-Joining-

I sigh and walk over to my bag, where I pull out a small, green sleeveless shirt, and a pair of baggy, blue pants. I go into the bathroom to get changed, and when I come out, Seifer is still laying there.

"Seifer... are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm just fine. Just how I look, right?" Hyne, Seifer, please, please tell me. I don't think I can bear this any longer. Seifer, I need to tell you how I feel. I feel a throbbing pain in my head, and I react in shock, for it felt like someone punched me in the head.

"Ah.." I moan. Why did I react like that? Dammit. I turn, embarassed. I've had migraines before... Why do I react like this lately?

"Are *you* okay?"

"Just as fine as you are." I mutter.

"Then we had better get you to the hospital." He says sarcastically.

"Seifer..." I walk over to my bag and pull out a bottle of pills, and take out two. I walk into the bathroom to get water. I hear Seifer from the next room.

"I didn't know you had migraines..." I turn, and see Seifer going through my bag, holding up the bottle of pills. I try to think of a Fujin-like excuse.

"There's alot you don't know about me..." I say, walking into the room.

"I guess I miss alot..."

"...When?"

"When I'm somewhere else..." I look at him, hoping he is going to finally open up to me.

"Like where...?"

"Away, in my mind... Fuu, there's alot you don't know about me too." At that moment, I wanted to look into his mind, see what he was thinking. Oh, Seifer... tell me...

"Why don't you... uh, tell me then...?" I knew he'd answer this cruelly. I held my breath.

"Cuz I don't want to. Heh, its none of your fucking business." Seifer sneered as he walked into the bathroom. I exhaled, finally realizing how weak I had become. Living for one man... who couldn't care less if I lived or died. Damn him. Fuck the world. My life isn't worth it. I felt tingling at the back of my eye, and water rushed to the front, and streamed down my cheek. The pain in my head was far less severe than the pain throbbing in my body. I colapsed on the floor, holding myself up with my hands. I heard the shower running and was glad Seifer wouldn't be out for awhile. When he did come out, I had regained my compusure, and sat on the bed as if nothing had happened. I did manage to glare at him though.

"We have to go find out some shit on these people."

"...AFFIRMITAVE." I said. I really enjoyed talking to you, Seifer, now I feel I must go back to just answering.

"...Er, yeah." We walked out the door, and he stepped out first... Bastard. He confuses me. He really does. One minute, I love him, and the next... I'd like to disembowel him! 

"We're gonna question the citizens today. We'll do the dirty work tommarow..." He announces, motioning for me to follow him outside. I follow, and we walk down to the pet shop. The owner is really friendly-or so I've heard.

"Hello." Seifer says, wearing that fake smile.

"Hi there. What can I do for ya!?"

"I need gyashi greens." Seifer lies.

"Alright, lemme get that for you... What about you, mam, are you with him?"

"AFFIRMATIVE." Seifer glares at me for talking that way. I glare back.

"Erm, alrighty!" The man starts to dig around for something behind the counter.

"Hey, I heard that you guys were having a gang problem... that true...?" I see the man pause, then look up.

"Yeah... The women next door's son was killed. We think its from the gang... Hmph."

"Oh... I see..." Seifer says, an arrogant, sucess smile on his face. I keep a scowl on my face, and stare at the floor. Seifer pays for the gyashi greens he will never use, and we walk out the door.

"Dammit, Fuu. You have to act friendlier, or we aren't gonna get shit outta these people!" I don't say anything. He never talks to me unless he wants something. Why should I speak to him at all...? I let out a sigh, and Seifer stops and turns to face me.

"What the hell is wrong with you, Fujin? Are you *trying* to be a pain in my ass?" He snaps. I remain quiet. Oh Hyne, Seifer. Just shut up... I can't talk to you. So, I just step ahead of him and knock on the door next to the pet shop.

"Who is it?" I open my mouth to say something, but instead, Seifer talks for me.

