04/10/04 (9:15 PM): Well, I got back today from Ohio Teens For Christ. Some good messages were given. Our Bible Bowl team got nowhere...go figure...and we had some fun. We did some experiments with people...always good fun. I leave for Florida on Monday (in 2 days) because I'm going to Disney World with the High School marching band (yeah.). I'm not all that excited to go on a 22 hour bus ride just to get to little kid land...but hey...I'm sure it'll be fun. I just hope it doesn't rain the day we are at Blizzard Beach. Well, there's not much else to talk of...other than I ask those who know me well to pray for me for guidance and strength as I travel through this last year of high school. Many people will I leave behind...some forever...and I don't know what that'll do to me (though I'm feeling probably the worst of it now). So, with that said, I'm off for now. Later.
04/20/04 (9:35 PM): Yes, well....back from Disney. It was actually pretty fun. I don't get excited too much..as most of you know. I got some good footage, too. However, as blessed as my life may be...there's always some crap out there stirring about to counter it. I wish life wouldn't be as complicated as I make it. I don't know what love is or what love can offer anymore. I wish so much to just be...away..gone..so I wouldn't have to go through such indecisiveness. I miss, but I know if I go back...more pain awaits me...yet again, I have pain now. ARGH! Sometimes I wish that fate was real and I only had to wait for whatever was made for me to come. I am SO confused! Lord, help me please...guide me...I don't know what to do without You...or you. ;-( Oh yeah...happy birthday Hitler and Napoleon...