bornajinx: hi, how are you?
LzyBrunette: hi
LzyBrunette: i'm itchy
bornajinx: haha, ok...why?
LzyBrunette: i dunno i put on some old pants
LzyBrunette: i didn't know i still fit in them
bornajinx: oh, itchy pants
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: but i think i just need a bath
LzyBrunette: but i don't have enough energy to shower
LzyBrunette: i'm pulling a benji
bornajinx: oh. haha
bornajinx: I get like that too, sometimes
LzyBrunette: i can do stuff tomorrow
LzyBrunette: i'm off
LzyBrunette: i'm planning on shower and laundry and slls
bornajinx: I think my sister just became a member of your board
LzyBrunette: is she that new person?
LzyBrunette: uh...can't remember the sn
bornajinx: um, I don't think she posted yet...she's kdcfallenangel
LzyBrunette: kdcfallenangel
LzyBrunette: yeah
bornajinx: I just figured that out today cuz yesterday she emailed me with that sn and was like "do you like my email address?"
bornajinx: I emailed her back and asked her to post stuff...she was out with friends tonight--or she is out...
LzyBrunette: wait what was the first part
LzyBrunette: i got lost
LzyBrunette: she emailed you her sn?
bornajinx: she had a new email address and in the email she asked if I liked it
LzyBrunette: oh
LzyBrunette: ok
bornajinx: It stands for Kurt Donald Cobain (the kdc)
LzyBrunette: ooooooooooooooo
LzyBrunette: i figured it was somebody's intials...somebody being whoever's sn that was
bornajinx: she only really has email access at work, though
bornajinx: I hope she posts, I'll be like "that's my sister"
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: my sister's never post
bornajinx: aw, they do sometimes
LzyBrunette: i think the last time was like feb
bornajinx: oh man
LzyBrunette: it's cool
LzyBrunette: i started writing a prologue for the sequel
bornajinx: ooh, very cool
LzyBrunette: i got inspired on the trolley
LzyBrunette: it's in the form a newpaper article
bornajinx: that's really great
LzyBrunette: i'll give you the headline...
bornajinx: ok
bornajinx: yay
LzyBrunette: "Local heroes get help from local legends"
bornajinx: oh wow, that sounds good. At least I know one or more members of GC, or maybe Jessa--if she's the hollywood bigshot yet--did something cool
LzyBrunette: you'll see
bornajinx: I know
LzyBrunette: it's a cool subtle way to let you in on where their lives are at
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: so...maybe angels
LzyBrunette: so fucking sad
bornajinx: I was editing the next chapter of my story, it's kinda sad too
LzyBrunette: awwwww
LzyBrunette: she doesn't immediatly fall into bed with benji (so to speak) does she?
bornajinx: I was crying when I was typing it yesterday
bornajinx: NO, unless you call a year and a half immediately
LzyBrunette: ok good
LzyBrunette: i didn't think you'd make it that way
LzyBrunette: but i was checking
bornajinx: she doesn't even think of going out with anyone for a while
LzyBrunette: good
bornajinx: she has a few guys after her, though
LzyBrunette: that's how it should be
LzyBrunette: sick bastards
LzyBrunette: jesus
bornajinx: some, yeah. ..not while she's pregnant, though
LzyBrunette: that's not whats sick
LzyBrunette: it's that her husband's just died
LzyBrunette: don't they have any respect?
LzyBrunette: if i had had benji actually die in slls jessa would have been with chris
bornajinx: yeah, well...some guys are just random guys who never knew she was married or anything
LzyBrunette: i don't know where that came from but i just thought of that
bornajinx: wow, Jessa and Chris...
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: i can just see it
bornajinx: hmm...maybe, but it didn't happen that way
bornajinx: that's a good thing
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: no i'm thinking of all the possibilities
bornajinx: hehe
LzyBrunette: did you know once i almost made jessa sleep with joel
bornajinx: woah!
bornajinx: no, when?
LzyBrunette: well at a pivotal part actually
