Out of three IQ tests, I scored a 133, a 126, and a 104. Now, these were all online, so they're not entirely accurate. Nonthless, with these scores... it's apparent that I am hardly as smart as I made myself out to be.
My girlfriend refuses to believe any of these scores. A mix between my trying to hard to get a good score, a bad test, and a little bad luck, according to her, made these scores less than they should be. Personally... I don't have nearly as much faith in myself. I already have a low self-esteem, for this to occur is just another blow. And not just because some online tests say I'm dumber than I thought I was.
In case you can't tell, the elaborate webpage or it's contents not being enough clues, I am more of "the intellectual type". Translation, a weirdo, geek, odd-ball, nerd, however you may classify me. I like to consider myself smart, I always liked to think I had an IQ of 140, maybe 150 or even higher. And here I am, with a range of 104 to 133, give or take a few points.
I can't play sports, not at all. I can't draw, I can't write. I thought that my intellect would get me through, but with an intelligence quotient as low as this one is...
This is not just about me being more of an idiot than I thought. While the fact that I may never amount to anything has occured to me, only now is it a realistic outcome, even if it isn't the one that WILL happen, it is possible. I will be nothing. A faceless person. I never really wanted fame on a high scale, like an acter or something, but I didn't want to be a Joe Smith. I have too few good skills, however, to denote otherwise...
So, here I am. I can play video games, well. Oh, boy. I can make a decent webpage, I have an OK imagination. The line pretty much stops there. All, useless. So... this is it, isn't it? I'm just some sort of stupid face in the crowd.