Topic: Life with a Need
Where do you find happiness in life? Many people find happiness in their love lives and constantly search for that somebody. What if you are stuck in a position where you cannot search? Somebody holds you down, you cannot move for a long time, and when you are able to get back up again it is too late. Many people talk about depression and they do not understand it. People think they are so depressed because something has happened in their life. Depression is something that lags onto you and you cannot get it off you. Realizing that there will probably be no love in your life because you were always held down. Parents are something that is supposes to always love us. When does that start to show in the life because fathers always look down on our souls as we are a problem? If I was such a problem is life then why was I created. I wanted to help people my whole life until I realized I am the one who needed help. Whats wrong with this because the sareth is not suppose to take over us. We should stick high and find love. Love will not come here because my mind is set on a time that I cannot go back to. How do you go forward in life when your life stays still? Not pure evil gets a grip of me but hunger. The hunger to have something in life to stay in life for. People think that this is a weird thing and only freaks want it all to end. Does this make me a freak or am I a person. I am not sure sometimes because I look at myself and I cannot answer my own questions. What should we look for in life if there isn’t a way for us to go? I am grateful for God to put me in this world but I am having trouble getting through it. I am here for god and only for god. If god would let us then it would be all over by know. Help didn’t help me at all. People asking me questions make me crazier because that’s how they look at me. Have you had yourself listen to music for hours but once it turns off the sadness comes back. Anybody out there, please help me.

James