people actually read this?

well it shows you how much I keep up with this thing. 2 people had to tell me this page wasn't working before I did something about it. I didn't realize that anyone read this anymore. I feel so special.

for those of you who don't talk to me on a regular basis, my life has been quite crazy lately. Between school and work, you'd think i wouldn't have time to screw up a love life, but that just shows how little you know me. Let's just say that recent occurences have not strengthened my liking of the opposite gender. Any boys care to defend themselves? just a warning, you can't win.

but on a happier note...well, I can't really think of a happier note right now, but if one comes to mind, you'll be sure to hear about it.

- kelly

hey,i'm still alive!

hey guys, not only am i alive, but i've actually been working on this a little. The second box down (if you run your mouse over the left hand side, they'll all appear) is a link to a survey, go take it. When i have enough good ones, I'll start posting the answers. Also, for those who have been reading this since way back in the day (my freshman year of college)when it was black and called oblivion, thank you :). If you remember, every once in awhile I would have friends write the news for me. I'd like to start doing that again. So if any of you are interested, please let me know!

Also, I'm going to try to resurrect the message board, so please post! I'm thinking of having one song on here a week for people to d/l, whaddya think?

so yeah, everyone get back to me and tell me what you think!

- kelly

yes, yes, I know it's been quite awhile

I know it's been awhile, and a lot of shit has happened, i just honestly haven't had the time or energy to update this thing. So let me run down the past few months for you. I turned 21, my brother was shipped off to war, Andy and I broke up, and my grandfather died, and my brother came home. That pretty much sums it up.

Being 21 is nice, I don't drink much, but it's nice to be able to go to any bar or nightclub when I want. Or if I feel like ordering a drink in a restaurant, I can.

My brother got called off to the middle east (damn military). He was supposed to be done in may, but they extended his time of duty for another year. Bastards. But he's home now, safe and sound, which is nice.

The Andy thing is definitely getting to me. On one hand I'm very sure that I did the right thing, yet i still miss him like crazy. It's a very lonely feeling. To be with someone for two years, and then it's just over...i don't like it too much.

On top of all that, my grandpa died. Cancer can sure eat people up.

So hopefully, after explaining this, you guys can understand why I'm not the happiest person to be around lately. I apologize for that. Hopefully I'll be out of my funk soon.

Until then...

kelly

the nervous breakdown has come and gone...

I must say I'm still suffering from some residual side effects and what not, but at least the worst is over with. I know it's been lord knows how long since I've updated this thing, so let's catch all of you up.

Christmas presented me with a digital camera, with which I was able to take one semi-decent picture of myself. Now if I could figure out why the damn software hates my computer, then I could actually upload the pic on this page, but alas, the software hates my computer. Which, honestly, I can completely understand right now. I will tell you, it freezes at the most random times. Quite frustrating, especially when it means that I lose all the im's sent to me while I was away. Or it could just be the I don't get any away messages when I'm away, but I rather believe that it is the former reason, not the latter.

Certain occurences has strengthened my belief that men are assholes. Okay, maybe not all men, but I'm sure most would concede to the fact that the vast majority of men, especially those in my "age group", suck. I am venting mainly because of one certain male who will remain nameless, because, in all honesty, he's not even really worth mentioning. But trust me, most of you know who I'm talking about...and hey, maybe if he's reading this, it will reaffirm to him that he really is an asshole. I mean, he's gotta know right? How can you not know you're a complete jackass? I would imagine this kid has some sort of clue.

But enough about that. What else. Ooooh. I got a new keyboard. I can see all of the pretty letters again. I just wonder how long it will be before I wear these off too.

I also got a beautiful navy blue acoustic guitar which I am trying desperately to learn how to play. You see, being a girl, my fingers aren't quite long enough, so I have to work on stretching them out. But you'll see, one day I will wow all of you with my impressive guitar playing skills. go me is all I can say.

had a girls night out last weekend. I will admit that i was a little whiny before going out. okay, maybe a lot whiny, but you have to understand that I couldn't find anything to wear. I know I sound like such a girl when I say that, but it's the truth. But they did drag me out, and I must say that after I got a few drinks in me and forgot about how freaking cold it was outside, I was a happy camper. Mary and I were definitely the two drunk girls of the group, giggling at anything and everything. I must say it was nice having Mary around, she was able to push all the ugly drunk guys off of me. *Just a side note to all of you guys. One, many times, a girl is much happier dancing with herself than being groped by nasty, smelly, sweaty guys. And two, if you're ugly, no amount of alcohol and beer goggles is going to make you any cuter. Now, it's possible for a decent guy to look good after a few drinks. But humping my leg from behind is not, and I repeat not, going to get me into bed with you. harsh I know, but it seems like someone should tell these guys*

In case you were wondering, our drunk quote of the night (everyone has at least one or two) is "You better watch it or I'll Warren Slap you" Kudos to Mary for that witty quote...quite impressive coming from a girl who was definitely more drunk than I.

