BOYZ





The Men who Have Effected Me and Made me An Amazing Women. Thanks for the memories and mistakes you've helped me grow and become more experienced when it comes to the other sex. As complicated as you were or myself, how simple we got close and met for reasons.

*Love comes in all shapes and forms, no matter what age, distance or reason.*~Amanda Marie

Randy L, Tommy B, Mike C, Dusty H, Chance P, Alan P, Mike R, Wil K, Ray K, Nick H, Adam C, Dre V, E and Aaron P

Randy L~

Tommy B~

Mike C~

Dusty H~

Chance P~

Alan P~

Mike R~

Wil K~

WIL

AKA WILLY, MR. WIL, RAVENWING, DOVE, JOKER, SNUGGLES, BABYLOVE, LIZARD, KING OF THE CROP, SOARING EAGLE, ROMEO, KING OF THE SPACE PIXIES

D.O.B: June 15th 1980

SIGN: Gemini

FAV ANIMAL: Scorpion FAV BAND: Marilyn Manson FAV COLOR: Black FAV THINGS: Playing Guitar, Mountain Biking, Sex:)

YEARBOOK COMMENT:

Hey Baby Life is like a serpent Always twisting and turning Trying to get away from it all But when I found you, I found it all Love, life, hope, and courage were with you You are my sweetest angel from above And I will never lose you You have your doubts Everyone does But I vowed to you I would be there forever and always When we arrive in a new city new for me, home for you I will show you how faithful I am Nothing shall ever tempt me away You are perfect for me And I hope I am the same for you I'm writing from the heart so if it doesn't make sense, that would be why. I hope to have you forever and always. We bought this yearbook because it was the year we met and our future started. I know I make you mad sometimes but like you said, I'm still a little kid inside so remember I love you and always will.

Love Always Wil

WIL'S POEMS HE WROTE FOR ME:

*Here I sit by candlelight Thinking of you all the time Wish I could share with you Share all of my past But I don't want to scare you Make you condemn me Sitting here, waiting for fate to act Will it be for my better Or will it be like always Look me over, torture me more My dearest angel Beautiful in every way I feel so much for you But you are full of worry Worry about me leaving I am your protector I am your confidant You can trust in me I will never leave Until you condemn me to death And even then, I will stay with you.*

*My dearest love My sweet angel How I love thee I cannot explain There is not enough words In all of this world Can I keep you For now and forever Would you take this demon To be your mate Further in the future Would you let this demon Raise your children Will you love me Demon I may be Forever and always?*

My Juliet, oh how I love you. If only I could express it If only I could say it Tell you all I feel How my heart skips when we fight How I lose my breath when you speak How my body tingles when you're near I wish I could tell you all But I am lost for words When I try to speak these things I desire no other but you I love no other but you To hear your voice is to hear a goddess And to love you is to love perfection Please let me be here Please let me stay I will not leave unless forced Let me finish by saying one thing I love you till the end of time And beyond until my spirit ceases to exist.*

POEM I WROTE FOR WIL:

*WIL* So many memories, So many dreams Now looking at our future, Reminded of the past, Wanting to trust you, Scared to love you, Feeling alone, Lost in my thoughts, The nights we had, The love we shared, How much it was missed, How much it's still there, Can we find it again, Can we love till the end, I continue to cry, not for sadness, but for missing a time, of self-seeking and loneliness, I hope you are him, the one that will never leave, my heart deserves something, and I'm hoping it's you. So please be patient with me, and if we're meant to be, only time will tell together we shall see.

By: Amanda

Sept 1997-Aug 1998 May 1999-Oct 2000

WIL'S AND AMANDA'S SONGS:

*I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING BY: AEROSMITH*

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing, Watch you smile while you are sleeping, While you are far away and dreaming, I could spend my life in this sweet surrender, I could stay lost in this moment forever, Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure, I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep, Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing, Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do, I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing Lying close to you feeling your heart beating, And I wondering what you are dreaming, Wondering if it's me you are seeing, Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together, I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever And I don't want to miss one smile, I don't want to miss one kiss, I just want to be with you right here with you, Just like this, I just want to hold you close, I feel your heart so close to mine And just stay here in this moment, For all of the rest of time

*AMAZED BY: LONESTAR*

Everytime our eyes meet, This feelin' inside me, Is almost more than I can take, Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, And it just blows me away, I've never been this close to anyone or anything, I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams, I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you, It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life, With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do, Baby I'm amazed by you. The smell of your skin, The taste of your kiss, The way you whisper in the dark, Your hair all around me, Baby you surround me, You touch every place in my heart, You know it feels like the first time, Everytime, I want to spend the whole night in your eyes, I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you, It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life, With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do, Baby I'm amazed by you.

