My mind is drifting off in to a world of confusion
I know that what I am feeling is not an illusion
I feel lost around things that use to be comfortable for me
Though, I know that there are reasons for everything that I can't see
I know the exact reasons why I feel the way I do
Everything that I was afraid of feeling is true
No matter how much I hate to admit to it, I care
I can't erase these feelings because they are always there
It's a bittersweet feeling that I just can't get past.
It scares me because I don't know how long they will last.
I know that eventually everything will be ok
What do I do for now? How am I supposed to find the courage to survive?
I am trying to forget, and move on with my life
It's hard to just drop these feelings that are hurting me like a knife
I want to be happy, and I hate being sad
I can't stop reminiscing on the feelings I've had.
How do you just drop feelings that you were feeling?
You can't, so why am I trying?
I have everything I could ever want to make me happy
Though I still find myself searching for an answer
Some kind of answer that will fill this empty void in my heart
I never knew looking for it would tear my whole world apart.
Maybe one day I will find the answer to my burning question
But for now I will just have to wonder about everything until I wake up from what I hope is a dream...