Unacknowledged Victims of the DOC
OUR BIGGEST CRIME?
I was always a cheery, upbeat, outgoing individual, until Dictatorship & Tyranny took over my life. I am even scared to write this for fear some government official will see this and Lord only knows what would happen.
Now I am tired of being quiet! I want to scream to the world what is happening right here in Florida. In fact, I have tried that, and some from the DEPT OF CORRECTIONS retaliated.
I can't explain right now how awful I feel. The panic attacks are setting in again and I am writing this to you, because somehow, I don't know why, but I think writing helps just a tiny bit.
I called the prison and they denied me a visit, I later called them, when I was somewhat calmer, and asked if my son could call me. I thought there was a rule somewhere where that when someone goes into confinement, they are entitled to a phone call.
But, since I was honest and knew about his confinement from his letter, DOC said he was not entitled to a phone call.
Right now, my son is in a youthful facility, and I am petrified that they will move him to an adult prison. If that happens, I will most likely die of a heart attack. If they know this is one of my biggest fears, they will move him immediately to adult, just out of spite and plain revenge! I believe that with all my heart.
Right now he is supposed to be grouped with 14-18 year olds and he is with 19-24 year olds. They have Florida Statutes concerning this, but when do they ever follow the rules?
Kay, what I want to know, is, where is it written that moms like me, that have done nothing of a criminal nature, and our biggest "crime" is loving our sons & daughters unconditionally, deserve our civil rights removed?
Later, My Son's Mother
ANOTHER MOTHER'S SORROW
My son is in prison too, one yr down, so far. He told me the other day that he is getting so scared.
His comments, "Mom I am so afraid of becoming institutionlized, it's so easy in here and I see so many guys that are. Mom I have learned so many more ways of doing crime in here than I ever heard of on the streets. I'm scared mom, I can't cry, you don't do that in here in front of guys. I'm afraid I will come out hard hearted and not be able to cry, care or hurt like I used to."
All I could tell my boy, looking straight in his eyes and trying soooo hard not to cry, "Your heart is not going to change. It may take awhile for you to get back some of your feelings, but you will come back and feel and love and hurt like you did before you went in."
Will he? I really wonder, I'm scared for him too!
My son's case, is in the hands of IACDP, through Jack Danford and Kay Lee, CommonSense. I have sent Jack an email about H.Stanley (cherokee two's death) I called the chaplain at my Son's institution. He called my son into his office and called me back so I could tell them about Stanley's dying, and they could pray about it. My son and Stanley have made their peace with GOD. Yet, I was afraid, Joey would go off the deep end; and he may have.
He & Stanley were corresponding (which is not allowed) guess it just had not been detected yet. I recently visited my son, had not been able to make the trip from NC to FL in almost 5 years.
Joey had aged 20 years in that short time. I have been in contact with the former Asst. Super now superintendent, who I "think" is cooperating with me to try and get him some health drink to go with supplements. He is at 130 lbs, for some seven-eight years now 5'10"; I asked the Asst Warden (by email) to call Joey in and discuss some issues. Joey has been writing grievances that go nowhere (except to the person he gives them too) (which jack wants copies, if I ever get time) re the food problems, ect. but Joey told him he has no problems. I am sure he is afraid, and I probably put his life in jeapordy, with other inmates, guards etc. ratting, to the super.
Now that this has happened to Stanley, I will really be busy on my son's case. Joey has a lot of medical problems steming from incarcaration. I am drained enough. However, I will keep you posted.
Someone once told Joey and I, these hardships happen to us to condition us for other harder, things that may happen in the future. How strong do we have to get, how is it possible to be that strong? It will never end 'til we are gone. Will it even then? One has to wonder.
The problem is, Lori, we've elected money for a long time without thought to wisdom, compassion, and progression. Everything now is destructive, self-limiting, punitive.... The mood of a nation depends on its leaders and our moods have become dark and unforgiving, quite different than the spirits of light we were when we began our journey. One hopeful aspect is, the more people they lock up, four times as many learn the truth. We don't need to win over ALL the people... One day soon we will reach critical mass, and the will change almost overnight. Keep talking about it, sharing what you've learned, and have faith - the change will come. Kay Lee
*Anyone who cares about someone inside eventually has to deal with the DOC. We have found DOC employees generally either pass the buck, deny everything, give bad information, or be just plain rude. We've found most of them unhelpful, dishonest, stubborn, secretive, etc etc. Some are friendly while not giving you answers, and some are not. But the majority of them tend to be abusers their authority, and every abuser has a victim...
Their unacknowledged victims are everyone on the outside who has to pray while looking for answers to find one helpful human being in the DOC.
For those few DOC employees who remember they are dealing with human beings, we thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
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