what a series of unfortunate events
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: candy paint
Topic: this last month
This last month has been so CRAZY!!! i wish it would just hurry up and get back to normal. But somehow i think thats never gunna happen. like it started when jeremy and kristy and i were out rolling around and jeremy thought it would be cool to drive on the wrong side of the road and honking his horn like a crazy maniac. And of course i was terrified and i jerked the wheel and we almost died...but anyways the wheel barring blew and yea. we thought it was the breaks...then he gets another ticket...then he blows the engine on the firechicken...then kristi gives me a black eye then she takes my warped tour tickets...then he gets them back in order for us to go and leave an hour and a half later...I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK??? and i couldnt even get to see underoath or anyone really. WHAT THE FUCK??? anyways yea...earlier in the month i accidently cheated on him with vinessa...(accidentally cause both me and her dont remember it...) and i have this $87 fine and i had the money but it got stolen from me...UGH! and all of this would happen outside of work. Inside of work its even more intense. Karla is such a drama person...and she is trying to get nancy fired...and eduardo is getting fired cause he got caught dealing and using cocaine at work. and he has been shit talking people in spanish. anyways karla just quit but i guess she is still gunna work there cause don gave her everything she wanted. I cover for everyone. We just had david quit and eric and jose and samantha and now with eduardo...what the hell??
i dont know...i got overtime these last two pay-periods. OOh-OOH!!

anyways thats not all...there is the whole josh and kaci situation...they keep telling people that me and josh are having sex and we arent.  yep. anyways blah....the whole thing about warped tour was bogus. i mean ryan bitched his way out of it all cause he was hot and sober...and i mean that was my only day that i wanted for me. I mean what in the world?

Wow...crazy little shit...
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: "wow i can get sexual too" by say anything
Topic: little ol' me
So lately I feel totally crazy and all out of wack!
I went to the doctors and i guess i could possibly have an ulcer and stuff and yea. It sucks. But that means that i cant eat solid foods and I can only drink stuff. My food lately has been chicken broth. I keep trying to sneak food but my body will freak out and i barf it up anyways. ugh! and i swear to god that cigs are totally ruining my life. ACtually i feel like i am ruining my life. I totally have beeen trying to go sober lately cause im starting to see the effects of it...and when i see josh do them it really hurts me. And they are just plain stupid. (but drinking is not a drug...neither is smoking) OMG! I totally got a hair cut. How cool! Its sexy. like everyone that see's it is like WOW SHAVAUGHN THAT LOOKS HOTT! haha. and all josh can say is that it isnt good enough. Oh well. i think that im not really gunna do too good this term cause i keep missing school and stuff. But its cause i was sick. MEH!

TIRED
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: nadda...
Topic: little ol' me
SO i am at school right now and i am absolutely tired. I wonder how long I am actually going to keep this one. I just went out and got a realy journal and i think thats the shit.

I cant wait to go home. I am so tired and really really cold. Last night josh and i had the most amazing time and it was totally worth it.

I am hungry but that doesnt really matter. I really want to hit jesus...
yes jesus...i want to hit you. haha

(Jesus is my bowl)

anyways I LOVE JOSHUA THOMAS!!