Never Let Me Go

The night was silent, only a few crickets and frogs hummed over on the foggy cold night. The moon gave the surrounding's a blue tent. It was a night of wonders only those who wished to get sick would wander about outside, seeing how the weather almost below 0 degrees.

Evy sat in the monstrous home library, she was comfortably relaxing Rick's desk chair. A large blue blanket covered her from the cool air seeping through the cracked window. She was deeply consumed in an enchanting book she had selected a week ago. She just couldn't put it down. It wasn't like her other Egyptian books, This one was more fiction. She didn't exactly know why it entertained her so, she wasn't the one for any make believe story. She came apon it after her and Jonathan got into a fight, which lead her and Rick in a bit of an argument.

She gently flipped the page.

Foot steps could be heard clearly coming from the hall way. Evy didn't seem to notice as the door slowly drifted open.

"Hunny aren't you going to get any sleep?" He said softly in concern. She didn't acknowledge him. Her eyes skimmed the pages she as she clearly pictured what was happening in the story.

"Hello earth to Evelyn..." He was now standing in front of her, he felt a bit frustrated with her not noticing he was there.

"All right then." He said sarcastically, grabbing four very heavy books. He glimpsed at her once more but still she didn't even look to see what he was up to. He stood right in front of the desk holding the heavy books in his arms. Then he just let go. 'BAMB' they made the most monstrous sound as all the books smacked onto the hard desk.

"O'connell what do think you are doing!"

"Oh so now were back to O'connell? " He was suprised.

"Sorry I didn't mean to call you by your last name."

"Our last name Evelyn our last name."

"Sorry I stand corrected."

He kneeled next to her holding on the chair for support to hold him up. She looked down at him.

"Evelyn... It's three O'clock in the morning lets get some rest." She looked at him puzzled. She couldn't make out what he was saying clearly. Her head was still on the book she was reading. She looked back to the book and began to read it.

"Oh ok....well.." Rick mumbled to himself opening the window all the way. The cold rushed in and gave Rick a stinging sensation on his face. Still Evelyn didn't move an inch. He looked at her closely shaking his head in disbelief. Evelyn hated the cold. Rick had wanted and expected her to jump up into his arms for comfort to keep warm. "All right then." He grabbed the book out of her soft hands and through in out the window. It flew through the now snowing night landing hard on the cement. He quickly regretted it, but knew it was for the best.

"Rick !"

"Evelyn I know your going to be upset and probably hate me for a few days but for doing that but, you need some sleep, you've been getting sick every morning and feeling terrible during the day you have to stop this ... your not taking care of yourself!"

"Your right..."

"I am?"

"Yes,...let's go to bed." She grabbed his hand and as they walked out of the room Rick whispered to himself. "I'm right???" He didn't hear that form Evelyn in a long time considering how stubborn she is. He didn't expect her to give in so easily.

*****

It was 4:14 in the morning and Evelyn still concentrated on the story. She had to read some more. She got up quickly and ran to her library. I was freezing. Rick Had forgotten to shut the window. She grabbed the blanket she had rapped around her moments before. She looked out the window skimming the ground for the brown book. Finally she spotted it. It was covered in some snow but was still manageable to see. She quietly shut the window and headed down stairs.

Evelyn tiptoed throughout the kitchen, not only to be quite but also because her feet were bare to the cold hard wood floor. She gently opened the kitchen door. Little bits of flake snow showered into the kitchen. Evelyn took a deep breath, she couldn't find anything near she could put over her feet so she just went for it. She remembered where it was and headed in that direction. She got close but didn't see it, soon she was right where she had remembered it, but it was no where to be found.

She looked around in puzzlement. Feeling disappointed she headed for the house. Just then someone grabbed her from behind. She tried to scream but the strong being held her mouth shut.

"Don't scream I'm not going to hurt you." What appeared to be a mans voice, whispered in her ear. Sending unsure chills down her spine. He held on to her arm tightly as he uncovered her mouth. "Don't run!" He ordered.

