NCZ/NKZ
To ever have been worthy to meet a man such as You,
is a dream beyond this girl's wildest fantasies.
To have crossed paths while a dark gloomy cloud hung above her head. A past she was ashamed of
never sharing it with another. The fear, the pain
the memories.
Repressed, hoping beyond hope they don't resurface.
To lead a life with no self confidance,
full of deception, known only unto herself.
Fooling all who met her for it appeared on the outside as happy, carefree, go lucky, and assured of herself.
Deep in her heart, her mind and her soul
laid a secret she thought to take to her grave.
Opportunity knocks steadily upon our doors
it's only when answered are our dreams or fears ever known. It's not always how we want it or wish it to be true, but it is how we accept it, embrace it, grow from it, learn by it, and savor the lesson it was meant to be.
Perhaps there are many lessons here to be learned, however the one this girl places
focus on is that Healing is a slow and steady process,
and time is the greatest Healer.
Memories are just those things that happened.
We can't go back to change them or fix them
but we can go on with our lives,
knowing we survived, lived, overcame, healed,
and moved on.
Master, the day this girl opened the door and found You standing there was a day of awakening
rising from a long deep sleep and knowing that without You to lift the dark gloomy clouds she would still forever be fooling not only herself but those she came to love with the new found innocence of a baby
and the trust of a child.
This girl offers herself to the One who took the time to help her heal, helped her to find herself,
lead her into a new found world where trust, honesty, love, and beauty are bound by the heart.
mara comes to You down on her knees, head bowed, sapphire eyes lowered to the ground, shoulders back, breasts pushed forward from the gentle arch in her back, hands lying upon her thighs;
a soft whisper emitting from her mouth
"this girl offers her heart, her body, her soul and her very essence to the One that has released her and set her free to become what no one has yet seen.
To fullfill her dreams and Yours and make You proud"
Your little mara has been guided with Your careful hand Master to soar and overcome self doubts, to fly straight and sure to reach it's target and be strong.
Thank You for Your gift Master Jai.
Thank You for being there when she opened the door.........
Thank You Master Jai for loving this girl the way You do... With so much love, Your blue sea
