face 2 face
when i come face to face with my blade
you have been there to read my silent cries and to view my gradual falling.
your voice has brought a smile to this baron face.
you heal me.
when im on the edge an i crumble before desent , you have been there to collect me.
you heal me but am i only a burdon?
am i just an obstacle in your path/
ya healed me.. but can i find the streght to heal you?
- Irving

RUSH
blood rushing to my feet... turning numb... i feel nothing... nothing at all... not even your simple touch... looking down, i turn red.. tight as steal.... running throught me... i see blood splatter on the floor!... in puddles on the floor... more and more rushing out... turning so fant... begining to feel snag... i fall on the floor.. looking so deep.., i see dark red, cluttered in a bunch!... scarlet ibis sitting so com... watching it fly is like a dream.. bloody wings wave in the sky... like sun beems shining down... so constent so clean... sitting out in the rushing orange and red sun.. it comes out of its shell falling apart... filled with blood

hiding
tucked away in my room dark corner
hiding from the world
crying into the silence
all alone
curled into a miserable ball
hurting on the inside
feeling life slip away from me
watching the bright color of life
seeing peoples joy
untouched in my black hole
hidding away in the darkness
not wanting to leave
not wanting to stay
curled up against the world
sinking into the black
hiding from everyone
hiding from the pain
the pain is in there
i am the pain
there is no escaping the pain
only the world
so i will
in my dark corner
curled into a little ball
crying into the silence of night.

lost
lost in this world
truning dark
sheding tears
i sit here and wonder why
i messed up! i cant fix things
what do i do
my sorrows weep
crying out 4 help
no one calls
as i sit here
i spair some blood
deep in you cut me!
cut me deeper why dont u
my real beauty is in the in side
no1's seen it but me!

Bloody nite
dark night tinted in red
young man lying abed
not sleeping, awake instead
thinking behind and ahead

seeing the unseen pain
trying to hide it in vain
watching the bloody rain
quietly going insane

pondering tomorrow's future
wounds in his heart needing suture
the skin on his wrist suffering puncture
faintly hoping for a cure

with his friends, cheerful
with his family, careful
with his audience, masterful
with himself, sorrowful

wants to take his world in his hand
and scatter it like sand
bury his body in the land
in death, make his stand

instead, silently he does perform
refusing to conform
wishing his life to transform
to calm depression's storm



my attempt at poetry, i don't like it, but i promised myself whatever i wrote i'd put up, so here it is. it seems the story of my like is my alter egos. on one side i'm nice, on the other i'm dark, gloomy, and depressed. and i feel like i am lying to everyone because i never show them both sides of me, only one or the other. so the thing i value most, honesty, i do the least. sad isn't it? this is a sign of how pathetic i am. i hate hypocrits and i'm one of the biggest. damn i hate myself.
bloodnight

LyFe
life spills into a flower
like the eletric glare
i see the moon
just like a light
up high in the sky
life is in my hands
just like one wish
upon a star
like a gun
on my table
pulling the triger
i see stars
pitch black
like the nite sky
love is all around
two are equal as one
but is this time done!
no it cant be
i have a chose
just like a cat
having 9 lives
i only get one
so y mess it up!

poem
Forever is easy to say but I can't stand to wait to be slapped in the face.
I'll keep this to myself.
You can't know.
Smile for me.
Pretend it's alright.
Knocked down.
What's the use?
I can't make you happy.
I can't even make you feel anymore.
How can you look in my face and say that?
I belive in fear and complacency.
What do you believe in?
Why keep my enemies closer than I keep my friends!!

Darker
Turn the lights out
What do u see?
I see black
Darker then the nite sky
It's so dark you can't even see shadow's
Walking throught the dark
Bumping into things
Knocking over glass
Hearing it shader on the floor
Walking throught glass I feel a tear
Rolling so fast down my face
Like a bowling ball going 4 a strike.
Another goes after it, fast as lightning
The sky lights up outside
Giving me my only light
I run across the shouse
Like a mad lady living on the streets
Trying to find the light switch I stuter
Falling streched out on the floor
I look up and see the light switch
I flip it on to see a house
Full of broken glass and blooded up carpets
I wipe my face, the look at my hands
To see blood, all over the place
I cry and wep
As tears run down my face
I wanna die
As I cry
I see Light, liteing up the sky
I run as I bleed
With the wind I get Knocked off my feet
Falling down
Hard as a rock
I see a black hole
Darker then pitch black
I Ly dying
For the glass
Is in me
I say one last word and then I turn black
Sucked up by the wind
I am gone!!!

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