why
Mood:  sad
Topic: us
its so weird how in life we are always looking for something that we think may be better for us ... its ironic how we know where we are suppose to be yet we find ourselves in other places... i have tried to live with out you but in the end realize it is and has always been you ... trying to deny these feelings has only driven me further away ... putting myself in relationships i think r the right, yet always end in me breaking it off ... because? I have come to the conclusion ...you. I thought that if i had a stable home everything else would fall into place ... but it never did. i don't care what anybody thinks John WAS a good man but the passion i have for you was never there with him ... i married him because i thought that would make everything in my life better but it didin't and it wasn't fair to him that i did not feel for him what he felt for me. I ended up making things worse by trying to make them better. how i ever thought i could be content without you or the kids is beyond me. I had a good life with him but i will never love anyone like i love you. does this make me crazy..probably!

we r here again
i don't care what people say and i don't care what they think....i still love you and i probably always will....u r mean to me and i am mean to u but still the love is there ... so much passion we have for each other yet that is what pushes over the edge at times .. why do we do this to ourselves who knows