I feel it.
It calls to me.
It is so close I can taste it.
It pulls me closer.
I reflect upon my life.
It seemed almost beautiful, my life.
but it was so cluttered with anguish and despair.
I chose to seek out the few little bright points,
yet the darkness knew it owned me.
I must have hurt someone so badly,
as I continue to pay my dues.
I cannot think for the life of me, who it might be,
or I would seek repentance,
as the promise of regaining my neutrality fades away.
I must be so indebted by karma
that it shall take many lifetimes to start anew;
Yet I am stuck in this life.
Every corner I turn shows promise,
yet ends in dissappointment.
It is the knife that yet remains in my back,
as I dig this hole deeper and deeper.
There will never be any relief
until I progress from this existence.
My only hope is that karma resets in each lifetime,
It is my one true hope.
If your's is the soul I so defamed, please tell me,
otherwise tell those that I loved, that I truly loved them
with ALL of my heart.