Gail's Online Brainfart

Saturday, August 31, 2002

oh! did anyone notice my new banner? Thanks Kookee for the cool animated gif!

posted at 4:11 PM

oh...and Monica...thanks for your little note in the guestbook - it means a lot...thanks for always keeping up with me, and i'm glad you're secure in our friendship to know that i'll always be here for you - anytime you need anything, all you have to do is ask...it's crazy, when you go into a new year of Confirmation, you never know what to expect, and i never expected the strong friendship, no sisterhood, that we've developed as a result of that class. you are a beautiful person, and i love you...i just wanted to let you know that...

posted at 3:19 PM

wow...so here i am at work again. i was gonna blog last night, but something was up with my computer again, plus i was soo tired last night. i had a pretty full day yesterday. went to camarillowith kookee, paul, and kris, then had lunch at applebee's or however it is that you spell that restaurant, then back home for a quick rest before heading out to the OFF CENTRE taping. dude! let me just tell you - that show is hilarious!!! it's sooooooooooo funny! john cho, eddie kay thomas, and sean maguire - they are soooo freaking funny! plus, they're all really cute! it was cool though...i saw Carlo, Lerma, and Luis there. i was totally surprised! i didn't expect to really see anyone i knew there! haahaaa...and they had good seats! haahaa...lucky!

anyways, after the tv taping, we headed out to meet up with Anna and them at the Burbank Bar and Grill for her BDay bash. that was cool. it's been forever since i've spent time with my friends, but yeah...that place is too loud. hahaa...anyways...oh well...whatever...that's it...don't really feel like blogging anymore...i'll blog more later...

posted at 11:32 AM

Friday, August 30, 2002

dude!!! i was totally going to update my site tonight with new pics, but i was watching the MTV VMAs...it was cool - but dude! *NSync didn't win anything! that's soooo terrible! haahaaa...yeah you don't have to say it - i know it - i'm totally a bopper! haahaa...it's cool though...anyways, nothing really intersting happening in my life, just chillen'...had a good night with good friends, good fun watching the VMAs and laughing at Jimmy Fallon...it was cool. i have nothing to really complain about in life, i'm a really happy person...pretty much...okay yeah...that's it...i'll blog more some other time. i don't have anything to really say right now...until later...bye

posted at 12:53 AM

Thursday, August 29, 2002

hi everyone...im here at work, and im very bored. i was going to blog last night, but i got sooo lazy...shoot...i've been planning to update my site too, but i dunno. i've been feeling pretty anti-computer lately. i don't know why. anyways...yeah...i guess i've been in more of a going out mood lately. i've been taking advantage of the closeness i've been feeling with the SDYM-ers. it's been the whole FAMILY thing. i'm really loving it. the one thing i've been missing though is the crew...i always wish i could find a nice balance of chillen' with the crew and going out with the "church" people, but oh well, we all lead busy lives...at least i'm gonna get to see the crew this weekend...

hmmm...on to a brighter note...i want to wish one of my best friends in the world a happy day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!!!

I know that we don't really get that much time together to talk, or chill, or even just enjoy each other's company, but i hope you know that no matter what, you're still one of my best friends in the world, and your friendship means so much to me. i totally miss our talks and our afternoons just chillen and talking about anything and everything in our lives. my wish for you on your 23rd birthday is that you be filled with happiness and love for all the days of the year! i love you girl!!!

anyways, time for me to go...to everyone reading...have a great day...see you soon!

posted at 11:05 AM

Tuesday, August 27, 2002

wow...tonight was like the best time i've had at pete's in a long time. we laughed so hard tonight, it was great. it was fun guys...i'll see you tomorrow...nothing else to blog, the rest of my life's pretty boring...just getting ready for my next trip!

posted at 10:28 PM

Monday, August 26, 2002

so yeah...i've been meaning to blog since yesterday...i had actually logged on to blog last night but then my mom had called and asked me to go get Kookee from work, so i had to log right back off and get Paul to hurry up and finish washing his car so we could go get her.

anyways...hmmm...what did i wanna share...well, first of all, the retreat was dope. it was really, really, really good for a lot of us, and i'm really glad that we all had the chance to just get to know all the new leaders, and talk to them. those kids are really cool. on the year 2 side, though, it was really saddening to see that only 7 - 7 out of the 30 leaders we have - showed up. BUT, we made the best of it, and we had a great time. we took the time as a blessing to just build our relationships with each other, with talks, sharings, and just a lot of good fellowship and fun. i really love my team, i love my SDYM family. they're the best...PLUS! i love my Girl Power!!! Pretty, u're like a bright light in my Confirmation world, you and the rest of my year 2-ers, are the reason i had such a great time on this retreat...it was our time as friends to shine together and share in our lives...Monica, Tanya, Herbie, Patricia, Randy, Kris (aka #2 for a day), and Mark (aka Pretty) - you guys made my retreat...i love you guys!!!

