May 30, 2004
My first entry hmm? Well, I guess I'll start with this:

Yesterday I cut even more of my hair off, it was short before but now it's SHORT! I like it don't get me wrong, it'll just take some major getting used to. I know someone who will HATE it though. Oh well, as long as I'm comfortable with it it should be ok. This entry sounds so unlike me...I usually write about how depressed I am. Maybe knowing that other people can read this scares me.
My step-mom is throwing a huge family party on June 12, I am expected to go, being that I AM family. I always hate those family get-togethers. My family isn't very close. I always feel like I dont know anyone even though they are my own family...should I feel guilty about that? My cousin, Devlin, who used to be my best friend when I was little, got sent to a boot camp. He was a bad kid, long story. SO I'll really feel alone. Not that we're that close anymore, he's too cool for anyone now...even me. I'm visiting my dad right now and I don't even talk to him. I don't know, it's strange, I come here to see my dad and I don't even see him. He's always working or gone. That or my step-brother and half-sister are in the way. (I sound like a B*itch but it's the truth. I don't even really know my Dad.) Anyway, I guess I should end here for today. Thanks for reading if you read this far...You must have a lot of extra time on your hands.




Well ta-ta for now!