So I went to message him when I realise about the pictures. First time want to know guys from TeensOnline. The day I message him was 4days after Valentine Day. 18th Febuary 2004. I still remember clearly that on that day, he was hurry to go out. So we exchange contact numbers on the same day.

We chatted over the phone that night. Chatted about everything under the sun. I jump the conversation around. Till I asked if he's really single. He said yes. I didn't asked him why he broke up with his girlfriend. Cause I feel that we just know each other and I think that I don't have to know. Cause it's already over.

Since both of us were in the topic about Boy Girl Relationship[BGR] and he asked if anyone was on my mind. Of course I just keep quiet. Then I asked him back. He told me that he liked this girl. This girl was actually someone I know.. My real life friend instead. Because of having some misunderstanding with her group of friends, we became miles apart. That's a great thing. At least I know some truth about this group of so-called "friends"

We met each other on 22nd Febuary 2004 Sunday at DownTown East stright away after my SuperTeen Course. He was waiting for me as teacher dismiss late. He didn't even said anything. I was hungry, we walked around to find some food for me to eat. So we went to Burger King. I bought my food and we start talking.

My mistake. I shouldn't have asked him about the pictures that he took with her. The moment I saw that, it smash my heart badly. I just keep quiet. Making lies. Saying that it was nice taken and stuffs like that.

My mum called. It was 11+pm. And I still outside. Moreover the next day was Monday. It's a school day. She told me to buy supper for her. We went to KFC. And we walked to bus stop. He said that he want to help me with my stuffs, but I rejected. I was thinking was he helping me as a friend or what? But when I was thinking about that, I slapped myself hard. Someone already in his heart, what am I thinking about?

When we reached the bus stop, the bus came. But it didn't stop. We were laughing about because both of us having a hard time thinking to take bus or to walk home. In the end we walked home together.

When I reached my house void deck, I went into the lift myself. As the door was about to close, he give me those look. The look that I still remember inside my heart. I slapped myself hard again. I think too much. His heart already occupied by her. There's no way I can enter his heart. Moreover, that's the first time that we met each other.

There was once, he called me at 4am. Surprisly I answered his call. I thought that there's important things to tell me. But in the end he kept talking about her. I'm trying my best to console him. But somehow I think I failed. Whatever that came out from his mouth was her, it really hurt my heart. I tried to make him positive. Telling him everything. She might be busy or stuffs like that. But deep down inside my heart, I know that she's advoiding him. But I totally have no idea why I did that.

29th Febuary I finally make up my mind about giving up everything. The hurts that he gave, I can't take it anymore. It's time to let it go. I blocked him in MSN, deleted him in friendster deleted my comments on his pictures and and deleted his number. There will totally be no way to contact him or to reach him. I was at Orchard on that day with one of my classmate. We were on the way home at around 3+pm. Cause I had plans after 4pm. We were walking to MRT station. Chatting about everything including about him. When I was talking about him, my phone rang. I saw the familiar number. It was him.

Wondering came up my mind. Why he called after having a long thought of giving up? I really don't know what to do. Except to pick up that call. The very first question was "Hello where are you?" That's what he asked. I told him that I was on the way home. He told me everything about what happen.

The girl that he liked was actually being so called "control" by her group of friends. Which means that, that group of guys were someone that I knew. They were making used of her to play with him. And that day Marc and her were suppose to go out together to PS. He met her. But he saw a group of friends. She passed him back everything that he gave.

I was really very angry when I heard this, and I make way down to PS to find him. I wanted to ask them why were they doing all these childish stuffs. If I'm not wrong, he stopped me. We chatted awhile at MRT station control, and I really have to go. We went in again, and he sent me back to Pasir Ris. On the way home, we chatted alot. About everything. There's nothing there to hide about. Cause we were just friends. Those special heart beats that grow inside my heart are still there.

We chatted almost every night after that. Giving hints when I have the chance to. He told me he still can't forget about her. That's when I feel like giving up. But those missing-him-badly-feelings keep adding up till I can't control myself. My feelings.