Gail's Online Brainfart

Sunday, February 29, 2004

i think this is the most shaken up i've come home in quite some time. today was a long day first of all. we had our confirmation first year make-up retreat today, and it was loooooooooooong. in the end it went better than expected actually, but the one day retreat cant hold a candle to our full day retreat in my opinion...eh...whatver...on to my point. after the retreat today, tanya, herbie, angelo, ariel, maryanne, and i headed out to randy's house to chill then watch "The Passion of Christ" at a theatre over there in Duarte. let me just tell you now. that movie accomplished it's goal. it shook each and every one of us coming out of that theatre. to be very honest, im not sure i'm gonna be able to see that movie again, or at least, not anytime in the near future, but it blew me away. the pain that Jesus suffered for us. the image of the scourging at the pillar, the image of the actual crucification - all i can say is WOW. i just pray i dont have nightmares tonight about the devil. it really shook me up.

Lessons for the day:

1. We're called to go out and love all those we meet - no matter how much we dont like them.
2. always keep an open heart and an open mind
3. view always changes - it's all a matter of perspective

posted at 1:24 AM

Friday, February 27, 2004

adventure - noun, an unusual, exciting and possibly dangerous activity such as a journey or experience, or the excitement produced by such an activity

hmm...exciting...journey or experience. it's weird. why is it sometimes we're just scared at the possibility of an adventure? sometimes we dont know waht you're missing out on cuz we're too afraid to actually just take the risk. this works on so many levels...there's the person who doesnt want to take the risk and finally just start school, to try to learn. there's the risk of the person who is in school, but is so scared to finish because he doesnt know what he's gonna do after. there's the risk of the boy who's aout to propose to the girl, or the boy that's just working up the nerve to ask the girl out. there's the risk of moving to a far off land with no friends to hold onto just to be able to branch out and find oneself, the risk of being lost in the crowd. the risk of not only failing miserablly, but also having everyone know it.

why is it sometimes so hard to choose the right path for a person? the path that just feels right? why cant we sometimes just follow our instincts and go for it. do what our heart says and venture out onto the path and take that leap out of our comfort zone right into some potential happiness - the potential to find more happiness than ever imaginable. maybe we all just need to say fuck it, and just try being a little more adventurous...

posted at 10:57 PM

yay for federal tax returns!

posted at 9:48 AM

Thursday, February 26, 2004

Build My World

Clear my eyes, it's the morning after
Did I fall in love, or did I find disaster?
Take a second just to breathe
I pick my heart up off my sleeve, yeah

There he goes and I know he knows
By the way he eased out on his tippy toes
Skip the breakfast tea for two
We made no plans to rendez-vous, yeah

Someone for everyone but no one for me
Constantly searching for the love I need to

Build my world around, around
I'll be the lonely one until I find someone
The one to build my world around, around
Surrender all to love until I find the one
The one to build my world...

Lazy days, I'm in a hazy phase
Of watching countless ways in which my life goes crazy
Foolishness to blame
Still it pains me all the same, yeah

Empty faces with empty gazes
In a race of change I'm losing faith in my pace
Trying to keep my feet before I fall

I'm on this endless road with nothing to see
Constantly searching for the love I need to

Build my world around, around
I'll be the lonely one until I find the one
The one to build my world around, around
Surrender all to love until I find the one
The one to build my world

A cornerstone of honesty (All around)
A foundation of gravity and freedom (All around)
A clear and concrete understanding (All around)
A love that's best kept safe and sound

It's amazing how we fear the maybe
It's from ourselves we so often run
Abandon fear and consequence of heartbreak
Expose the truth and give yourself to love

We've all been set up to be disappointed
We have to crawl before we learn to fly
It's a blur that moves right into focus
Removes the doubt, aligns your heart and mine

Build my world around, around
(It's amazing, ah yeah)
I'll be the lonely one until I find the one
The one to build my world around, around
(Around, around, yeah)
Surrender all to love until I find the one
The one to build my world around, around
(Around, yeah, oooh...)
I'll be the lonely one until I find the one
The one to build my world around
(Oh baby, just say it, just say it, just say it, just say it, yeah yeah, oh baby)
Surrender all to love until I find the one
The one to build my world

posted at 10:02 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

got my copy today...you need to get yours too!

posted at 1:41 PM

yay! my friend steve fixed it for me! he's the greatest IT guy here in Walnut Center!

posted at 12:32 PM

booooo...it didnt work. but it was cute anyways, take my word for it. and it definitely made me smile...

