Like most love affairs, it began with a flirtatious act. Both innocent,
expecting nothing more than a careful glance and a sly smile. Once in a
while, you'd yearn to hear her voice. Just a little comfort reminding you
that someone cares. Be careful not to plant any memories or be part of a
memory. As cupid himself would tell you that memories are dangerous
because they cannot be forgotten. Go on with your dull life…. Don't think
that one individual will change it. But…. She did look good in her
mini-dress…stop…. quickly erase that image from your mind. Don't think how
smooth her skin is. Let her hand go…. Whatever you do, do not kiss her
hands for your lips will yearn for more. Ok….now you've gone too far.
You are actually thinking of when you will see her again. Memory is your
only comfort. Each image going by in slow motion. What now? Is she
thinking of you? Heed my warning and walk away while time continues. If
this charades continues, time will stand still. You cannot go forward or
backwards. Turn off the lights and lay quietly in the dark. Let music
take your mind away before she takes your soul away. Relax….Soon, dawn
will come and you will see her again. Pretend that you don't care, don't
greet her with a smile, but a nonchalant hello. See if she cares. Don't
let her kiss your cold cheeks. Back off…. Too late. Will you wash your
face again? You are smiling….that's not a good sign. For just a moment,
time has stop. For your own sanity beg Father Time to wind the clock. Let
the day end. End it now! Now I say! Pick a fight with her. Criticize
her hair…. Find something quick before her eyes seduces you. The memories
are building. I suggest you take a drink from the river lethe. She
accepted your suggestion. She changed her hair. Your smile is growing
wider. One more act of kindness and you're hooked. Yes…she kissed your
cold cheeks again for improving her appearance. A look of amazement is on
your face. You still fail to realize one important detail. What if she
only thinks of you as a friend? Will you be hurt. Can you truly accept
her decision or will you become a night stalker. Stop while you're ahead.
It's not too late. Kiss her goodbye and go. That's it one step at a time….
Do not look back. Walk straight with your head held high. You did it.
You suppressed her beauty and flirtatiousness.
Days pass and you are still miserable. You are pathetic. Pick up the
phone when it rings. Do not shut out the world. You did the right thing.
Wait! The memories will pass. I promise. Suppress your tears. After all
she wasn't your soul mate. Or was She? Ok…Ok…I didn't mean that. There's
only one way to test your true feelings. Call her. See if she missed you in
the same manner. I bet she has moved on. Or better yet, I bet she changed
her number. But I warn you, if she accepts your call, keep it brief. Do not
let her angelic voice mesmerize you. "Hello"…. That's it…it's over.
Once again you are too weak…. You agreed to have lunch with her? The tears are
dried and you are smiling again. Once again I ask you…. Is she your soul
mate? Will you bring her flowers? Will you apologize? Great! If you
are planning to do What I told you not to, I hope you do it right. Do not
hold back. Be prepared for the results. Whether good or bad, just know
that I will always be by your side as the voice of reasons.
