sky; can't she see that I'm here?
She knows not who I am; my eyes shed a tear.
I know I will give all the love in my heart;
She's so close to me now.............
.................still, too far apart
"HRT"

If I had the letters "HRT" 
I can add "EA" to get a "HEART" 
Or a "U" n get "HURT" 
But I`d rather choose "U" and get "HURT" 
Then have "HEART" without "U"

Have U 4gotten Me?©

there is a face deep in my mind,
one that my heart won't leave behind.
there is a deep voice in my soul,
telling me not to lose control.
memories as cold- empty of laughs,
and all that remains are photographs.
and day after day i hold back the tears,
'cuz pain is the greatest of my fears.
where ever u may be tonight
i wonder when u close your eyes
have u 4gotten me?

POEM OF HOPE

In the end it's always love,
Love that makes you sad.
But it can make you happy too, 
even make you glad.

Glad to be alive.
Glad to see his face.
And every time that you're near him,
your heart begins to race.

You love him as a friend.
You loved him at first sight.
Whenever you're around him,
he makes the darkness light.

He always make you laugh.
He always makes you cry.
And every time it makes you 
think that he's the perfect guy.

You remember every moment,
The beginning and the end.
At time you think your heart stopped loving,
that it will never mend.

You feel so emotional,
You feel locked inside.
The thing that he has hurt most,
is what you once called pride.

He threw away your friendship,
And left a sad and mournful heart.
And now you have to deal with being so far apart.

His love was like the sunshine,
Beaming through the clouds.
With nature in the background, making all its nature sounds.

And now the sun is set.
All the world is dark.
But nothing seems darker, 
that the darkness in your heart.

BOYZ!

A heart is not a play thing,
a heart is not a toy,
but if you want it broken,
Just give it to a boy.

Boys they like to play with things
To see what makes them run,
But when it comes to kissing,
They do it just for fun.

Boys never give their hearts away
They play us girls for fools,
They wait until we give our hearts
And then they play it cool.

You will wonder where he is a night
You will wonder if he's true,
One moment you will be happy,
One moment you will be blue.

If you get a chance to see him
Your heart begins to dance
Your life revolves around him,
There's nothing like romance.

And then it starts to happen,
You worry day and night
You see, my friend, you're losing him
It never turns out right.

Boys are great, though immature
The price you pay is high,
He may seem sweet and gorgeous
But remember, he's a guy.

Don't fall in love with just a boy
That takes alot of nerve.
You see, my friend, you need a man
To get what you deserve.

So when you think that you're in love,
Be careful if you can
Before you give your heart away
Make sure that he's a man.

Friendz

I face the challenge day to day 
of people who want me to be their way,
and when i'm not they turn away,
or try to hurt me with the things they say.
but when i have my friends with me,
i no longer feel any misery.
i'm exactly who i want to be-
as free and as happy as a fish in the sea.
when my friends are gone i'm alone inside,
with an indifferent world that pushes me aside.
over this, so many tears i've cried,
and out of shame, so many times i've lied.
how much i luv my friends, i doubt they'll ever know,
their kindness and spirit gives me strength to grow.
i'll give u my advice it goes like so-
if u have friends like mine, don't ever let them go.

Once Upon

once upon a midnight star,
our luv was lost and gone by far.
all was gone and all was lost,
to have u back i'd pay the cost.

u never understood how much i cared,
to mock my luv was all u dared.
never took a look that i was in love,
but as heavenly devine like a pearl white dove.

just want to let you know,
that 4ever i will wait.
to watch our love grow,
love will alwayz b my fate.

Unanswered

the first time we talked
there was still an ache in my heart
u said 2 take it slow
so my heart could restart
we lasted but a month,
when the calls stopped,
and the letters went unanswered.
i knew it was time to give up.
it was hard, but i was strong.
still confused of what went wrong.
still my heart belongs to you,
until i can replace u with someone new.

To 4get About The Past

To 4get about the past,
you must dream about tomorrow.
use the water of the future,
to drown away your sorrow.
for the past will never live again,
only memories exist.
u can never buy back ur yesterday,
no matter how hard u wish.

Anything Is Possible

For whom can believe, can achieve
set your goal straight for u can achieve it.
use the guidance besides u for strength,
ur friends for support, and family for love.
be yourself and no one else and learn that
"anything is possible"

Victory at the end

learing isn't easy,
frustration tends to set in quickly.
u hurt,
u feel defeated,
u want to give up to quit,
u want to walk away,
and pretend it doesn't matter.
but u won't because u're a fighter and not a loser.

Everything You Do
by Megan Garnet Fisher©

I was sitting here thinking 
of the words I want to say,
but they just wouldn't come out right- 
so I found a different way. 

