On July 17th, 1997, at 1:58pm, I had a Total Abdominal Hysterectomy with
Bilateral Salpingo-Oopherectomy. Also known as TAH/BSO. In laymens terms,
removal of uterus, both ovaries, fallopian tubes and cervix.
A turn of the head....a glimpse of an eye....I spot the pamphlet....
It is titled "A woman's guide to hysterectomy", it is thicker than most
any pamphlet I've seen. My attention is riveted to the pamphlet, half my
attention on the nurse's parting conversation, because there are no more
options for me. Two laparoscopies, birth control, depo lupron shots,
Synarel nasal spray, all non-steroidal anti-inflammatories known to man,
and none of it, none of it has rid me of this elusive, misunderstood,
often painful, life changing disease called - endometriosis.
My story begins in mid 1996, the last time I went to the doctor, exploring
treatment options for endometriosis. All she had to offer after two
laparoscopies was another round of Depo Lupron. I refuse, knowing the
possible dangers of the drug, and that it would be only a temporary
reprieve at best. She tells me to think about it and writes me a
prescripton for something I had just told her five minutes before did
nothing for the pain *heavy sigh* As the nurse is getting the prescription
which I stand silently waiting for, I spot the pamphlet out of the corner
of my eye, I walk over to them, and hesitantly take one, knowing some place
deep inside that this will be my only and final solution for endometriosis
I left the doctors office that day, in total and sheer frustration, so
frustrated, the tears are welling up in my eyes as I head for my car, must
calm down, have to return to work. I put this visit and the pamphlet
tucked away in my purse in the back of my mind until I get home that night.
Later that night, I take the pamphlet out, it is heavy in my hands, I
notice it is printed by a pharmaceutical company that makes a brand of
women's hormone replacement. I leaf through it, the advice looks to like
good advice, details what to expect pre-op, post-op, what activities to
resume and when. Little did I know it would become my post-hysterectomy
survivial guide. I put it away in my file drawer, "just in case I need it
someday. That day did arrive.
© 1999 Jeannah Newman. Copyright
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