PLUS!!! the new leaders are really great...Meng, you guys are going to have a great year!

posted at 9:39 PM

Friday, August 23, 2002

so i was thinking about updating my site a little bit more tonight, but i didn't end up getting home until pretty late. it was cool though...this afternoon i got to spend some time with some good friends. i finally got some talk time in with paul...it feels like forever since we've chilled, but it's only been since like, saturday since we've done something togther...haahaaa...anyways. besides getting my talk time with my best friend, tanya and i got together to work on our talk for the retreat - it's all ready guys! hopefully it makes sense and you guys like it! ummm...and what else? dinner at a really good restaurant called Marie's in Pasadena with Drew, Connie and Angel. it was fun, another night of celebrating Drew's birthday...haahaa...i think i've celebrated it three times this week alone! haahaa...but it's all good, i love the guy.

anyways...im kinda starting to get excited about the retreat even though so many people are starting to back out one by one. it's like barely anyone from our team is going to make it - not that im upset with any of you guys - but it's just sad at how small our team will be there in arrowhead. hopefully though, it'll help us to build even stronger relationships with each other...i'm gonna miss everyone that's not gonna make it...and i hope paul remembers to buy me the dvd i asked for!!

anyways, i better go, i'm sleepy...nite all!

posted at 12:09 AM

Wednesday, August 21, 2002

new updates!

PAUL'S BIRTHDAY BASH!

hey! sign my guestbook guys!!! or leave comments...no one loves me...no one talks to me...boo on you - i guess no one really reads my blog, huh?

posted at 9:57 PM

hi everyone! ummm...hmmm...what do i have to say? well, nothing really...im feeling better - a lot better actually. i had quite a few good talks with some good friends today. some reassuring time...some fun time...had a good planning meeting...so it's all good - retreat's gonna be cool hopefully. hopefully everyone will enjoy it...

okay...so yeah...nothing interesting to share...i lead a boring life

posted at 9:24 PM

Tuesday, August 20, 2002

i finally posted up more pictures!!!

THE GIRL'S TRIP TO VEGAS

don't worry...more pics coming soon...im slowly working on them guys...

posted at 12:59 PM

so...im kinda buzzed...henry and i just came back from going to miyagi's for amy's birthday shindig!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!

haahaaa....eventhough it was so late (Connie called me at like, 1115 to meet them up), Henry and i felt that it was soooooooo worth it just to see how fucked up Amy and Connie were! haahaa! i have never, EVER in my life, or in the whole time i've known Connie see her fucked up! haahaa...it was such a site to see. true, i feel kinda bad for her cuz she's gonna have a hangover for sure tomorrow, but shit...wow...it was worth it. anyways, all in all, it looks like Amy had a good birthday, and Henry and i went home with pretty good buzzes each...miyagi's isn't so bad on a weekday night...it was really chill. we had a really good time...

hmmm...what else? well, lotsa other things on my mind tonight, but i don't really feel like bloggin publicly about them...just need some time to think and contemplate life. but yeah...i'm cool...talk to you all later, it's getting late, and my ass needs to get to bed - thank God i'm not going in to work tomorrow!

posted at 2:07 AM

Monday, August 19, 2002

it's a little better with my friend, but...i don't know at least i'm not mad anymore...still a little hurt, but...i guess that's just something i'm gonna have to deal with...

anyways, i have a topic i wanted to talk about...insecurity. i'm a very insecure person. today it was just pointed out to me. not directly, but, pointed out nonetheless. hmmm...i don't know. it's weird. sometimes when you think you know what you're doing and how your life is going, and how your feelings are about yourself and those around you, you're totally wrong. i don't know. i'd like to think that i'm totally secure in the relationships with other people that i have, like im secure in my friendships and junk like that, but sometimes i don't know. doesn't everyone have their moments of, "i'm so lonely, i have no friends in this world"? or is it just me? shit...if it's just me, damn...then something's really wrong with me...but...i don't know...am i really that insecure a person? shit...is that why i get upset with some of my best friends? hmmm...just something i was thinking about...