"Look what ever you want ...I mean my husband is right in there and he kick your ass if he has to." She stopped herself from saying 'take what ever you want' in such moments like this because the answer would always would be 'her' that they or he or it wanted.

He turned her around placing both hands around her face.

"Please." Tears were forming in her eyes.

"It's OK Shh, I'm not going to harm you."

"Than what do you want?" Big mistake. She vowed to herself that she'd never say that. She was shaking from the cold. Her feet were bare in the snow which was now almost to her ankles. He took his hands off her face.

"Allow me to introduce myself." He said with pride. Evelyn rolled her eyes when he kissed her hand. She sighed.

"I am Osiris..."

"Oh my God ... you ... your in." She babbled on pointing to the ground in the direction she had thought her book was located.

"Yes, go on..."

"I mean your in the book I'm reading.." She shook her head blinking her eye lids rapidly. "I must be dreaming. Your not real." Evelyn suddenly realized her childish reaction and now felt as though she was nine, when she used to sleep walk. She looked to her feet shriveling, suprised that she had lasted that long in the snow with her feet being so bare. Osiris looked to. He motioned his hands to her freezing feet, as they warmed up, feeling completely covered.

"How did you do that?" Well, that was a stupid question ... she thought to herself. He was a God and she was well aware that he has such powers.

"Well, it works like this... You have discovered something that is rather remarkable."

"Oh no not again." She wined throwing her hands to her sides.

"Well,..." He began to walk circles around her. "You know the story..." He handed her a book pulling it from his long brown heavy coat. She carefully took it out of his hands.

"And what does that have to do with anything?" Evelyn was now playing dumb, she now was very aware that she must be careful. Still he slowly walked circles around her. Evelyn turned her head making sure she didn't loose focus on his eyes for a second.

"You know the destiny of Selene and Osiris ... you understand it...you have taken it into your heart..and fallen in love with it." He stopped, looking at her carefully.

"I haven't fallen in love with a book! Your very mistaken I'm afraid."

"No...your the mistaken one....why must you resist your desires....do I sense a fear of expression...from someone of the name Rick?"

"You leave him out of this..."

"Are you sure your in love with him the way you think you are...." He moved closer. "Does he know about the passion that you long for, ... your obsession with the need to start a family....Your uncertain thoughts about telling him because your not willing to take his bad reaction...Because it will be a bad reaction I might add, do you actually think he's the type...a father...right. ... he didn't even have parents...your fooling yourself." He stopped talking to pick up her thoughts again. "Abortion! Wow abortion has come over your mind...well your negative thoughts are most likely to come true...unless..." He stopped to stair at her, reading her emotions like a book. She felt so exposed. So...alone.

She starred back, she was frozen ... carefully examining every word he said. He grew frustrated with her attempt to challenge him with silence and other thoughts she had blocked. Finding her weakness was going to help him, but now he needed more to attack her with.

"Evelyn...look on page 23." He ordered. rolling his eyes. She flipped the thick books pages stopping at page 23. She began to read aloud the brief description of Selene. A part in the story where Osiris described Selene...

"She moved slowly, I looked into her shy brown eyes watching her long brown curls flow with her white dress like gown...

She looked at her clothing realizing she was wearing a white night gown. She let her long brown curly hair down a lot now and Rick always sweet talked to her about her brown eyes.

"I am *not* Selene." She snapped. Knowing what Osiris was insinuating.

"Oh but indeed you are..."

Evelyn turned looking up to the library window. "RIC..." Osiris covered her mouth and rapped his strong arm around her waist before she could call out to Rick for help.

"Now you don't want to do that... Selene" He slowly removed his hand from her face his grip tightened hold around her waist.

"Don't call me that! My name is Evelyn O'connell!"

A knife appeared in his hand.

*****

"Evy?" Rick said softly. Soon he realized he didn't have his arm around Evelyn, a pillow had replaced her, a mechanism Evelyn often used so that Rick wouldn't wake up. He always had an understandable need to have his arm around her all the time.

