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Nick H~

Could Almost Write A Movie This Part Is Just His NICK

AKA PICK, PICKLE, NICKLE, NICKY, PEANUT, PENIS, PRINCESS, LIQWIDCROW, MUSICALMONKEY

D.O.B: January 23rd 1984

SIGN: Aquarius

FAV ANIMAL: Monkey FAV BAND: System of a Down ???? This changes everyday FAV COLOR: Blue BLACK FAV THINGS: Spiderman, Drawing, His Buds:),Playing Guitar,Music,Concerts

Everybody's talkin' But they don't say a thing They look at me with sad eyes But I don't want their sympathy It's cool you didn't want me Sometimes you can't go back But why'd you have to go and make a mess like that? Well I just have to say Before I let go... Have you ever been low? Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low No I don't need your number There's nothing left to say 'Cept I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved My friends are outside waiting I've gotta go Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low What you did was low What you did was low What you did was low I walk out of this darkness With no sense of regret And I go with a clear conscience We both know that you can't say that Here's to show For all the time I loved you so So... Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? 'Cause what you did was low...

YEARBOOK COMMENT:

Hey This is your boyfriend Remember me? The goofy one next to you in Art Class right now? Your looking mighty fine, I think one day you'll read this if we are still together or not you'll start to laugh and remember the great time we had. From Your friendly neighbourhood NICK! xoxo

Nick and I have known each other for about 2 and a half years, we met in 2000 and have been a huge part of each others lives. There's so much Nick and I have gone thru, it really is hard to write everything down.

Nick is a very dynamic, unique person, with a heart of gold. He's extremely funny and has a way of making me smile even when all I want to do is smother him with a pillow. I actual let myself act silly and crazy when I'm with him and because of that I've had some wicked times with him. We have spend numerous hours exploring Calgary, going on interesting walks all over Cochrane, and many hours watchin' cartoons, movies and T.V. Nick has taught me to relax and actually take time to have fun, and Nick I greatly appriciate that. We both have worked together (at good old' McDicks) and played computer games and Magic, have been on trips together (sometimes without actually leaving his house), have skipped so much school (I still think all for good reason), shared hours of laughter, tears or conversation (no matter what time or place, in person or on the phone) and have grown and become better people (to each other as well as ourselves).

In all honesty, Nick has been there for me through it all, and I would never for a second change that, hopefully this part of my website I dedicate to him, will show just how much he means to me and I hope and pray that no matter what, he'll always be apart of my life. Not only do I now appriciate the little things Nick has shown me about this world, I will forever love him and thank the heavens for allowing me to share his life with him and be his best friend.

NICK'S POEMS HE WROTE FOR ME:

*AMANDA*: You know I'm no good at writing love letters And I'd rather see a car explode then see Two people kiss And I see no point in buying flowers We should just make out.I'd never let a Girl join my club until you came along.I'd never have a bath or shower until you wanted to lay next to me.I liked leaving my room in a mess until we would spend hours in it.I just want to say thanks for loving and looking after me.And for showing me girls might just be alright.

Love Long Time Nick

*ADNAMA*The Ground and Mountains Shake She is born and the world awakes Confusion flows from the Childs body She is left alone in the world, the darkness I alone control the light so I shine it on her Yet an unknown force blocks my path A monster stands in the way of us My light dims and she fades away Only when the beast sleep can we be And my light shines and her confusions leaves I show her my emotions, my love for her I see happiness in her I know I can’t go I see the hate she has and replace it Replace it with love I have But the monster must wake, the light dims And when she leaves I cry and hurt For she is in pain and I can do nothing Why I have these feelings I’ll never know But I feel them when she is near So I can never let them go My light must shine on

POEM I WROTE FOR NICK:

*LYING ON A CLOUD, STUCK IN A MOMENT, WATCHIN' THE WORLD COME UP WITH MY BEST FRIEND PICK*

NICK AND AMANDA'S SONGS(Well Songs I've Dedicated to him or what have you):

*BROKEN BY: SEETHER*

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

*WHEN YOUR GONE BY: 3 DOORS DOWN*

There's another world inside of me that you may never see. There's secrets in this life that I can't hide. Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find. Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me Wants to be the one you wanted me to be. I'll never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there, So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin. I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends. Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone. Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be, Ill never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there, So love me when I'm gone. (Maybe I'm just blind) So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me, Wants to be the one you wanted me to be. I'll never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there. So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.