=)

posted at 12:05 PM

my very cute friend tony sent me this. it made me smile...

posted at 11:52 AM

Monday, February 23, 2004

sitting and talking and just catching up is nice sometimes too...

tonight teen and i decided to have an early dinner at buko and we just caught up. it was such a refreshing time. total honestly, total security, total confidence in a friendship that's more like a sisterhood. we just caught up, just the two of us, and just reminded each other of why we're friends. the ability to talk openly with each other without having to hide or worry that the other will judge our actions. it felt good to catch up. she's definitely one of my best friends...

in other news...heehee...i saw the love of my life today, and haahaa...bleh. im gonna stop liking boys, boys suck. bleh.

posted at 9:08 PM

sometimes it's just nice to spend time with old friends. the friends you grew up with. the ones who "knew you when...". tonight was a night the "carpool crew" - as we were affectionately called our fresman year of high school - got together again. Anne, Jay, Teen, and I just hung out. just the four of us. It was our Sex in the City night - and our girls night out. it was weird and nice all at the same time just hanging out. it's been forever since it was just the 4 of us and it brought back so many memories of when we were younger. we sat, we ate, and we just talked. we started getting to know each other again, but not as kids or teenagers anymore - as adults. we've all grown so much and changed so much that sometimes its hard to see past our old selves, to see what we are now. it was a nice night. it just reminded me of how no matter how much time passes, old friends are still that - friends

posted at 12:21 AM

Saturday, February 21, 2004

you know, it's so weird how many different directions life can take you in. today was a definite reminder of the circle of life (excuse the lame saying)...

this morning was the funeral of my good friend connie's grandma and jay and i headed out to Forest Lawn - Rose Hills for the services, and you know what one of the worst feelings is? seeing your friends hurting and knowing that there's absolutely nothing you can do about it. seeing connie and eugene (my old boss, and friend who happens to be connie's uncle) today just hurt my heart. i've never really had anyone close to me pass away *knock on wood* so i dont know what it's like to be in that situation. i cant empathize. i just want to be a good caring friend, but sometimes you just dont know what to do. it's just very hard, and i can only imagine how hard it is for them experiencing it. i just wish there could be something i could do to help them get through the pain. oh well, i'll just do the best i can at letting them know that im here for them.

anyways, back to the whole circle of life thingy...tonight i went to a debut. a celebration of life. Christine Labajo's life to be exact. surprisingly enough, i had a pretty good time. to be honest, i wasnt about to go. shit who wants to be 5th leg for randy and patricia and ariel and maryanne? you've gotta be kidding me right?! jeez. luckily, i found myself a "date" for the night and he was great. thank god for him cuz otherwise i would've really have been hating life tonight. it was a good thing though. very uplifting. it was a celebration of all that Christine's accomplished and how much more she will accomplish in the future - 18, she's barely just starting to live. she was beautiful, happy, and she deserved every bit of it. she's a great girl, and it was a pleasure to be invited to help spend her special day with her. she was definitely radiant. sooo...HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE!!!

sooo...my point. from the day's beginning in sadness and loss, to the day's ending in joy and a promise for the future really showed me how special life is - how great it is, and most importantly how we should be celebrating it. i'm quite happy to be alive and very thankful for everyone that's in this life o' mine. it's a challenge, a never-ending struggle, but it's worth it. the pain, the loss, it teaches us the importance of taking our time and living our lives, it teaches us to be thankful of what and who we have in our lives, and it teaches us the meaning of life and most importantly the happiness in it.

posted at 11:49 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2004

so have you ever wanted to do something so much that you're just giddy with excitement? yah, i was like that today. but i'm very, super duper, extremely sad. today was a very sad day. i dunno. i've still got tuesday maybe? but i dont wanna go over there by myself. im just very sad. it looks like a long night at home in front of the tv for me. im sad. that is all. good bye.

posted at 6:08 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

i am now officially back in school...again.

posted at 10:13 PM

just for my chi...

posted at 12:12 PM

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

woohoo! it works!!

posted at 10:10 PM

ok, since it's been forever since i've posted pics on this bad boy, im gonna do a few just to practice...

here are some from my happy happy getting older day at rainforest cafe - it was fun guys! thanks for coming out!!

me n the girls...

me, bobby, n monica

anna, grapes, mika, n i

posted at 10:08 PM

more of my ticket finding randomness...

aWoK2ReMeMBR : 2 tickets for 120?
Gail9611: yup
aWoK2ReMeMBR : so hes selling all 4 for 200?
Gail9611: yup
aWoK2ReMeMBR : not bad, not bad
aWoK2ReMeMBR : making friends over the internet, NOT ADVISED, but desperate times call for desperate measures
Gail9611: haahaa
Gail9611: nah, when you play on ebay - you send the sellers questions, like randomness just to let them know you're interested
Gail9611: then if their stuff doesnt sell, they come back to you
aWoK2ReMeMBR : ah huh! thats waht you people tell yourselves
Gail9611: haahaa
Gail9611: okay, okay, im so desperate for friends, i find them wherever i can
Gail9611: ewww...i cant spell
Gail9611: damn, this convo really makes me sound like a loser
aWoK2ReMeMBR : hahahaha i didnt say it, you did!@
aWoK2ReMeMBR : hahaha just kidding

posted at 11:23 AM

Monday, February 16, 2004

okay, i will say it now for all to hear/read...i am a very dorky girl.