posted at 6:27 PM

i guess i haven't blogged in a while cuz i haven't really been feeling it. i really haven't known what to say. i guess it's just hard for me right now. i'm going through this thing where im feeling pretty used and taken advantage of by one of my friends. it's hard, you know? i know there's that whole concept of, yeah, i've got your back cuz we're homies, but isn't there a point where it's actually going to far? this friend of mine - a really good friend of mine - made me feel like what i thought and what i felt wasn't important, and that really hurt. i haven't really talked to him about it yet, but he has already apologized for what he did, cuz he knew how mad i was, but shit...if you don't understand each other, and you don't talk about it how could you really know what your saying sorry for? i get the feeling he only knows he fucked up, but he doesn't know how much it hurt not just me, but our friendship, cuz to be honest, i'm looking at it from a totally different place right now. totally different...hopefully it'll go back to being the same again, but for some reason, i don't know...well, if anyone knows me, i'm quick to get angry, but also very quick to forgive, and i guess what i don't understand right now is how come when i've already been apologized to, im still really upset, and really hurt? it's not like me...i don't know...whatever...i don't feel like talking about this shit anymore, it's just making me more upset...peace out

posted at 9:01 AM

Friday, August 16, 2002

i think i just fucked up my blog...oh goodness...i don't know what im doing...i think i'm gonna have to ask Mark for some of his expert advise, cuz i've really screwed it up...haahaaa...oh well...i'm too tired to blog...let's just say that im debating my plans for tomorrow...and there were other things i wanted to write about but im just too lazy to do it now...nite all

posted at 12:09 AM

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posted at 12:05 AM

Thursday, August 15, 2002

okay...so it's not working...i'll figure it out later...i don't feel like doing it anymore

posted at 6:35 PM

im trying to put up this comment thingy, so hopefully this works...

posted at 6:33 PM

Wednesday, August 14, 2002

so i'm totally debating whether im up to actually updating my site tonight before i go to bed. to be honest i'm a little sleepy, and i can't afford to be late for work again tomorrow! haahaaa...paul's finally decided that he's gonna go to work tomorrow, so i have to be there to train his ass...whatever. maybe i won't update pics...i'll just blog and be done with it for tonight...yeah...that sounds like a good idea...

anyways, hmmm...what did i wanna talk about? well, we had a very "fruitful" meeting tonight at st. dom's to use tanya's word. we got quite a bit done and i'm pretty happy about that. ummm...hmmm...what else? ummm...it's kinda sad though, it's not the same really lately, we don't all seem as close, and i really miss that. sometime soon, i hope - fun times. i miss our regular "LC" meetings, but hopefully when the year starts it'll be better. oh well. anyways...shit! we have to have a movie meeting one of these days! my time is running out and we don't have a movie yet. POS...oh well, whatever, i'll figure something out...

hmmm...what else? OH! you know what i hate? don't you hate it when you lend someone money and then the next thing you know they're buying stupid shit - that you know they can't afford - for someone else? someone that you KNOW they shouldn't be buying shit for? and to top it all off, they haven't paid you back yet? that's just the shits...arrghhh...i don't wanna talk about it anymore, it just irritates me...bye...

posted at 10:45 PM

whoa...im scared im not gonna get up tomorrow...it's starting to get late! haahaa...but i just wanted to finish up this update before i get to sleep...first of all...good renew tonight. nice and chill. it feels like it's been a long time since i've spent time with the SDYM peeps, so it was cool. chilled with paul, nothing special...he gave me new speakers for my computer...woohoo! thanks...and...yeah...

i've updated the my pic of the week (yeah i know, finally), and i've put up the lilo and stitch pics from the El Capitan ...so yeah...that's it...im too tired to do anything else...im going to bed now...byebyeybe

posted at 12:20 AM

Monday, August 12, 2002

damn...i was just bloggin, and i just deleted the whole stinking thing! i suck...oh well...i was just saying how happy i am to finally have my computer back! woohoo! thanks paul!

anyways, now that i've got my computer back, it's gonna be time for some much needed, highly anticipated updates to this site - don't worry everyone, by the end of the weekend, i'll have the pics up from my many trips this summer - let me just say that it's been a pretty good summer for me. i'm pretty happy...

hmm...well, since i've got the computer back, i can finally blog about my trip to florida - IT WAS THE BEST!!! We definitely should've stayed there longer, but...oh well. we got to hit up the other Universal theme park, Islands of Adventure, we went to the Disney/MGM Studio, and we also went to Epcot Center. Dude - the CityWalk there is sooooooooooooooooooo much better than the one we have here! Not only are there far more restaurants there than shops, but there's a little lake in the middle of it where you can DRINK OUTSIDE!!! haahaa...on our last night there since it was so nice out, paul and i decided to go grab drinks at this restaurant called Margaritaville - cuz they have a "to go" bar - and we just chilled outside by the lake. dude, that place is amazing...it totally rocks all the stuff we have here in LA. i know i'd love to have the whole, "LA Pride" thing, but Orlando's stuff is just so much better. im soooo serious that one day i'm gonna buy myself a time share there and vacation out there. the time shares there are so nice. i'd love to visit there more often...hopefully my broke ass will be able to save up more money to go back sometime. paul and i decided that the next time we go there we're gonna go to their Universal Studios there. We've been wondering if they have a backlot tour there too, cuz if they did, what would you see? Orlando doesn't have the "Hollywood" history that LA has, of course...but oh well...next time...

