I am a Christian and have been a Christian for almost four years. This has given me time to explore many other religions and I feel that it was such a gift to have found mine. I would like to share that with you and ask you to open your mind and think about what I'm writing.
I always felt this empty space inside me that no one (not even the Backstreet Boys!) could replace. I tried filling this void with many things, some being drugs, cigarettes, and many other things that were damaging to myself. One day my friend asked me to come to church with her, and because I had nothing better to do, I agreed. I at once felt at home in this place. It wasn't the people or the building, but something about it felt so right.
I continued to go to church and found myself more at home then at my own house. At first I didn't believe all the stuff about heaven and God and stuff like that, but something my pastor said got to me.
He told me that God loves me no matter what I've done. He told me to just open my heart to Jesus and ask him to work inside me.
I believe that God sent Jesus to this earth to die for our sins so we wouldn't have to. Jesus was the perfect man and comitted no crime. He gave sight to the blind and performed many miracles and preached peace and love. He committed no crime but was still murdered by the Roman government.
He was beaten with a whip coated with broken pottery and glass. A spear was driven through his left side. A crown of thornes was placed upon his head as people mocked him and spit at him. Railroad spikes were driven through his hands and feet and he was hung on a cross for many hours while being mocked and cursed at the whole time.
You'd think he would fight back, or run away or something. (Lord knows I would have...) But all he did was pray to God and whisper "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do." He actually prayed to God to forgive the people that were murdering him. He didn't even have to be killed at all. All the government asked was that he deny his God, and they would set him free. But Jesus knew he had to die like this. He did it for us.
I used to think to go to heaven you had to be a saint, or do alot of good deeds. I thought there was no way I could go. All you have to do to get into heaven is simpily accept Jesus into your heart and ask him to be your personal Lord and Savior. He will do the rest. I have the prayer at the bottom of this page (it dosen't have to be exactly what I'm saying... just somewhere on the lines. God understands everything)
When I asked Jesus to be my personal savior, the feeling was amazing. I can't even explain it, but a feeling of holiness and purity just flooded my body and I broke down in tears. It felt almost like I hadn't taken a shower in ten years andi was finally clean. The void was filled with a love I had never felt before (How many peoplelove you enough to truly suffer then die for you?) I knew right then that this was for real.
I urge all you you to try the same thing. You don't have to be born into a Christian family, or have friends that go to church, or even have a church. You can be any age, race, or sex. GOD LOVES YOU. JESUS LOVES YOU SO MUCH HE DIED FOR YOU. Please open your heart for just a few moments and ask Jesus to touch you.
If you would like to ask Jesus into your heart, here is the prayer:
Dear Jesus,
I know I am a sinner and know that no matter how good I try to be, I can never be perfect as you were. I understand that you died for me. I know that by asking you into my heart, I have sealed my fate to heaven and you have saved me. I ask you now to come into my heart and change me, make me new. I invite you to be my personal savior. I love you. Thank you for dying for me. Amen.
***If you have any questions, please email me. I would love to help you through this. If you have made a personal decision, I'd love to hear about it.***