He sighed in disappointment creeping out of bed. He went straight into the library. But no Evelyn. He was starting to get worried already. He walked down the stairs, with each step he grew a little more upset and panic started to silently take control. Finally he walked into the kitchen noticing immediately how cold it was quickly looking at the opened door. Now he was really angry. He kept saying to himself. 'control your temper' he knew yelling at her was the last thing they both needed.

****

"No your not Evelyn anymore, this life of yours has changed...you are now Selene!..."He furiously pointed to the book with his knife. She through the book out of her hands as they began to shake. He wanted to hit her, but had something better in mind... "I really wouldn't have done that if I were you!" He held tighter as a red glow appeared in his hand. " Please your hurting me." She struggled trying to loosen his much to tight grip.

Soon she felt faint and weak as his words echoed in her head. He was putting her under some kind of spell.

"Not only are you Selene you belong you me...you want to belong to me..."

She began to fight to keep her eyes open, fighting to stand on her own.

"You are with a child that you *will* allow to be mine...you are no longer Evelyn O'connell...You are no longer Evelyn O'connell....." His words were harsh and painful, never would she want to hear that she wasn't any longer Evelyn * O'connell * or that she belonged to someone other then Rick. She was using all her strength to get out of his grasp and refuse to listen to these words she couldn't bare them. Osiris noticed she was getting stronger with thought's of her husband.

"He doesn't love you Evelyn ... Rick doesn't love you.."

Her heart ached as these words attacked her soul. Now she began to brake down a bit. Confused by his words 'is he right?' she thought to herself, Osiris sensed this...he was gaining control over her.

***

Rick walked out into the freezing night. He heard something a man voice. He stopped to listen clearly.

"Rick doesn't love you Evelyn." Came form the voices direction along with a small aching whimper that he clearly knew was his wife. Anger and heartache filled his body at those words. Finally he got to the scene. Rick was horrified to see this. Evelyn was still fighting and now felt she couldn't breath. Osiris didn't see Rick at all, and continued with his way to control Evelyn.

"You will have a child...our child..."

Rick's heart skipped a beat. 'A child'

"Now Evelyn repeat after me...Rick doesn't love me..." Osiris waited impatiently. Evelyn refused still fighting. " Now Evelyn!" Osiris jerked her to wake a little out of his spell. When she didn't respond the way he wanted her to he put the knife to her stomach. "Now say it...or you wouldn't have to get an abortion." He pushed the knife closer to her stomach.

Rick was shocked. 'abortion? how can she do this?' he thought to him self.

Evelyn was hoping Rick wouldn't have to see this, to hear this. She almost felt relieved that he wasn't seeing this. (note to reader. evy doesn't know he's outside)

"Now say it!" Osiris yelled in her ear. "R..ick..do..es..does..n't..lov..love me" She began to cry.

"Again Evelyn!"

Her tears fell to the snow. "No..."

"I am no longer Evelyn * O'connell *....say it!"

"I..m..am ..no..longer....Eve..lyn..O'co..nn.e..ll." A deep pain came over her.

Rick froze in pain. 'How could she say such a thing?' he thought.

"Selene stop your crying..."

Evelyn continued to cry. She no longer feared for her life...what about the baby that Osiris has not brought to the issue. The baby that was growing inside her. Rick's child, Her child...their child.

"Selene stop it..." He shouted. Evelyn was drained. She tried with all her strength to speak.

"I..m..am am..no.not .. Selene!"

Out of frustration Osiris smacked her. Evelyn cried in pain.

"You are Selene!!" He screamed pulling her almost lifeless body to his angry face. The knife now cutting her skin.

"STOP!!" Rick shouted. "Let her go..."

Osiris couldn't deal with him he was running out of time.

"Selene...Your mine....Tell me Selene tell me your mine...tell Rick you belong to be."

"I...I belong to.."

"Yes, that's it all you have to do is say it once more and you'll be mine forever!"

"No!! Evelyn Hunny look at me." There is no way he was going to loose her. Or the baby.