bornajinx: damn
LzyBrunette: the first time benji and jessa "did it"...it was almost joel
bornajinx: holy crap!
LzyBrunette: i almost had her running to joel's house
bornajinx: oh man...good thing she didn't
LzyBrunette: it would have been a different story
bornajinx: yeah, totally
LzyBrunette: then i thought of doing something in the sequel but it doesn't make sense...it's just my dirty mind making jessa a slut
bornajinx: oh, haha...don't do that
bornajinx: I actually have a problem...OK, Lesley's without a husband , and she's pregnant...pregnant women get horney, I'm guessing...
LzyBrunette: mm hmm
LzyBrunette: my momma told me
bornajinx: I don't know what to write. She's without any kind of sex for a long, long time
bornajinx: it must drive her nuts
LzyBrunette: yeah seriously
bornajinx: sure, she mourns, but a lot of the time she thinks about when she was screwing Billy...those were happy memories
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: i think jessa would have thought about that alot too
LzyBrunette: i mean she did when she was crying
LzyBrunette: thinking about his orgasm face
bornajinx: I didn't write that middle part yet, so I don't know how to deal with the no sex part
bornajinx: haha, his orgasm face, yeah
bornajinx: I was thinking of writing that one of her friends, like Joel's wife, or Chris' wife or someone tells her to buy a vibrator or something...
LzyBrunette: omg
LzyBrunette: you know what funny
LzyBrunette: ...this is embarressing...that's why i didn't write it
bornajinx: huh?
LzyBrunette: remember how benji was doing his whole "not til marriage" schtick?
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: well jessa was really horny...and joel was gonna tell benji to get jessa a vibrator and then he did
LzyBrunette: i'm so red in the face right now
bornajinx: haha, yay...yeah, I'm embarassed too
bornajinx: so, I don't know...maybe one of the girls will just buy one for Lee
LzyBrunette: hmm
LzyBrunette: maybe
bornajinx: too gross, maybe too gross
LzyBrunette: well, you don't have to be graphic about it
LzyBrunette: maybe bring it up in a funny way
bornajinx: well, Lee's not Benji...she's not gonna have a string of one nighters
bornajinx: yeah, ok...a funny way
LzyBrunette: like one of the girls says that kinda in a joking way
LzyBrunette: and then lee thinks about it
LzyBrunette: seriously
bornajinx: yeah, OK
bornajinx: haha
LzyBrunette: no benji...no one nighters
bornajinx: yeah, well...
bornajinx: see, Lee's only been with Billy. Benji's been with a lot of girls
LzyBrunette: i understand
bornajinx: only, like 2 seriously
bornajinx: yup, OK. enough of that
bornajinx: I'm way too embarassed
LzyBrunette: it's ok
LzyBrunette: dude i write pron...it's so wrong
LzyBrunette: porn*
LzyBrunette: i don't know what pron is
LzyBrunette: but i bet it's kinky
bornajinx: yeah, me too...I don't know if it's good, but hey
bornajinx: yeah, pron does sound kinky
LzyBrunette: actually it sounds fishy
bornajinx: yeah, like prawn...eww
bornajinx: I can't think about that and sex. that's gross
LzyBrunette: ewwwww
LzyBrunette: nnow i am grossed out
bornajinx: me too
LzyBrunette: i wonder if i have the "jessa/joel" naughtiness still
bornajinx: hehe
bornajinx: I liked how in Kelizk's story Remind Me of Life Ashlynn said Joel's penis was slightly bigger and thicker...
bornajinx: that was shocking to me
bornajinx: eh, at least Benji knew howto use his...
LzyBrunette: i didn't read that
bornajinx: oh, it's really good.
LzyBrunette: i know
LzyBrunette: people tell me all the time
bornajinx: ok
LzyBrunette: jess and joel didn't...do it
LzyBrunette: lemme find it
LzyBrunette: hmm
LzyBrunette: nvm
LzyBrunette: found it
LzyBrunette: doi
bornajinx: ok
LzyBrunette: wanna read it
LzyBrunette: i'm bored
bornajinx: yep
bornajinx: I'm bored too
LzyBrunette: "You're sick Joel." I laughed and hit his arm.
"Ah, come on Jess, you know you and Benji are completely dirty." He answered me with a cute little smirk.

