hey there to all my friends you guys are more like my family.Rachael,Autumn,Kayla,Ashley,Julie,Jamie,Shannon,Jacob, Aaron,Mason,Rick,Bobbie,Petry,Thomas,J.R, Ryan. luv you guys. Travis i love you. Heres a few things i wrote. Screw you if you thinks it's queerish. * You fear us for are difference but you think we're all the same Burning and screaming and bleeding to stay ahead of our game when we walk into a room you watch us with persistant strive making sure we don't break the consentration of your minipulated lives go ahead and try to dream thats the closest you'll get to what we feel and when you awake close your eyes hide beneath your lie-composed shield styreotype us if you please we're all satanic, right how can you be so naieve many have seen the light sure dive into our world we know you cannot swim forever waiting in darkness until i hear those words from him * * Don't tell me you love me if you don't mean it Don't stare into my eyes if you don't see it don't lead me on if soon you shall be gone Don't hold me just to push me away Don't make me beg you to stay Don't open my eyes To make them cry don't love me just to leave me * * I'm sick of being shot down Sick of being knocked around sick of being helpless and left here on my own sick of all the lies sick of all the tears i cry sick of everything that ever ment anything to me sick of fighting for it sick of living through it sick of all the promises that it will get better soon Sick of all the dreaming sick of all the screaming sick of holding my breath for somthing that will never come and no matter how much i hate it no matter how i can't take it i look into your eyes and all the pain it goes away all becaomes forgiven i know i can't keep liven like this please let it never be like it was before because i know i'de just come begging back for more* * caring for nothing bottled up inside in love with love no reason i cried hard to breathe hard to live no longer feeling what i had once felt no longer searchin for it doesn't matter tears don't flow beacause they know there in few most already used on pointless memories that's all they really are drown out the world start my life over and block this one from my mind* * burning questions flood my mind was i ment to be here will i ever own my life or will i be a slave of society a clone of a barbie doll never no longer forced to hide daily routine becomes boring can't escape have to ask myself am i alive or just breathing* * pain tears lies deseate complacation hate victimized immobilized stained lonley cold love always come back for more* * lies equal attention attention equals attraction attraction equals affection affection equals addiction addiction equals cravings cravings are the begining of "i'll do anythings" which leads to deception and impossible aleaveation of your devestation* ok enough of that. AVENGED SEVENFOLD ROCKS!!! if you want somthing that'll keep you wired all night take a can of mountain dew and two cups of sugar and chug it. it's really nasty but it works. forever searching eternally confused deserving nothing dead and used *~Stephy~*