I got a piece of paper 
and I wrote this poem for you,
but there's no way to thank you 
for everything you do. 

For always being nice to me 
and staying by my side, 
for helping fix my problems 
and never leaving me behind. 

For accepting my thoughts and feelings,
though you do not understand,
for never giving up on me 
and being my best friend. 

For making me laugh- 
and letting me cry 
and saying you'd miss me 
if I were to die. 

Everything you mean to me
you could never know. 
In all the ways you've changed
my life I could never show. 

The way you take care of me, 
(you're my shining star)
and though it's so incredible 
that's just the way you are. 

Before I get too mushy 
it's time for me to go,
but before I leave this ink-filled page
there's one thing you should know. 

As long as we are living, 
no matter when or where,
if you ever need me- 
just call and I'll be there. 

I'll climb a thousand mountains 
and swim a thousand seas... 
anything to be there
'cause you've been there for me.

Special Friends
by Douglas Russell Turner©

You're a special friend
Who I know is always there
Someone to share my life with
Every hope, dream, and care

Whenever I feel sad, or alone
You're always there to make me smile
It's friends like you who I know
Won't leave me after a while

Special friends like you
mean the world to me
When I think of something special
It is your face I see

All the time I've spent with you
Puts a smile upon my face
I hope one day I'll be with you again
Somehow, Sometime, someplace

You mean a lot to me and I would
Do anything in the world for you
So, no matter what's going on in your life
Just know you have someone to turn to.

You're a special person 
I care a lot about you
I wish I could say how special you are
Only if you knew...

A Friend
by Hazel G. Haas ©

A friend that is special is a friend indeed.
A friend like you is the kind I need.

You're there when I need you and all in between,
I don't think you'll ever know how much to me you really mean.

We always have something to talk about,
We always have something to share.

If ever our friendship would end,
I would always, always care.

I know we're friends for life, me and you, you and me.
I will be your friend from now to eternity.

I hope you like this poem, it comes straight from my heart.
I hope you get the message that in life we'll never part.

Somebody Should Have Taught Him
Retold by Jane Watkins©

I went to a birthday party, 
But I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink at all,
So I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn’t choose to drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I knew I made a healthy choice and
Your advice to me was right
As the party finally ended
And the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my own car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
Never knowing what was coming,
Something I expected least.
Now I’m lying on the pavement.
I can hear the policeman say,
“The kid that caused this wreck was drunk.”
His voice seems far away.
My own blood is all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
“This girl is going to die.”
I’m sure the guy had not idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink an drive
That I would have to die.
So why do people do it,
Knowing that it ruins lives?
But now the pain is cutting me
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell my sister not to be afraid,
Tell Daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven to
Put “Daddy’s Girl’ on my grave.
Someone should have taught him
That it’s wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his mom and dad had,
I’d still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter,
I’m getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I’m so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me, Mom,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say
I love you and good-bye.

***NOTE*** ithis poem is in rememberence to all those people who have died from drunk driving accidents when they weren't the one who caused it. Please I do ask of you don't drink and drive, don't get in a car with someone who drank. Take Kare!

Mommy...

Johnny brought a gun to school, 
He told his friends that it was cool, 
And when he pulled the trigger back, 
It shot with a great crack. 
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did 
What I was told, 
I went to school, I got straight A’s, 
I even got the gold! 
But Mommy, when I went to school that day, 
I never said good-bye, 
I’m sorry Mommy, I had to go, 
But Mommy, please don’t cry. 
When Johnny shot the gun, 
He hit me and another, 
And all because Johnny, 
Got the gun from his older brother. 
Mommy, please tell Daddy; 
That I love him very much, 
And please tell Chris; my boyfriend; 
That it wasn’t just a crush. 
And tell my little sister; 
That she is the only one now, 
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; 
I’ll by waiting for her now, 
And tell my wonderful friends; 
That they always were the best; 
Mommy, I’m not the first, 
I’m no better than the rest. 
Mommy, tell my teachers; 
I won’t show up for class, 
And never to forget this,
And please don’t let this pass. 
Mommy, why’d it have to be me? 
No one deserves this, 
Mommy, warn the others, 
Mommy I left without a kiss. 
And Mommy tell the doctors; 
I know they really did try, 
I think I even saw a doctor, 
Trying not to cry. 
Mommy, I’m slowly dying, 
With a bullet in my chest, 
But Mommy please remember, 
I’m in heaven with the rest. 
Mommy I ran as fast as I could, 
When I heard that crack, 
Mommy, listen to me if you would, 
I’m not coming back. 

***NOTE*** this poem is in remeberence to all the victims of school shootings. Please i beg of you if u know anyone who's gonna try to bring a gun to school please do stop them we must help stop this cuz you never know if you're on a persons list to die. sorry to scare you. take Kare!

