I feel it.
    It calls to me.
    It is so close I can taste it.
    It pulls me closer.
    I reflect upon my life.

    It seemed almost beautiful, my life.
    but it was so cluttered with anguish and despair.
    I chose to seek out the few little bright points,
    yet the darkness knew it owned me.
    I must have hurt someone so badly,
    as I continue to pay my dues.
    I cannot think for the life of me, who it might be,
    or I would seek repentance,
    as the promise of regaining my neutrality fades away.
    I must be so indebted by karma
    that it shall take many lifetimes to start anew;
    Yet I am stuck in this life.
    Every corner I turn shows promise,
    yet ends in dissappointment.
    It is the knife that yet remains in my back,
    as I dig this hole deeper and deeper.
    There will never be any relief
    until I progress from this existence.
    My only hope is that karma resets in each lifetime,
    It is my one true hope.
    If your's is the soul I so defamed, please tell me,
    otherwise tell those that I loved, that I truly loved them
    with ALL of my heart.