*TRULY MADLY DEEPLY BY: SAVAGE GARDEN*

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy I'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath Truly, madly, deeply do I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on A new beginning A reason for living A deeper meaning I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I want to lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky, I'll make a wish to send it to heaven Then make you want to cry The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of The highest powers In lonely hours The tears devour you I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I want to lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me Oh can you see it baby? You don't have to close your eyes 'Cause its standing right here before you All that you need will surely come I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy I'll be you hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need I'll love you more with every breath Truly, madly deeply do I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea I want to lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me.

*HERE WITHOUT YOU BY: 3 DOORS DOWN*

A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder and I donít think I can look at this the same But all the miles that separate They disappear now when Iím dreaming of your face Iím here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time Iím here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams And tonight, thereís only you and me The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go Iím here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time Iím here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams And tonight boy, thereís only you and me Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it wonít take away my love And when the last one falls, when itís all said and done it gets hard but it wonít take away my love Iím here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time Iím here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams And tonight girl, thereís only you and me Iím here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time Iím here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams but tonight girl, thereís only you and me

november rain patience guns and roses desperado eagles stairway to heavan led zepplin still the one shania twain

Ray K~

Nick H~

Could Almost Write A Movie This Part Is Just His
NICK

AKA PICK, PICKLE, NICKLE, NICKY, PEANUT, PENIS, PRINCESS, LIQWIDCROW, MUSICALMONKEY

D.O.B: January 23rd 1984

SIGN: Aquarius

FAV ANIMAL: Monkey FAV BAND: System of a Down ???? This changes everyday FAV COLOR: Blue BLACK FAV THINGS: Spiderman, Drawing, His Buds:),Playing Guitar,Music,Concerts

Everybody's talkin' But they don't say a thing They look at me with sad eyes But I don't want their sympathy It's cool you didn't want me Sometimes you can't go back But why'd you have to go and make a mess like that? Well I just have to say Before I let go... Have you ever been low? Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low No I don't need your number There's nothing left to say 'Cept I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved My friends are outside waiting I've gotta go Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low What you did was low What you did was low What you did was low I walk out of this darkness With no sense of regret And I go with a clear conscience We both know that you can't say that Here's to show For all the time I loved you so So... Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? When the truth came out Were you the last to know? Were you left out in the cold? 'Cause what you did was low Have you ever been low? (have you ever been) Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? 'Cause what you did was low...

YEARBOOK COMMENT:

Hey This is your boyfriend Remember me? The goofy one next to you in Art Class right now? Your looking mighty fine, I think one day you'll read this if we are still together or not you'll start to laugh and remember the great time we had. From Your friendly neighbourhood NICK! xoxo

Nick and I have known each other for about 2 and a half years, we met in 2000 and have been a huge part of each others lives. There's so much Nick and I have gone thru, it really is hard to write everything down.

Nick is a very dynamic, unique person, with a heart of gold. He's extremely funny and has a way of making me smile even when all I want to do is smother him with a pillow. I actual let myself act silly and crazy when I'm with him and because of that I've had some wicked times with him. We have spend numerous hours exploring Calgary, going on interesting walks all over Cochrane, and many hours watchin' cartoons, movies and T.V. Nick has taught me to relax and actually take time to have fun, and Nick I greatly appriciate that. We both have worked together (at good old' McDicks) and played computer games and Magic, have been on trips together (sometimes without actually leaving his house), have skipped so much school (I still think all for good reason), shared hours of laughter, tears or conversation (no matter what time or place, in person or on the phone) and have grown and become better people (to each other as well as ourselves).

In all honesty, Nick has been there for me through it all, and I would never for a second change that, hopefully this part of my website I dedicate to him, will show just how much he means to me and I hope and pray that no matter what, he'll always be apart of my life. Not only do I now appriciate the little things Nick has shown me about this world, I will forever love him and thank the heavens for allowing me to share his life with him and be his best friend.