anyways, i just wanted to test out my new computer before i headed off to bed...i've got to work early tomorrow morning, so i better go now...take care all - byebyeybe!

posted at 11:45 PM

Sunday, August 11, 2002

im home for everyone that maybe looking for me - if anyone missed me. it was such a fun and incredible trip. orlando is dope. a great place to vacation - but i definitely wouldn't want to live there. but 4 days totally wasn't enough time for us to be there! we missed everyone, but it was really nice being away, without any pressure, time constraints, or any anything actually.

i'll blog more later, but - again - that darn thing called jet lag! plus it's back to the real world again tomorrow - back to work...BOO...

posted at 10:33 PM

Wednesday, August 07, 2002

im leaving for Florida tonight!!!! im totally excited!!! wish me luck guys! hopefully we'll have a great time! woohoo! i'm excited! i'll see everyone on Tuesday!

posted at 7:59 AM

Monday, August 05, 2002

have you ever felt so sad to see a friendship die? it's a weird feeling. aren't there some friends in your life who you know are your friends, like real friends whom you think that no matter how little you see them, or how little time you have for each other, you'll still be friends. dude, i like to think that about a lot of my friends actually. to be honest, i don't really get a lot of time to spend with all my different friends, but i like to think that when we do end up having the time to chill and talk it would be cool, you know? but sometimes, i guess it just doesn't work out that way - and that hurts. i don't know. one of the most disconcerting feelings (to me), is knowing that you've lost some sort of closeness (for lack of a better term), or some sort of comraderie with another person. dude...am i talking out of my ass? i don't know...i guess last night i just realized that sometimes you can't always keep a friendship, not an acquaintance, but an actual friendship forever - shit happens, people change and i guess you just have to deal. lots of people like to say that i have a lot of "friends", but i don't think that if you think about it, that that's true. when i think of friends, i thihk of people that i actually share a deep connection with - people who i can really have a serious talk to and share my thoughts and feeling with - not superficial feelings, but true deep, intimate feelings, and the people that i can do that with - those are the ones that i really call friends - so i guess what i'm trying to say is that - i don't really feel i have that many friends so when i feel like i've lost one, or one's become just someone i know and kick back with sometimes (kinda like downgraded, huh? that sounds so bad though) - it really hurts and it really makes me sad...sometimes we all just throw around the word friend so loosely, i know i do - i know i just was...

posted at 8:59 AM

Sunday, August 04, 2002

to be honest, i don't really have much to blog...i didn't really do much yesterday. went to work, went shopping at camarillo with paul, jay, and connie - bought myself really cute shoes at ESPRIT for $3.22 - good deal! then had dinner at islands and visited my good friend Mark it was cool - he hooked us up. then yeah...went home - was supposed to go to the gym with paul - but his ass flaked on me, i fell asleep waiting for him. but it's all good...that's about it...

well, right now on my mind is this bbq im having tonight...i wonder how it's gonna go. to be honest, it hasn't really been the same with the crew in like, forever, so i don't know what's gonna happen. plus, i'm gonna have my SDYM friends there. i hope it's cool and everyone gets along...i hope i'm not making a mistake by having another one of these bbq's...i remember i had told myself after the last bbq that i wasn't going to have anymore, but...oh well...

posted at 6:56 AM

Saturday, August 03, 2002

wow...it's been a while since i've posted, well, it's cuz I DON'T HAVE A COMPUTER AT HOME!!! but whatever...it's cool...

first of all, let me start off by saying...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PHONG!!!
I don't know if you read this, but i just wanted to let you know how much you mean to me. we don't really spend that much time together anymore, but i hope you know your friendship is really important to me and i love you so much...i hope you had a great birthday!

next...Mark you couldn't be more right about our WYD/JMJ 2002 trip - for anyone that wants to read a great account of our trip - check out Mark's site...it's describes our trip to a T. and by the way, mark...i love you...

hmmm...what else did i wanna blog about? hmmm...nothing really exciting in my life right now...yesterday i had another mary kay appt. with mika...it was fun. dude, mark kay's got some really cool stuff - anyone wanna try mary kay? let me know - i'll get you a free sampling appt - it's worth it! okay...nothing else to blog about...talk to you all later!

posted at 7:35 AM