Should I Stay Or Leave You Behind?©

As we say good-bye
I know I lost you forever
And as we hang up the phone
That's the last time we're going to talk together

Just another one that failed
Time to move on
I wish it was that way 
For my love is not even gone

We talked about if we left
That we'd always be a friend
But as we said good-bye
That seemed to be the end

Do I have to move on
And leave you behind
Since we got broken apart
And our love was denied?

It doesn't seem fair
I'm still in love with you
Even though you left me in the past
I still think of us as two

I picture you in my mind
And your image starts to fade.
Has it been that long since I have seen you?
Was that really the last memory we made?

I know I won't find another
That will compare to what we had.
It all seemed way too good.
So in the end it turned out bad.

I lost a lot of friends
Through you and me.
It didn't really matter at the time 
Because it felt we were meant to be.

You told me once
It would be weird to stick around
Because you'd be just another ex
That didnt fall to the ground.

I remember all those times
When we held each other tight
And nothing seemed to matter 
As we wasted days and nights.

What's that phrase that people say?
"If you were meant to be,
You'd find a way back to each other"
I wonder if that will be you and me
'Cause I'm afriad I can't love another.

So here's the question 
That's been pondering in my mind.
Should I keep holding on
Or leave you behind?

I feel it might be better
To leave you in the past
Since we haven't really talked
From the night we said we won't last.

I have a chance with someone else
But I don't have the strength to try
Since my heart, body, and soul is with you
And every night I cry.

My mind is filled with thoughts of you
And it gets brought up every time,
This question that has no answer,
Should I stay or leave you behind?

I Cried For You
by Micheal  McKay©

I cried for you last night
When I tried to sleep
Wish I had more of you
Than just a memory to keep

If I closed my eyes
Could it be just once upon a time
When I was yours and
When you were mine

And if I closed my eyes
Would you hold onto me forever
An dream we'd find a way
To always be together

I cried for you last night
Let the tears drown out my pain
And dreamed of when we could
Be together again

I cried for you last night
When I tried to sleep
Wish I had more than just
This fading dream to keep


 
 

Will You Be There For Me?
by Sandra  Turner ©

When life's simple things are coming too fast.
I cannot meet the needs of all.
With fear in my voice, tears in my eyes
and my back up against the wall...
Will you come to me then?
When so troubled is my heart.
Will you come to me, sense it when...
My whole world is falling apart?
Are you strong enough to cry for me,
Weak enough to let me know,
No matter where life's troubles take me...
On your shoulder, my tears are free to flow?
Will you hold me, when holding is all I need?
Love me, so I can feel that too.
Be my pillar of strength, where I can run.
When in my heart, all I need is you.
 

I'm not perfect
by Ryan Alexandra Ranalli ©

i'm sorry i'm not perfect
i can only be me
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
like the girl you want me to be

i'd give anything to make you happy
even if it makes me sad
i'd never do anything to hurt you
i don't try to make you mad

sometimes you get angry
and we start to fight
little do you know
i cry myself to sleep at night

sometimes i don't know
just what i did wrong
i don't understand
why we don't get along

every time that we fight
i wish you could feel my heart break
sometimes i wonder
how much more my heart can take

sometimes i get so angry
i don't know what to say
i feel just like a game
that everyone want's to play

the only thing i need in this world
is someone who is true
the only thing i want in this world
is to be loved by you

If You Ever See Him
by Kristine Beulke 

If you ever see him on the street
and, by chance, he nods and stops to speak.
If I happened to be mentioned,
please, answer this way if you are questioned..

 If he asks you how I am,
say, 'wonderful with your memory
and lonely without your arms.'

 If he asks you how I look,
say, 'beautiful, full of life.
You can only see her tears
when the light is right.'

 If he asks you if I'm seeing someone,
say, 'only in her dreams.'

 Then look him in the eye 
and ask him these same things.

 When your through please tell him,
'she stopped looking... after you.
 You were her dream come true.

 You know stars don't always stay in the sky.
 And a love that is so precious
should never be let by.

 But anyway, I'm on my way...
I'll tell her you said ...hi'

Some really sweet stories!

It all started when I was 16 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together. I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a Friend kinda thing that I was feeling. All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York; I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart. Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a wedding. It was from him; I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. It was a big church wedding with the reception at a hotel. I met the bride and of course I talked to him too. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me. I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "Meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together. One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport, and that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. I asked questions: "Why did this happen to a kind guy like him?" I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a dairy that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written. The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe the next day will never come at all.
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd." 

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. 

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. 

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. 

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. 

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him. 

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books. 

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship. Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. 

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak. Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy,  sometimes I was jealous. 

Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said. 

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began. "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story." 

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. 

"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." 

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth. 

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. 

God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way. Look for God in others.

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