NICK'S POEMS HE WROTE FOR ME:

*AMANDA*: You know I'm no good at writing love letters And I'd rather see a car explode then see Two people kiss And I see no point in buying flowers We should just make out.I'd never let a Girl join my club until you came along.I'd never have a bath or shower until you wanted to lay next to me.I liked leaving my room in a mess until we would spend hours in it.I just want to say thanks for loving and looking after me.And for showing me girls might just be alright.

Love Long Time Nick

*ADNAMA*The Ground and Mountains Shake She is born and the world awakes Confusion flows from the Childs body She is left alone in the world, the darkness I alone control the light so I shine it on her Yet an unknown force blocks my path A monster stands in the way of us My light dims and she fades away Only when the beast sleep can we be And my light shines and her confusions leaves I show her my emotions, my love for her I see happiness in her I know I canít go I see the hate she has and replace it Replace it with love I have But the monster must wake, the light dims And when she leaves I cry and hurt For she is in pain and I can do nothing Why I have these feelings Iíll never know But I feel them when she is near So I can never let them go My light must shine on

POEM I WROTE FOR NICK:

*LYING ON A CLOUD, STUCK IN A MOMENT, WATCHIN' THE WORLD COME UP WITH MY BEST FRIEND PICK*

NICK AND AMANDA'S SONGS(Well Songs I've Dedicated to him or what have you):

*BROKEN BY: SEETHER*

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ĎCause Iím broken when Iím open And I donít feel like I am strong enough ĎCause Iím broken when Iím lonesome And I donít feel right when youíre gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away Thereís so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ĎCause Iím broken when Iím open And I donít feel like I am strong enough ĎCause Iím broken when Iím lonesome And I donít feel right when youíre gone away ĎCause Iím broken when Iím open And I donít feel like I am strong enough ĎCause Iím broken when Iím lonesome And I donít feel light when youíre gone away

*WHEN YOUR GONE BY: 3 DOORS DOWN*

There's another world inside of me that you may never see. There's secrets in this life that I can't hide. Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find. Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me Wants to be the one you wanted me to be. I'll never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there, So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin. I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends. Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone. Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me. Wants to be the one you wanted me to be, Ill never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there, So love me when I'm gone. (Maybe I'm just blind) So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. Everything I am and everything in me, Wants to be the one you wanted me to be. I'll never let you down even if I could. I'd give up everything if only for your good. So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong. You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there. So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.

*SOMEWHERE OUT THERE BY: OUR LADY PEACE*

Last time I talked to you You were lonely and out of place You were looking down on me Lost out in space We laid underneath the stars Strung out and feeling brave I watched the red orange glow I watched you float away Down here in the atmosphere Garbage and city lights You've gone to save your tired soul You've gone to save our lives I turned on the radio To find you on satellite I'm waiting for the sky to fall I'm waiting for a sign And all we are Is all so far You're falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there Hope you remember me When you're home sick and need a change I miss your purple hair I miss the way you taste I know you'll come back some day On a bed of nails I wait I'm praying that you don't burn out or fade away And all we are Is all so far You're falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there You're falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there You're falling back to me The star that I can see I know your out there, ohhh Your falling out of reach Defying gravity I know you're out there, somewhere out there Your falling back to me The star that I can see yeah I know your out there, somewhere out there Your falling out of reach Defying gravity yeah I know you're out there, somewhere out there You're falling back to me I know, I know You're falling out of reach ohhhhhh I know...

*I MISS YOU BY: INCUBUS*

To see you, when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream. You do something to me that I can't explain. So would I be out of line if I said, I miss you.(?) I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wastin away. I know I'll see you again whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

*SUMMER ROMANCE (Anti-Gravity Love Song) BY: INCUBUS*

I'm home alone tonight. Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight. I think I was dreaming up some thought that were seemingly possible...with you. So I call you on the tin can phone. We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone. I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free. When we get there, we're gonna go so far away. Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity. For years, I kept it to myself. Now potentialities are abound, and sleeping under my shelf. Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy, and we'll be there. So I call you on the tin can phone. We rendezvous at quarter-two, and make sure alone. I may have found the way for you and I to finally be free.

*DRIVE BY: INCUBUS*

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear. And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal. But lately I am beginning to find out that I should be the one behind the wheel. Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive? It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around. But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found. So whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. Yeh. Would you kill the Queen to crush the hive? Would you choose water over wine.... hold the wheel and drive?