Well, I think that's enough for one night. More to come soon!

kelly

i'll just leave you with this...

If you answer "yes" to two or more of the following items, there is a great chance that you may be suffering from stress or some form of mental illness.

~ You can achieve a "Runner's High" by sitting up.
~ The sun is too loud.
~ Trees begin to chase you.
~ You can see individual air molecules vibrating.
~ You begin to explore the possibility of setting up an I.V.drip solution of espresso.
~ You wonder if brewing is really a necessary step for the consumption of coffee.
~ You can hear mimes.
~ You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
~ You believe that if you think hard enough, you can fly.
~ Things become "Very Clear."
~ You ask the drive-through attendant if you can get your order to go.
~ You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
~ You begin speaking in a language that only you and Chandeliers can understand.
~ The less sense matter and matter is more than sense.
~ You keep yelling "STOP TOUCHING ME!!!!" even though you are the only one in the room.
~ You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
~ Your heart beats in 7/8 time.
~ You and Reality file for divorce.
~ You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before.
~ You can skip without a rope.
~ It appears that people are speaking to you in binary code.
~ You can travel without moving.
~ Antacid tablets become your sole source of nutrition.
~ You discover the aesthetic beauty of office supplies.
~ You have an irresistible urge to bite the noses of the people you are talking to.
~ You say the same sentence over and over again, not realizing that you have said it before. Losing your mind was okay, but when the voices in your head quieted, it was like losing your best friend.

kelly

Oy Vey...

Not sure why, just had a sudden urge to update this. You all know how sporadic these things (my entries) can be. Once again, I will evoke some amount of pity by recounting my horrific days of school and work. And how they both suck ass. Because they all do, it's a well known truth...

so what prompted me to write? well, during my nightly patio session with mary, we got to talking about how this whole damn college thing is almost over, and what the hell we're going to do with our lives afterwards. And i'm just curious, does anybody really know? Am I just some pathetic loser who has absolutely no idea, no calling...because that is entirely possible. We all know my tendencies towards patheticness (if that's even a word...).

alright, i know i can't complain, and it's not like i always have this "woe is me" attitude... So onto something more appealing

I could tell you about this girl Sheila at work, the one with diamonds in her front teeth (I swear). But that would just get me bitching some more...so, something interesting.

did you know that humans and some rare form of chimpanzee are the only mammals to copulate while facing their partner? reminds me of the time i was at the zoo and saw two turtles going at it. when the female moved, the male moved right along with her, never breaking his rhythm. now that's dedication!

so nick's having a halloween party. heaven or hell theme. christy decided she wanted to be an angel, so that makes me a devil. maybe i'll get some pics and put em up on here...should be an interesting time...

time for the shower...

kelly

my how time flies when you're having fun...

well alright, maybe i haven't actually been having fun, but at least the time has flown. many changes have gone on...

first off, i actually go to class now. surprise, surprise i know, but they're so freakin hard now, i have to go if i actually want to graduate.

finally rid of the psycho roommate. now, i won't name names, but anyone who knows me even semi-decently knows exactly who i'm talking about. that girl, geez. between being told i'm a fat, ugly bitch, and my boyfriend will go off soon and fuck someone else, leaving me all alone, you can understand why i don't have a lot of love for the girl who, in her words, is smarter than i'll ever be. bleh. but it's okay now. i'm in a better building, i live with two people i actually like (mary and christy, you rock), and i don't have to worry anymore that she'll be home when i get home.

still with the boyfriend. decided i'll keep him for the time being ::smile:: he's such a cutie.

other than that, life is pretty much boring as usual, but right about now, an uneventful life is feeling pretty damn good. now i know this probably isn't very interesting, but i figured since it's been at least 2 or 3 months since i've updated this thing, it was about time. plus i really don't feel like starting on the homework yet.

so that's that, and when something eventful does actually happen, trust me, you'll be the first to know ::wink::.

kelly