My behavior was wrong
and the awesome fear
of losing my family
to which I was sealed
to forever and forever;
had to overcome my ego
of this the depression
of my mind to go outside
not hiding in my mind
in the valleys of the shadows
which were beyond
my ability to survive.

So I went to seek the help
as the love of my bride
and loving two sons
bid me please to do.

To reach a new level
of understanding
within my withering
shrinking soul.

It was not the first
or even the second
or third from who
I found some peace.

As to the who I was
or thought I'd become;
it took resilience to return
and look again and again
for the one who could
help me understand
the depression which
gripped my inner soul.

Would I, or could I
do it all again, oh yes
only with hind sight;
it would have
been long before;
I'd let it get so far
as to nearly my life
and my family end.