CLASS E FIRE

Another drink to drown my sorrows
if my drink doesn’t drown me first.
Chalk another girl up on my sheet of deceit
she’s another pencil mark to add to my esteem.
I was never really happy never content,
by the end of that night I wish I hadn’t
been so ignorant to the truth around me.
Blinded by life it took death to make me see.

When silence deafens and darkness blinds me
it’s hard to see, it’s hard to breathe I probably don’t
want to see I don’t want to breath anyway.

Foolish confidence in my sobriety
led to a pile of flesh and metal beside a tree.
It didn’t take long a minute, maybe two or three,
blood ran freely but no tears did for me.

I open my mouth to fill my empty lungs.
A breath in vain, quite a ballad I’ve sung.
Eternity never meant much but seems so long now.
I was wrong all along and I see that now.
It hurts when pain becomes my friend.
Especially when that pain never ends.