bAd tHiNgS haPpEn 2 mE....
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Right Thurr- - - Chingy
Topic: suckiest days of my life!
today seems like the one of the worst days of my life. so many bad things have happened to me in 24 hours. i have no idea why my life is changing so much, but i dont like change...especially when it's bad change.

bad things that happened to me today:

1. the deputy principal called my attention and scolded me today...

2. rhannie and i fought so much today. we were swearing and cursing at each other so much. i made him feel like shit and he made me feel like shit.

3. i got a class ticket for not paying attention during a stupid cultural show.

4. everyone thinks i did "something bad" with daryl when i didnt do anything at all!

5. im enemies with more and more people! ----i wish ivana and jenelle died!

well, those are the bad stuff that happened to me today...-_-

sometimes i want to make wishes...selfish wishes. wishes that dont help people but me.

i wish that rhannie was nicer. he changed so much since i last saw him. he became so selfish and so mean.

i wish that rhannie and i never fought and we were still really good friends again. it sucks when we fight...

and i wish that i had a successful year with lots of fun and adventure and where everyone was my friend.

------------ i have weird wishes, dont you think?---

today, john told me that he still loves me. i dont love him. he knows that i dont love him anymore but he keeps on trying! why can't he just give up? he told me that he'll wait for me abnd he'll never give up and he just went offline a couple of minutes after saying those things...

and rhannie....i don't know if i still love him. i keep on fallin in and out of love with him. ive never loved someone the way that i loved him. it's weird..but he's the first person i've ever loved. and saying goes "...1st love never dies".../humph...i really dont want to like him! but i cant help it.

rhannie is online right now and i cant decide if i should chat with him or not. i think i should flip a coin or something...-_-
but if i talk to him...what should i say? "hey, im sorry for the fight awhile ago..."? that's pretty stupid coz i always say the sorrys first.

my head hurts right now, and i have to think of what to do with my life....so, i guess i'll be back tomorrow and write what happens.

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