nobody gets it
nobody understands
so i sit in my room
missing you like the days i leave behind
wishing you were here inside me
wondering if i'll see you ever
my love, don't leave me
sitting on my floor

what is so wrong with love that i am not allowed to have it?
you tell me, after we've done everything
except the touching
i want to do something normal
i've never felt like that before
i don't get it - just love me too
and be happy
i am not a whore - tell him that
i love you - terribly - badly - sadly -
love doesn't happen
have you ever noticed that?
sometimes i feel well -
sometimes i feel love is for unjaded mommy and daddy good girls and boys
but not me
and sometimes i know it's you and me forever beyond the sky and stars we will love each other in heaven
protect me from everything bad and i'll protect you and we'll be happy love me do me love me beyond doing me you can't leave me here you have to stay or bring me with i'll be good i promise
i'm too old too young too bitchy too dumb too smart to be stupid but please stay with me

i'm in love again
over and over
continuing to eternity
dying and living
learning to breathe again
smile and cry
to see the starflyers
beat their wings to a heavy beat
and show me to my longing seat
love flying, i am
falling crashing dying catching
up again
i love everyone ever
promise me the stars,
but you don't
so i'll sit and wait for you
okay?
alright
okay.

my spirit ascends the singing air
on an invisible cloud of joy
and i sit watching a passion
while dreaming of next year
i want to sink and sway more
i'd like to feel and understand more
and i like just being
a part of something
under this torrid cloudless sky
i whisper in my head how i love this place
and i wish i needn't disappear so soon
but i'll be alright
i'll be back

lyrics that are not mine
are running through my head
telling my thoughts this time
i wonder if we're dead
sour taste of a lime
i'm seeing tears i've shed
they'll mean nothing in time
just aged feelings led

(Pedro the Lion lyrics)
she opens her legs and
gives your life meaning
is that what you love her for?

Icy kings of the frozen air
Sit on thrones of ice up there
Directing Jack Frost’s window painting
Pale blues my window-sights tainting

Loving am I of the cold
Breathing frost outside like days of old
Crisp air of the first month a year
Shows the world to be clean, white and clear

Icicles dangle and sparkle in the sun
The children sled down hills and through snow run
May January always be a month like this
A peaceful brilliance of winter’s cold kiss

Down, I think I feel
Not depressed
But not up at the wheel
Maybe just obsessed
With analyzation of how I feel
Too thoughtful
To be on an even keel
Invisibly shot full
In my Achilles heel
I don’t know
Tell me what’s the deal?
No one will show
What elixir will make me heal

Close your eyes in sleep
Your love will never be
How can you pretend?
It’s how I stop the end

I cross my fingers
And pray for this
But I’m seeing things
That fairies bring

Fall apart through this
Love is a fragile kiss
And I know we’ll die
And you’ll wonder why

What happened to love?
The purity of doves
I wish you could see
What your love does to me

I want to disappear behind the darkness of my mind
I want to be swallowed alone with all of you my home
I think I’ll be sticking around because you don’t get me down
I think I’ve finally found somewhere that I belong.

I need to slip away
To understand this day
This week that’s gone astray
And why I feel this way

It shouldn’t take this long
I’m normally so strong
But now there’s something wrong
A bad chord in a song

Now I should be sleeping
I wish to dream of keeping
A love I could be reaping
A love who’s come my way