Guess what? Her response was very surprising, too.
I didn't erase that email, and it will be along time before I do. Here, read it for yourself.
Hm, interesting.. seems we ARE a lot alike... Ya see, I have somethin' very similar to get off my chest. (Pah, don't joke ^_~)
Ya see, I developed a slight crush too.. even I'm not above that ya know. I didn't mention, and tried to hide it because of what you mentioned about your previous sis's, and I wanted to be a keeper ^_^ Seems I've succeeded, I'm glad.. I really like helping you, and I like you.
*sigh* About Jeff and I, I think he loves me, really I do.. but I don't think I can say the same, no matter how much I'd like to. You know what coming from a broken household is like, I just don't think it'll work out between he and I... I'm just afraid to tell him since I care about him so much. My older sister Angie, well, she doesn't really help matters much. She's had her heart shredded six ways from sunday by guy after guy and now she's going through tough times again.. I'm afraid of doing that to somebody I care about, or having it done to me.
Enough about that though, but I appreciate you saying this, it helps me out a lot. And I hope it really doesn't put a strain on our friendship, cuz no matter what, I'd like to be friends. As for the age thing, I get along better with people younger than me I'll admit it freely.. getting along with people my age takes a lot of work seeing as how I act so immature, and how I am in general. Deep, but I don't like the idea of growing up.
Thanks for the necklace, I hardly ever take it off ^_^ (It's needed a polishing or two just cuz of that) plus it fits the kind of things I like to wear I hate fancy jewelry..
Tell Ben thanks, I think he made a good choice here ^_^ Ya know, if only we lived in the same half of the country..
Just to clear a few things up, I made her a necklace with a pegasus and the Zodiac sign Cancer. And Ben is, of course, the great friend I told you about before.
It seems that my age isn't an obstacle after all. And as much as I hate putting it like this, it seems Jeff is out of the way.
And FAYE likes ME! One of those rare occurences where a girl that I have a major crush on likes ME as well! Very, very excellent. So, I sent her another email asking where we stood, then asked her "face" to "face" on the ICQ Internet chat thingy.
According to Faye, she would like it if we were either extremely good friends, or maybe even minor boyfriend and girlfriend. At this point, I was bouncing off the walls. This was pretty cool!
However, it must be kept a secret. For a while, at least. You see, Faye didn't know how to let Jeff down, and didn't want it to come out the wrong way. So, I kept it to myself, telling Ben of course, and eventually deciding that Dan could be trusted, too. So, we went on this way, me and Faye. I didn't call her 'love' or 'koi' or anything of the sort at the time. Just Faye, sis, and oniisan-chun.
One day, I found myself buying a Pokémon card, a Japanese Tentacruel. I love Pokémon, but I HATE the cards. I don't like much Pokemon merchandise. Well, I bought it, thinking that Faye would like it. So I sent it to her in the mail.
A few days afterwards, I came online, and Dan said that I just missed Faye. My first feeling, except a little grief that I missed her, was JEALOUSY towards Dan for being on at the same time Faye was, when I wasn't.
Pretty funky stuff, huh? Well, that's not all. Faye was on my mind night and day. I talked to Ben and Dan as much as I could, but neither one reall understood, either. They've had major crushes (Kelly Carper and Tara Smigovsky), but nothing of the sort I was going through.
I tried to dismiss the thought that I was in love. I'm only 13. Kids my age are not experience enough to understand that. They only know attractions and crushes.
And as much as I tried to toss it over my shoulder, it kept coming back. Am I in love with Faye? I brought this up to both Dan and Ben, and they were both instantly serious when I said this. They knew how I felt about teens in love, so they knew this must be serious. They both gave me good advice, but again, neither could understand.
So, I took what both Dan and I considered some desperate measures.
I asked Jeff.
I carefully avoided brining up the girl in question, and thanked every God that didn't exist (I'm altheist) that he didn't ask. And he gave me the advice I needed.
When you can't get your mind off of her (or 'him', he said ^_^; He was joking, I hope), when your waking moment to the time you fall asleep is filled with images and thoughts of her, you are in love.
And that set it. I was in love with Faye!
I didn't tell Ben, or Dan right away. First thing was first.
I had to tell Faye.
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