To grow up and knowing that you’re never loved,
Knowing you were alone,
Knowing you’re never accepted.
Feeling the whips hitting you
Across your face, arms, legs and back,
Knowing you’re hated day after day.
Nobody becomes your friend
Thinking you are always wrong,
That child always crying for anyones’ help.
That abusive person trying to destroy you
Bit by bit, testing your self-esteem,
Feeling yourself slipping away not caring.
You start tearing yourself down
Letting go, falling deeper and deeper,
Only to find out God won’t let you go.
You wonder why God wants you to live
When you have no spirit to go on,
So into darkness you’ll never see light.
I know I’m needed, now someone calls me
I want to help others but I wonder how,
I ask myself will I be able to help them.
I love so few, and helped so Many
No one has had the pains as I had or will
No one could ever feel the pain but me.
I tried to fill a void for my life
But so far I have found alot of heartbreak
I ask myself if all of it was my fault.
I searched all over for my special place
I wonder if it’s far beyond the universe
Is the love I’m needing there?
Only one knows, until then I will wait
I will be patient, and I will find love,
In this world or another I will belong.
I just hope i can find a place to leave
my hurt behind.