*THERE IS BY: BOXCAR RACER*

This vacation's useless These white pills are kind I've given alot of thought On this 13 hour drive I missed the grinded concrete Where we sat past eight or nine And slowly finished lapping In the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to The nights we used to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing On your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you but you swear you loved me more Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is... Those notes you wrote me I've kept them all I've given a lot of thought Of how to write you back this fall With every single letter In every single word There will be a hidden message About a boy that loves a girl Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is... Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight Will you think of me Will I shake this off Pretend its all okay That there's someone out there Who feels just like me There is...

*I'D DO ANYTHING BY:SIMPLE PLAN*

Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I'm here waiting And I wrote this letter in my head 'Cuz so many things were left unsaid but now you're gone And I can't think straight This could be the one last chance To make you understand I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Somehow I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you Together we broke all the rules Dreaming of droping out of school And leave this place to never come back So now maybe after all these years If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again I close my eyes And all I see is you I close my eyes I try to sleep I can't forget you nanana (...) And I'd do anything for you I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything There's nothing I won't do I'd do anything To fall asleep with you I'd do anything 'Cuz I know I won't forget you

2 steps behind def lepard losing grip avril lavigne

*LAMB BY:NICK*

Take his hand little lamb, Let him show you his plan, Take his hand until you fall, Then heíll disregard your call. Take his hand little lamb, Failed is his life plan, Trust in you and youíll find in you, Open your eyes and see something new. Take his hand little lamb, The Promised Land, youíve been banned, Let him grant you one last wish, So you stay away from the wolfís dish. Little lamb ignorance overcomes you, Donít worry, he see right through you, Heíll morph you into his pawn, Never again to see the light of dawn.

*MOTHER DARKNESS BY:NICK*

Mother Darkness, Throw your dark cloak around me. Protect me from the sound, The sound of progress, The sound of technology. I sit infront of this flashing box, Zombified, acknowledging the flashes and nothing else, I soak in their ideologies drip by drip, Can you hear my mother? I donít blame you, I blame them and their problems, Their problems forced on me, I know I can fix their problems. Send money too. Four easy payments. 24-hour famine. Iím starving mother, Starving for affection, I crave your smile. But I donít blame you, Put blame on the box. Entrapped by itís chains. Lose the chains. Lose your mind.

*SLEEP BY:NICK*

Clouds forming in my head Reality far away when I close my eyes. Why are you so far away? Demons dreaming Breathing, Breathing Should I fall to sleep? An animal that hungers for pray to eat Still you deny it. The lamb unaware Breathing, Breathing Dare I try and eat? Count your wealth, the money for them to keep. Careful for what you wish Castle crumbling, Falling, Falling Is this land for you to keep? When the road ahead is to steep? What do you battle for? Innocents dyeing. Falling, Falling

*YOU LIE BY:NICK*

Cut myself, to see if I still feel Cut myself to see if I still bleed Something pours from the wound, but not blood. No, this substance flows pure and itís no longer a fluid. Voices pour from the gap, the lies you tell Iíve cleansed my body of you. Because I can no longer stand you Because I can no longer trust you I was addicted to your lies Lies hidden behind money Lies hidden behind your democracy Iíve learned to be my own person. My own country

*GROWN UP PUNK BY:NICK*

So weíre all grown up, weíre heading off to school. And when we look back, we really werenít that cool. Oi, oi ,oi But weíre still here, drinkin?lotís of beer And when itís all said and done. You know we had lotís of fun. Your replacing your short skirt Your takin off that tourn shirt Your on to new things, Your college bound. Childhood lost, Maturity Found. Oi, Oi ,Oi But weíre still here, drinkin?lotís of beer And when itís all said and done. You know we had lotís of fun. Youíre replacing your short skirt Youíre takin off that torn shirt So now weíre all grown up. You found a job. But donít for get where your from. Yeah yeah Cause weíre still here drinkin lotís of beer. And when itís all said and done. You know we had lotís of fun. Yah you know we had lotís of fun. Yeah it was lots of fun