Her heart jumped at his voice. Osiris felt her pulse rise.

"Selene you belong to me...He doesn't love you."

"Please...I'm not Selene...please." She was still crying and week. Her stomach stung as the knife's cutting was getting deeper.

"Evelyn Hunny you have to stop crying, so you can gain strength." Rick pleaded, he could see she was in physical and emotional pain.

"NO! Selene say it! My name it Selene!"

"My....name...is...is"

"O'connell....Evelyn O'connell...." Rick pushed.

"He doesn't love you.... I love you Selene you belong to me...you belong to me!"

"Please..." Evelyn cried. It was so unbearable she couldn't handle it anymore. She fell weaker and weaker in Osiris arms.

"Evelyn listen to me. I love you, I love you so much Evelyn please fight it." Rick's heart ached and he felt he was going to die, the sight of her leaving him...of this man taking her away from him. He could see her body giving in.

"No, Selene remember all those times he has hurt you....forgetting you even are around." Evelyn's eye's opened and closed slowly....As she started to remember the argument Rick and her got into...Rick defended Jonathan and not her on the same night she was excited to tell him about the baby....Rick stopped her from doing things she normally did...no more digs...starting to stop her from planing adventures....

"Selene you will belong to me you will love me....I will own you and the child. Say it Selene.

"I belong...I belong to you....I..I'm Selene..."

"Yes, that's right..Now Selene say I love you Osiris..and we shall be united in true love. And start a family with the child you are carrying."

"I..I..Love..."

"No, Evelyn please don't ....Don't say it...Don't leave me..." Rick began to cry.

She took a deep breath. "O..."

"Yes, come on you can say it..."

"Osiris...I love...Osiris" Evelyn knew this wasn't true. She struggled to look at Rick. Finally she reached his eye's meeting hers he was falling apart not knowing what was to happen next. He lost her, he lost their unborn child.

"I'm sorry..." Tears flowed down her face like slow rivers. As his deep brown eye's consumed her soul.

"Evy...no...don't leave me..."

'Wait ... what have I done....Rick and I are going to have a child...she remembered...oh no now what...did he hear Osiris say that she was with a child....Was he mad...would he let Osiris take me from him he would take my child. Please someone help me....'Evelyn's thought's raced.

"You can't have my child..." Evelyn gained enough strength to struggle. Weather Rick wanted to be a parent or not Osiris was not to kill *Rick and her* child.

"Selene!"

"No ... it's Evelyn...my name is Evelyn!"

"He doesn't want the child Selene..." Osiris whispered in her ear. "He ... doesn't want you..or the child."

Evelyn knew this couldn't be true, but it hurt her. Osiris got a tight hold on her again.

"You see...Selene....your mine for ever and ever...you said you love me...now we must go...."

"No, you don't want me...I did read the book...over and over...you are going to take the life of my child...you can't have my baby!" She could only speak above a whisper.

"So you have ... these words have no meaning Selene your soul is mine."

"No please, please don't take my baby please." She cried. Osiris pressed the knife into her skin, slowly moving it, enjoying her pain. Rick could not see what Osiris was doing to her.

"NO...I will not let you take her. Evelyn I love you I want to have a child with you, I'd love raising a child with you. We were meant to be Evelyn. Please, please fight it." He didn't understand why she wasn't responding.

It grew silent.

Osiris was very angry.

"Selene?..." Osiris stopped with the knife.

"I'm not Selene! Your hurting me..." she could hardly speak, only a small struggle was her movement. Osiris was holding her to tightly his hand stopping blood around her stomach Rick noticed, and panicked knowing this couldn't be good for the baby or her there was to much blood. This was it,... Rick couldn't bare to hear 'your hurting me' in Evelyn's sweet voice, now in painful tone.

Rick attacked Osiris braking his hold on Evelyn. Evelyn fell to the ground. Rick rushed to her. He looked beck to see that Osiris was gone with one simple orb.

"Evelyn..." He covered her wound with his hand.