i am on a mission to get myself some Clay Aiken/Kelly Clarkson concert tickets - even if i have to go to San Diego to see them - on a MONDAY!!!

posted at 7:29 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2004

i finally gave in...i bought 2 dvds...there goes the abstaining i've been doing...damn, it was so hard just to keep myself from buying more than 2!

posted at 8:59 PM

Saturday, February 14, 2004

boo on valentine's day

posted at 4:00 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

tapings, tapings, and more tapings. it's never gonna end for us aspiring Germany visitors. at least Tracy Morgan was pretty good. Thank God!

posted at 11:05 PM

problem: Youth Day is Feb. 19. I'm supposed to drive kids. JC or Youth Day - what do you guys think? tag my board with your opinions...

posted at 12:49 PM

i got tickets for Craig Kilborn to see JC on the 19th!!! im excited now!!! too bad they dont have any more tickets for On-Air with Ryan Seacrest...booo...but it's okay...im gonna see my man JC!!!

posted at 12:39 PM

Monday, February 09, 2004

JC's gonna be on a million things in the coming weeks...anyone wanna go with me to any of the LA shindigs?

Tuesday, Feb 17 Tonight Show with Jay Leno (NBC)
Wednesday, Feb 18 The Ellen DeGeneres Show (SYN) *will air on 2/19
Monday, Feb 23 Live with Regis & Kelly (ABC)
Tuesday, Feb 24 The Ryan Seacrest Show (SYN)
Tuesday, Feb 24 Record Signing at Tower Records - Sunset Blvd. 5pm

posted at 9:21 AM

Sunday, February 08, 2004

im so tired dude. we went to the museum of tolerance, then we headed to pinks for food - dude, we ate so much. i'm stinking full! it was a good day, and now im tired and i'm gonna watch the grammy's and go to sleep! back to the work grind tomorrow...boooooo!

posted at 7:18 PM

Saturday, February 07, 2004

it's weird how sometimes when you have no plans it's like everyone call you all at once to hang out and do something, but then other days it's like a dry spell, and you hear from no one. yesterday it's like everyone wanted to hang out, and today - nothing. i spent the day at home. had lunch with the fams, had my cousin Jennifer come over and hung out with her, watched Le Divorce (boring, by the way) with kookee, took a long ass nap, and now just chillen. what a day, huh? but yesterday - i was all over the place. it's weird...

last night i actually did quite a few things. Kris, Monica, n I visited the WB lot so that Kris could buy some dvds, and Monica could get one of her "culture points". i think her teacher's idea is pretty cool - Monica's class has do do one new thing every week to get those so-called "culture points" i was talking about. it's cool. it's a good excuse to do new things and to get out more. i love the idea! so yeah. i took them to the WB lot for some walking and tomorrw the SDYMers and i are heading off to the Museum of Tolerance for a visit. it'll be fun. okay...im off...i've got nothing left to say...goodbye

posted at 10:31 PM

Friday, February 06, 2004

poker night was different tonight. it was poker/stamping night. haahaa...jay came by and taught tanya, monica, and i how to embose (sp?) for tanya and herbie's wedding invites. this wedding is starting to be real - we're actually starting the planning, wow, it's kinda exciting...

posted at 1:25 AM

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

thanks to mika i'm on a mission to do new things. searching and exploring. that's gonna be my new agenda. it should be fun right? i hope so.

posted at 11:51 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

it's nice catching up sometimes. it's been months since i've hung out with aileen and it was nice just sitting and talking with her. we were just reminiscing about the past and looking back we both realized how far we've come and how much we've grown up. damn dude, she and i met when i was still in high school - and we're still friends. yah, i have a lot of old friends, but aside from the girls (jay, teen, n them), there really arent that many people who've been with me growing up, and it's comforting knowing that leen's out there and she knows me. knows where i've been, and is still walking with me on my way to wherever it is that i'm going. old friends are always the best friends...especially ones that are just always so easy to talk to that it's like no time have even passed since the last time you spoke to each other.

=)

posted at 9:50 PM

Sunday, February 01, 2004

i am truly blessed. to have so many friends and family members show up to celebrate your special day is truly amazing. yes, we did a lot of different things, and yes, there were so many of us it was hard to keep it straight, but they all made me special. thanks for spending my birthday with me everyone!

*thanks to: anne, jay, teen, grapes, anna, phil, kuya, bobby, monica, flynn, bruff, tony, steve, rob, ariel, maryanne, randy, patricia, lvey, paul, richelle, drew, henry, mika, sean, yappers, alf, carlos, catherine, kris, gary, eo, n geron.

*special thanks to: chi - for being my helper and being the best sister ever, huy for helping me and carrying all my gifts around, and tanya and herbie for driving my drunk ass around...

i was just reminded tonight of how lucky i am...i love my friends...thank you guys!!!

posted at 4:13 AM