*PAIN BY:NICK*

Can you feel the pain i feel? Can you tell all of it is real? You'll never see the hate I have for you. I don't show it. I were it under my skin. Forced to commit sin. Striped of all life. My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you. Thrown into you. My hated enemy. How i crave you. In the darkness I am born. Lives left shattered and torn. What do I see? You standing before me. My long ago conquered past. catching up to me fast. remembering burried memories. My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you Thrown into you My mortal enemy. How I crave you. You destroy me, so i destroy you. But threw you i am born again. A cycle that will never end. So in the darkness i wait. I don't care how much time it takes. I wait here, to hurt you. I hold this blade to cut you. I hurt you, I hurt myself. But i can hold this blade to cut myself. old this pain. I were it underneath. I don't show it My Internal torment over whelming. Over whelming Chaos ever binding. Binding, slowly dieing. Damned into you. Thrown into you. Forever enemy. I love you.

*Amanda's Confused Thoughts 2004*

This whole situation has gotten out of sync it's not normal it's not the same it's somewhat comforting but not really it's like there's a shield up too much of the past has made this all screwy, unsure exactly how I feel too hurt to just not speak my mind sometimes all I know for sure was my heart is missing pieces and they are unreplaceable maybe this will fit again comfortably I think you left me at my worst I forgive and sometimes everything you have ever dreamed of having isn't exactly what you want in the end if I wanted you back I would have asked you out but it's not my place I refuse to let you use me just letting you know maybe giving up hitting on me might make this work I know you are a male but come on now if I will never be important to you why would I not only give you a friendship that is not well deserved and my soul that you should never have in your grasp again I love to flirt with you but how many times are you going to walk on me till you lose me trust me this time it will happen make up your mind i'm vulnerable because of my heart but i'm not stupid deep down this may never heal itself quit bein selfish a friend makes things fair what is it that we exactly want i'm tired of these games i'm only alive for so long when is good bye goodbye and not hello let me heal its been almost too long to look back now

Adam C~

Dre V~

E~

Aaron P~

**Most of the time if you geniuinely care about someone you stick it out thru good and bad and try to fix whatever the problem may be. Goes to show that some people are rather selfish, can't handle things maturily and just give up to soon. Sometimes you really think you know someone when in reality you don't know them at all. When your walls are down your vulnerable, you sometimes give in to show how much you really do care. It's hard when you trust someone, and really want to do all the right things. Maybe I pushed to save something I was scared of losing, I guess that's what happens when you have pushed it away for so long. I guess in the end after all the chain of events it goes to show you just exactly how much you care and what someone really means to you after all you say and do. At least I tried and that's all I could ever do. Don't know what went wrong, I won't dwell on all that happened. You meant the world to me when you let me in, you should have waited instead of laying a guilt trip on me but I caved to prove you meant that much. I'm going to be an adult about this, things can always change if you allow them too. Sorry I fell for a fantasy, opened my heart and told you things I've never shared with another. I'll never meet anyone like you and I now realise how hard it was for me to just be my normal self and talk to you and look at you the way I really wanted. I forgive you and don't blame either of us for anything from the beginning to the end. To bad our friendship couldn't be worked on I know I'd try my hardest and really just be who I truly am. May God take care of you and Life gives you all it can offer. Just be happy and maybe one day you may give me a call my number won't change. I just have to let you know I'd always have a space for you in my life, I don't break my promises, and right now things aren't meant to be. One day they might be, but you really can't be scared and you gotta put in as much as you want back. For now I'll leave it as is. Remember you can hate me for life cuz ima love you to death, there is a spot in my heart I won't forget, I'll miss ya but really it's always been your choice, you hold the cards now. Take care and thanks for the time and few moments I got to spend with you. Everything I've ever said, will always remain true at any time. Things happen for a reason and time will always tell. You know I had to be honest and just let you know. GoodBye Mista AMP**

Mad Raps from Aaron (amplified)- U give me faith in decent guys and keep sleepless nights not so bad on MSN or the Phone Ur an amazin Story teller and hopefully my very patient one and only perfect happy fightin drunk irish hooligan though I haven't told u thank u for caring so much God made us met for a reason sorry i am bein so stubborn no matter what i can't forget u "it was a nasty nasty night" hate you Aar 2 da power of AMP (No worries, it's all good, what's done is done, now time will tell all, have some patience and no regrets. Be honest, open, and go with your first instinct, Heart knows all.) Fav Quote:" U can hate me for life cuz Ima love u to death"

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