11-6
Life has been going great. I tell you! But there’s something in the back of my head that is telling me something’s wrong…I don’t know what it is but for some small reason there Is a solitary child hiding in the corner of my mind rocking back and forth telling me something’s wrong. I ignore it and go along on my marry way. But the child has begun to grow into a teenager and the raging hormones are now circulating thought his mid sized body and he is still small but his voice has gotten deeper and is still whispering in my ear about the problem. I still avoid him. I avert my attention to more important situations. For I to have hit the age were hormones rage and I need to pay more attention to my life instead of one small problem. But when last year started the problem blocked my mind and averted my attention to it during class. And now my grades have been slipping and the now mid-teen is laughing at me. But now things are worse. I know something wrong because now he is shouting. No longer hiding the corner in the usually rocking position. Now he is standing in the other side of the room where the cool people hang out and now he is being heard. No longer can my sides hide from him. My Were side wishes he would stay because now he is more heard. My actor likes him but he causes him to loss parts because of his grades. My crazy side loves him because he can do what he want again. My nerdy side wishes he would have never left his small corner because now no one listens to him. My regular self, just plain old Mitch loves him but hates him. He wishes the boy would be gone because he is ruining his life…but then again I like him around. He lets me have fun and do whatever I want…
11-6 (in a rant mode)
Preach. The 1st thing we think of when these words are spoken is CHURCH! Well I’m here to tell you what I believe (we will only touch on this subject) But, we will also go into why I am writing this. Think of the first word. Now to my beliefs….
Just to let you know my religion is a mix of Catholic, Spiritual Therianthrope, and small ideas that pop into my head. Also I do believe there is a Hell and a Heaven and There is a limbo (cant believe the Catholics just one day said…oh no limbo!) And I believe in a few other little things that I wont go into because I’m still not sure about them all. Well one small belief I have but am thinking of getting rid of is my small Idea of Self belief. Which means what ever you believe when you die. Like if your Jewish all that happens to you in your religion happens to you. But there is a small problem with this. Because (sigh I don’t like this subject) with 9-11 if my idea was true then all the terrorists are now being feed grapes and getting there things used over and over with all them virgins. See, that’s a problem with that belief of Mitchellism (my religion). I also have that little Spiritual Therianthrope that I have recently adapted into my beliefs. That is that I am a were. Which is taken from the word Werewolf. Also this means that I am highly connected with my kin (coyotes and hawks) and that I can change into them in shifts. (to find out more about so versions of Therianthrope and Weres please visit www.shifters.org).
To the point of my rant now…PLEASE STOP WITH THE PREACHING! I WILL NOT CHANGE MY WAYS JUST BECAUSE OF SOME CHURCH. I have ideas about the church and the bible. But that’s way to sensitive for me to touch (giggles) anyway. Just for everyone that has gotten on me about going to that church and supposedly “saving me” From utter torture in hell. I LIKE MY IDEAS…I WANT TO KEEP IT THAT WAY, AND THERES NO WAY I WILL BE GOING TO YOUR CHRUCH! *SIGHS* wow…I feel better…