My Life is Just Fading

I try to live in this surreal life,
Always running from the knife,
But sometimes I’m too sad to run,
Just one quick pain and it’ll be done,

My life is, just fading,
This pain is liberating,
Can’t go on, still hating,
I am degenerating,

I have lost all my willpower,
Now my life is going sour,
This last event has shut the door,
Now there’s nothing to live for,

My life is, just fading,
This pain is liberating,
Can’t go on, still hating,
I am degenerating,

This depression is an infection,
A deflection of perfection,
My life was erected but now ejected,
I shoulda expected to be infected,

My life is, just fading,
This pain is liberating,
Can’t go on, still hating,
I am degenerating,

It sucks when you’re fighting all the time,
But when your alone you just want to die,