I blushed.

"See." He grinned.
"It doesn't mean I sit around talking about sex with my brother in law. I'm not a guy."
"Sorry." He grimaced.

I set my head on his shoulder. Benji was downstairs working out the Bill with the manager, leaving me and Joel here alone. I was tired and couldn't wait for Benji to get back so I could go to bed. He hated when I was already in bed and he had to slip in.

LzyBrunette: "You know, Jess. I always thought you were really gorgeous."
"thanks Joel." I smiled. "I always thought you were cute too. Then again you and my husband really look alike. It's like you were twins or something."
"oh haha, I'm serious Jess. You're amazing."
I lifted my head and stared at him. "What are you trying to do Joel?"
"What?"
"You're coming on to me!"
"I'm not, maybe you're just getting turned on." He purred and looked into my eyes.
"Stop it Joel." I got angry. Defensive. Like he was right and I was guilty.
"Stop what Jess?" he cocked his head to the side and put his hand on mine.
"Joel! Knock it off, I'm your brother's wife!!" I stood up and away from him.

he stood up with me and pulled me by the hand towards him.

LzyBrunette: "Jessa, I'm not stupid."
"Yes, you are you're acting stupid. Very stupid. I'm married you're married."
"We haven't done anything…"
"and we're not going to."

He sighed. And rubbed his hands down my shoulders. he closed his eyes and shook his head. Joel stepped back from me.

"I'm sorry." He murmured. "with Alex and…you know Jess. I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that. I…"
"it's okay." I comforted him. "Maybe you should get some sleep."

He nodded, but just stood there with his eyes closed. I moved closer to him and rested my hand on his forearm.

LzyBrunette: "Joel." I whispered.
"what?" he popped his eyes open. We stared into each other's eyes a second and finally our lips met.

Joel had always been a wonderful kisser. His lips were soft and moist. We pulled away from each other very aware of the inappropriateness of our actions. Looking over each other with questioning eyes.

"I'm gonna go to bed." Joel said awkwardly, rushing himself out of the room.

bornajinx: oh cool
LzyBrunette: what was wrong with me? I didn't even know why I did that. There was no reason to. I didn't want Joel. I was in love with my husband. With Benji. Joel was my brother-in-law, my friend. What in God's name made us do that? How could we? How dare we.

I slumped onto the bed and shook my head. I felt terrible. how could I do something like that? What if it had been more? It could've easily been more. I couldn't sleep with Joel. That would be so wrong. I felt like the worst person in the world.

Benji came in the room and I jumped.

"Hey." He smiled, but that faded into a frown. "what's wrong?"
"wrong? Nothing." I answered quickly, knowing Benji would see right through my lies.
"Jess? Are you okay?"

LzyBrunette: I nodded.

"I'm tired."

bornajinx: damn
bornajinx: something's going on with Joel and alex, huh?
LzyBrunette: she was in the hospital
bornajinx: oh!
bornajinx: ok then
bornajinx: I'm glad they didn't do anything
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: well that's not going in
bornajinx: good
LzyBrunette: hehe
LzyBrunette: ;-)
bornajinx: O:-)
bornajinx: Lesley's a saint...she even feels guilty for having a dream about kissing Benji
LzyBrunette: ooo
bornajinx: She was like, 6 months pregnant and she had a dreamshe was really tight with Benji and he pulled her in and really kissed her. She woke up right away
LzyBrunette: ooo
LzyBrunette: neat
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: i like dreams
LzyBrunette: i just read that scene i showed you...i haven't read it in a while
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: i can't use that
bornajinx: Lee has a dream about Matt too
LzyBrunette: it's terrible
LzyBrunette: hehe
LzyBrunette: you have just been hit in the face with splooge pass it back if you want good sex
LzyBrunette: sorry my sister gave me that
LzyBrunette: i felt obligated
bornajinx: yeah...how can anyone cheat on Benji?!
bornajinx: oh ok
LzyBrunette: it's terrible cause she kissed him
LzyBrunette: blah
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: i really liked this
"Stop it Joel." I got angry. Defensive. Like he was right and I was guilty.
bornajinx: hehe...maybe Joel can be seductive...*shrugs*
bornajinx: haha, I just remembered something...related to when you asked me if Benji and Lee fell into bed right away...
LzyBrunette: hmm
LzyBrunette: what?
bornajinx: BENJI is the one who isn't sure and ends up backing off from sex THREE times before Lee gets really frustrated and hurt
LzyBrunette: ooo
bornajinx: yeah, I just thought it was weird
LzyBrunette: is it wrong that everyone else's story leads me back to my own
bornajinx: no, i don't think so
LzyBrunette: you talka bout yours and it reminds me of something else
LzyBrunette: i feel like such a big head
bornajinx: eh
LzyBrunette: like now i'm thinking about the afterwards of benj and jess's first time
bornajinx: yeah, so they really pretended like it didn't happen?
LzyBrunette: i'm kinda writing the morning after
bornajinx: oh
LzyBrunette: I could see the fire red light on the other side of my eyelids. I squirmed in bed and realized I was naked, and that I could feel a draft on my nipple making it stiff. As I pulled the covers up to cover my breast I felt the warmth of Benji's skin. I popped my eyes open and smiled at the sleeping male next to me.