Tears slowly flowed down her face. She was the verge of passing out. Her eyes closed. "Evelyn...It's OK now he's gone...he's gone..I've got you...I here now..I've got you. Please don't close your eyes." She opened them. "OK now I need you to focus on me."

"That isn't going to be to hard," she whispered. He kissed her on the forehead lifting her off the ground carrying her inside. He rushed to the living room and laid her down on the couch.

"Evelyn Hunny..."

He turned her towards him. She was still very frightened her lips were blue from the cold..he through blankets over her.

He lifted her head up and slid underneath her sitting on the couch pulling her fully in to his arms. He lifted the blanket to look at the wound. Then looked up to see her eyes closed.

"Evelyn talk to me."

"I will never forgive myself for this.." She managed to get her voice stable, her warm tears rolled down his hand, as he removed some single curls from her face. She rested her head on his chest...listening to the rhythm of his heart.

"I love you." She whispered. Her eyes closed. She fell limp in his arms.

"Evelyn?…" He gently started shaking her. "Evelyn?..."

"Uh mu" She could only mumble.

"Evelyn...please open your eyes ... stay with me." He held her as he rushed to the phone.

**********

Rick put her back down on the couch. His hand placing pressure on her wound. Blood was all over him from holding her.

"OK Evelyn talk to me....keep your eyes open."

She opened her eyes.

"Rick..."

He took her hand into his free hand.

"I feel...I feel..."

"Shhhh" He hushed her.

"Rick...you have..."

Rick jumped at the banging on the door. He answered it and the Dr. Anderson rushed in. He began working on her.

"Rick..." She whispered.

"I'm right here." He sat down next to the couch by her head, brushing her hair with his fingers.

"What is that for?" Rick questioned the Dr. Anderson who was holding a needle.

"It's just going to relieve the pain," the doctor informed him as he began to inject into her arm.

"Wait!" Rick grabbed the doctors hand.

"She's...she's pregnant... I mean will that hurt the baby?"

"This woman is pregnant?"

"Will it hurt the baby?"

"I'm worried about Evelyn right now." Evelyn flinched when she felt the needle stick her.

"It's OK Evelyn..." Rick was doing all he could to keep her calm.

It took two hours for Dr. Anderson to finish up on Evelyn.

"OK just let her sleep now in about an hour or so wake her."

"And what about the baby?"

"Close call...if the cut had been any deeper Evelyn and the baby would have ... gone."

Gone Rick thought in the second that it ran through his head over and over...Gone?...He stood still. Giving into this one-second of dread. Finally he snapped out of it, afraid of his own worries. "OK thankyou Doc." Rick closed the door behind the doctor." He checked Evelyn and then headed up stairs to change and bring her some different close.

*************

"Evelyn?... Evelyn Hunny wake up."

She slowly opened her eyes.

"Rick?" Her eye's finally focused on him. She quickly grabbed a hold of him. She needed him to hold her. And he did. "Rick I had a bad nightmare...I...I was and...and you were."

"Evelyn...calm down."

She looked down to her stomach. The blood made her face turn white.

"It wasn't a dream was it?" Her tone was in a slow whisper.

"No, it wasn't." He took her hand into his gently kissing it.

"Oh God. I'm sorry....I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...." Her hand began to tremble, as tears struggled to be unseen.

"Shhhh it's OK."

"Rick I meant to tell you...I mean I was going...to."

"Evelyn...relax it's OK..."

"It is?" Her look was so serious in question.

"I understand..." His voice was so soothing. Helping her relax.

"You do?"

Rick took her into his arms holding her tightly.

"I love you." It was so simple. Those three words were spoken and he made it better. Evelyn didn't know why. Maybe it was just the way he said.

She held him tightly.

"I feel as if I am being pulled away from you..." She said sadly.

"Evelyn ... what do you mean? Are you OK?"

"Please just never let me go...never let me go." She begged.

"I'm not going anywhere. I'm right here. And I'll never let you go. I'll protect you from the world. I promise.

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