Losing Myself



As I walk through the present, knowing your by my side.
I do not feel happy nor sad, I do not feel anything.
I wonder how long this can go on, how long it will
continue to burn. This fire we have created inside ourselves,
as hatred and deceit against each other. I'm tired of the lies,
and living my life in a lie. Never knowing what may come next,
and too scared to lie in wait. My life has changed so much since
we became one, it's ironic how alone I feel. I don't know where I am going,
I've forgotten who I set out to become. I no longer know where or how to
find myself, for I am lost inside of you. No one can save me from this,
except for myself. They say, "With every relationship you grow as a person".
But I feel as if I have become someone completely different,
someone I have grown to hate. I hate the life I live, the life full of lies.
Told by both you and I, but I go on, not knowing how to stop.
Not knowing whether or not this is where I am suppose to be,
wondering if I am truly meant to make you happy. Wondering as
I walk in the dark shadows of our love, if this is really what love is.




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