*SOMEWHERE OUT THERE BY: OUR LADY PEACE*

Last time I talked to you You were lonely and out of place You were looking down on me Lost out in space We laid underneath the stars Strung out and feeling brave I watched the red orange glow I watched you float away Down here in the atmosphere Garbage and city lights You've gone to save your tired soul You've gone to save our lives I turned on the radio To find you on satellite I'm waiting for the sky to fall I'm waiting for a sign And all we are Is all so far You're falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there Hope you remember me When you're home sick and need a change I miss your purple hair I miss the way you taste I know you'll come back some day On a bed of nails I wait I'm praying that you don't burn out or fade away And all we are Is all so far You're falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there You're falling back to me The star that I can see I know your out there, ohhh Your falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there, somewhere out there Your falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there Your falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there You're falling back to me I know, I know You're falling out of reach ohhhhhh I know...

*I MISS YOU BY: INCUBUS*

To see you, when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream. You do something to me that I can't explain. So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you.(?) I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wastin away. I know I'll see you again whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

*SUMMER ROMANCE (Anti-Gravity Love Song) BY: INCUBUS*

I'm home alone tonight. Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight. I think I was dreaming up some thought that were seemingly possible...with you. So I call you on the tin can phone. We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone. I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free. When we get there, we're gonna go so far away. Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity. For years, I kept it to myself. Now potentialities are abound, and sleeping under my shelf. Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy, and we'll be there. So I call you on the tin can phone. We rendezvous at quarter-two, and make sure alone. I may have found the way for you and I to finally be free.

*DRIVE BY: INCUBUS*

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear. And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal. But lately I am beginning to find out that I should be the one behind the wheel. Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive? It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around. But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found. So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. Yeh. Would you kill the Queen to crush the hive? Would you choose water over wine.... hold the wheel and drive?

*THERE IS BY: BOXCAR RACER*

This vacation's useless These white pills are kind I've given alot of thought On this 13 hour drive I missed the grinded concrete Where we sat past eight or nine And slowly finished lapping In the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to The nights we used to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing On your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you but you swear you loved me more Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is... Those notes you wrote me I've kept them all I've given a lot of thought Of how to write you back this fall With every single letter In every single word There will be a hidden message About a boy that loves a girl Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is... Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is...

*I'D DO ANYTHING BY:SIMPLE PLAN*

Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I'm here waiting And I wrote this letter in my head 'Cuz so many things were left unsaid but now you're gone And I can't think straight This could be the one last chance To make you understand I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you Together we broke all the rules Dreaming of droping out of school And leave this place to never come back So now maybe after all these years If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again I close my eyes And all I see is you I close my eyes I try to sleep I can't forget you nanana (...) And I'd do anything for you I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything There's nothing I won't do I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything 'Cuz I know I won't forget you

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*LAMB BY:NICK*

Take his hand little lamb, Let him show you his plan, Take his hand until you fall, Then he’ll disregard your call. Take his hand little lamb, Failed is his life plan, Trust in you and you’ll find in you, Open your eyes and see something new. Take his hand little lamb, The Promised Land, you’ve been banned, Let him grant you one last wish, So you stay away from the wolf’s dish. Little lamb ignorance overcomes you, Don’t worry, he see right through you, He’ll morph you into his pawn, Never again to see the light of dawn.

*MOTHER DARKNESS BY:NICK*

Mother Darkness, Throw your dark cloak around me. Protect me from the sound, The sound of progress, The sound of technology. I sit infront of this flashing box, Zombified, acknowledging the flashes and nothing else, I soak in their ideologies drip by drip, Can you hear my mother? I don’t blame you, I blame them and their problems, Their problems forced on me, I know I can fix their problems. Send money too. Four easy payments. 24-hour famine. I’m starving mother, Starving for affection, I crave your smile. But I don’t blame you, Put blame on the box. Entrapped by it’s chains. Lose the chains. Lose your mind.

*SLEEP BY:NICK*

Clouds forming in my head Reality far away when I close my eyes. Why are you so far away? Demons dreaming Breathing, Breathing Should I fall to sleep? An animal that hungers for pray to eat Still you deny it. The lamb unaware Breathing, Breathing Dare I try and eat? Count your wealth, the money for them to keep. Careful for what you wish Castle crumbling, Falling, Falling Is this land for you to keep? When the road ahead is to steep? What do you battle for? Innocents dyeing. Falling, Falling

*YOU LIE BY:NICK*

Cut myself, to see if I still feel Cut myself to see if I still bleed Something pours from the wound, but not blood. No, this substance flows pure and it’s no longer a fluid. Voices pour from the gap, the lies you tell I’ve cleansed my body of you. Because I can no longer stand you Because I can no longer trust you I was addicted to your lies Lies hidden behind money Lies hidden behind your democracy I’ve learned to be my own person. My own country