"SeeDs. We need to ask you some questions..."

"Oh, right. Hold on." The woman opens the door. She looks as if she has been crying. Well, of course, her son died.

"We just have to ask you some questions involving your son, if thats okay..." Seifer says. He sounds so considerate.. Yeah, sure, Seifer. Keep acting. We are invited in, and he asks various, stupid questions. Finally, after an hour of my silence, I decide to say something useful.

"Was your son starting to go out at various times during dark hours?" I ask, trying to sound polite. Seifer looks at me funny. I scowl at him.

"Yes, for the past two weeks, he's been going out late at night. I asked him, he said he was with friends... then he was found dead, in an old building. Shot 15 times."

"...I see." I say, waiting for Seifer to say something.

"Oh, well we're terribly sorry. That's all, mam. Thanks for your time."

"Sure thing." She replies. We leave and walk back to the hotel in silence. Its late. Around 7:30. I sigh, and plop on my bed. Seifer sits at the foot of his bed.

"We're gonna go explore that building tommarow. I was tired today, thats why we didn't do much. But, I guess that's what happens when you don't sleep for two weeks... I'm gonna try and sleep tonight." Seifer layed back on his bed, and closed his eyes. After an hour, I can hear his steady breathing. He's sleeping... Good. I walk over to his bag, and start to rummage through it. I find all the normal stuff, then at the bottom, a small bottle that I recognize. My bottle of sleeping pills. I take them with me where ever I go... In case I *need* them. Why did he take them...? Was he concerned? Did he really care if I lived or died? I hear him move from up on the bed, and I take the sleeping pills and place them behind my back, kicking his bag back into the closet. He swings his legs over the bed and looks over at me.

"Fujin, what in Hyne's name are you doing?"

"NOTHING. WAS GOING TO BATHROOM." I point to the door that is next to me.

"...Well, uh, what's behind your back?"

"NOTHING." I answer. Before I know it, Seifer had walked over to me and put his arms around me, trying to get the item I had taken from his bag back. I've always wanted his arms around me, but not in this sense...

"What did you take, Fujin?" I don't answer. Instead I break away from him and walk quickly into the bathroom.

"GO!" I yell. I can't let him know how important these pills are. No. Never.

"Just tell me what the hell you took!" I don't reply. I press my body against the cold, tile wall. He presses his hard, muscular body against mine, I can't get away now. The force of him against me forces me to toss the pills into the tub unintentionally. He looks over at the bottle, spilling over with the pills. I don't move. I don't breathe. Seifer turns his head to face me. I can feel the pressure of his body against mine loosen, but at a high cost... Seifer stares into my eye. I look back, and I see he is angry, disapointed and saddened.

"Fuu... Why, Fuu?" I don't say anything as he walks over to the tub and turns on the hot water. I watch the pills dissolve slowly, and he walks away. I don't try and save the little tan pills. I don't want them. They've caused so much trouble; fucking pills. I look over at Seifer, who is sitting at the foot of his bed, head in his hands. He knew I had them... Why is he so upset now...? He thinks I was going to use them.. right there and then. Oh, Seifer. No... I wasn't... Should I tell him...? My life isn't worth anything, might as well. I turn off the hot water and walk over to Seifer.

"Seifer...?"

"...Mm?"

"...I wasn't going to...use them."

"Oh, really?" He stands up and faces me. "What were you doing with them, Fujin? What the fuck were you going to do with them?!" I take a shaky breath. Should I just tell him I was going through his bag?

"I was going through..." I take another shaky breath. "going through your bag and found... them."

"Why were you going through my bag?!"

"...For the same reason you were going through mine..."

"I doubt that, Fujin! I really friggin' do."

"...Seifer. Really..."

"Go to sleep, Fujin... dammit." I walk over to my bed and sigh as I lay down. Seifer, please, understand... I wonder though... Is he breaking too?

End Chapter.