*GROWN UP PUNK BY:NICK*

So we’re all grown up, we’re heading off to school. And when we look back, we really weren’t that cool. Oi, oi ,oi But we’re still here, drinkin?lot’s of beer And when it’s all said and done. You know we had lot’s of fun. Your replacing your short skirt Your takin off that tourn shirt Your on to new things, Your college bound. Childhood lost, Maturity Found. Oi, Oi ,Oi But we’re still here, drinkin?lot’s of beer And when it’s all said and done. You know we had lot’s of fun. You’re replacing your short skirt You’re takin off that torn shirt So now we’re all grown up. You found a job. But don’t for get where your from. Yeah yeah Cause we’re still here drinkin lot’s of beer. And when it’s all said and done. You know we had lot’s of fun. Yah you know we had lot’s of fun. Yeah it was lots of fun

*PAIN BY:NICK*

Can you feel the pain i feel? Can you tell all of it is real? You'll never see the hate I have for you. I don't show it. I were it under my skin. Forced to commit sin. Striped of all life. My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you. Thrown into you. My hated enemy. How i crave you. In the darkness I am born. Lives left shattered and torn. What do I see? You standing before me. My long ago conquered past. catching up to me fast. remembering burried memories. My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you Thrown into you My mortal enemy. How I crave you. You destroy me, so i destroy you. But threw you i am born again. A cycle that will never end. So in the darkness i wait. I don't care how much time it takes. I wait here, to hurt you. I hold this blade to cut you. I hurt you, I hurt myself. But i can hold this blade to cut myself. old this pain. I were it underneath. I don't show it My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you. Thrown into you. Forever enemy. I love you.

*Amanda's Confused Thoughts 2004*

This whole situation has gotten out of sync it's not normal it's not the same it's somewhat comforting but not really it's like there's a shield up too much of the past has made this all screwy, unsure exactly how I feel too hurt to just not speak my mind sometimes all I know for sure was my heart is missing pieces and they are unreplaceable maybe this will fit again comfortably I think you left me at my worst I forgive and sometimes everything you have ever dreamed of having isn't exactly what you want in the end if I wanted you back I would have asked you out but it's not my place I refuse to let you use me just letting you know maybe giving up hitting on me might make this work I know you are a male but come on now if I will never be important to you why would I not only give you a friendship that is not well deserved and my soul that you should never have in your grasp again I love to flirt with you but how many times are you going to walk on me till you lose me trust me this time it will happen make up your mind i'm vulnerable because of my heart but i'm not stupid deep down this may never heal itself quit bein selfish a friend makes things fair what is it that we exactly want i'm tired of these games i'm only alive for so long when is good bye goodbye and not hello let me heal its been almost too long to look back now

Adam C~

Dre V~

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Aaron P~

**Most of the time if you geniuinely care about someone you stick it out thru good and bad and try to fix whatever the problem may be. Goes to show that some people are rather selfish, can't handle things maturily and just give up to soon. Sometimes you really think you know someone when in reality you don't know them at all. When your walls are down your vulnerable, you sometimes give in to show how much you really do care. It's hard when you trust someone, and really want to do all the right things. Maybe I pushed to save something I was scared of losing, I guess that's what happens when you have pushed it away for so long. I guess in the end after all the chain of events it goes to show you just exactly how much you care and what someone really means to you after all you say and do. At least I tried and that's all I could ever do. Don't know what went wrong, I won't dwell on all that happened. You meant the world to me when you let me in, you should have waited instead of laying a guilt trip on me but I caved to prove you meant that much. I'm going to be an adult about this, things can always change if you allow them too. Sorry I fell for a fantasy, opened my heart and told you things I've never shared with another. I'll never meet anyone like you and I now realise how hard it was for me to just be my normal self and talk to you and look at you the way I really wanted. I forgive you and don't blame either of us for anything from the beginning to the end. To bad our friendship couldn't be worked on I know I'd try my hardest and really just be who I truly am. May God take care of you and Life gives you all it can offer. Just be happy and maybe one day you may give me a call my number won't change. I just have to let you know I'd always have a space for you in my life, I don't break my promises, and right now things aren't meant to be. One day they might be, but you really can't be scared and you gotta put in as much as you want back. For now I'll leave it as is. Remember you can hate me for life cuz ima love you to death, there is a spot in my heart I won't forget, I'll miss ya but really it's always been your choice, you hold the cards now. Take care and thanks for the time and few moments I got to spend with you. Everything I've ever said, will always remain true at any time. Things happen for a reason and time will always tell. You know I had to be honest and just let you know. GoodBye Mista AMP**

Mad Raps from Aaron (amplified)- U give me faith in decent guys and keep sleepless nights not so bad on MSN or the Phone Ur an amazin Story teller and hopefully my very patient one and only perfect happy fightin drunk irish hooligan though I haven't told u thank u for caring so much God made us met for a reason sorry i am bein so stubborn no matter what i can't forget u "it was a nasty nasty night" hate you Aar 2 da power of AMP (No worries, it's all good, what's done is done, now time will tell all, have some patience and no regrets. Be honest, open, and go with your first instinct, Heart knows all.) Fav Quote:" U can hate me for life cuz Ima love u to death"

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