It'd been a long time since I woke up with a man, especially after a night of hot amazing sex. I quickly decided the best way to wake Benji up would be a nice spanking. I ran my hand down his body and I spanked him when I found round cheeks. He stirred and grumbled. I laid against him, my breasts pressed against his back and I laid my head on my folded arms, waiting for him to roll over and smile at me.

LzyBrunette: He didn't get up right away so I drummed my fingers over his shoulder blades and on his tattooed arms. I kissed his back.

"Ben-ji." I coaxed him from sleep. "Wake up big boy."

He groaned again and I reached my arm under him, finding his nipples and pinching.

"Ow, Jess!" he lifted his head, turning so we came face to face.
I grinned as sexy as possible. "morning, Benj."

"Get off Jess" he complained lifted his body up.

LzyBrunette: I rolled off him and lied almost under him. he looked down at my naked breasts and tossed a pillow over me. he sat up, carefully concealing his naked body behind the comforter. He mussed his hair, shook the sleep from his head, and blinked his eyes a few times to adjust to the light.

"What time is it?" he wanted to know.
"Does it matter?" I asked playfully, moving the pillow and going for his jugular. I feathered his neck with kisses and licks.
"Stop, Jess." He pulled me away. "Put some clothes on, don't you have work?"
"you know as well as me I don't gotta be there til 12. It's early, Benj." I didn't get it. didn't he like this?

LzyBrunette: "I'm sure you have errands to run or something."
"Benji?" I asked shocked as he pulled himself out of bed, wrapping a sheet around his waist. "Benj, what's the matter?"
"What? N-nothing. I don't wanna keep you."
"You're not. Benji last night was…"
"Hey, I'm starving." He cut me off.
"Benji!?!"
"Yeah, let's go get some breakfast."

bornajinx: what the hell?
bornajinx: bastard. What was his problem?
LzyBrunette: he's scared
LzyBrunette: dumbass
bornajinx: sheesh
LzyBrunette: it's no onder she's mad at him
bornajinx: does jessa just leave?
bornajinx: right then, I mean
LzyBrunette: i haven't figured it out
LzyBrunette: maybe
LzyBrunette: that'd be good
bornajinx: sheesh. Benj doesn't act like that in mine
LzyBrunette: well it's in an embarressed awkward way..not a mean way
LzyBrunette: but it hurts jess
bornajinx: yeah.
LzyBrunette: every single time she brings it up again he immediatly changes the subject
LzyBrunette: so she just gives up
bornajinx: I would too
LzyBrunette: i'm also writing their first "date" that wasn't really a date
bornajinx: ah, OK
LzyBrunette: i dunno i'm playing around with some stuff
LzyBrunette: cause i'm doing a rewrite
LzyBrunette: Slls the Directors Cut
bornajinx: yeah, I know!
bornajinx: woo hoo!
LzyBrunette: benji was so cute...with his crush
LzyBrunette: there's gonna be some benji pov in the first episode
bornajinx: ooh, yay, that should be cool
LzyBrunette: like after he dropped her off...
bornajinx: cool
LzyBrunette: I should call her. I could call her. I mean I wouldn't look desperate would I? I look like a nice guy who's interested. It's not a lie. I'm a nice guy. I'm interested.
bornajinx: hehe
bornajinx: I like Benji nervous
LzyBrunette: then he depresses himself and eats a bunch of fast food
bornajinx: oh man...
LzyBrunette: I circled her building one last time and tossed my phone into the passengers seat. I began to drive home and noticed the all night burger place. Yeah, I could eat. I pulled through the drive thru and before I knew it I was pulling out with a large strawberry shake, double order of fries, onion rings, and some cheese sticks. I was a pig, especially if I was kinda depressed.

I went home fully saturated with oily greasy fatty food.
bornajinx: ew, I hate the feeling of eating that much crap...I get queasy.
LzyBrunette: I tossed my phone on the bed, resisting the urge to bring up the phone book and stare at the entry 'Jessa'. I was such a teenager when it came to girls. Should I call, should I wait.
bornajinx: jeez. he does wait...stupid
LzyBrunette: i know
LzyBrunette: but it's so cute
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: he so...sad and adorable
bornajinx: haha
LzyBrunette: Maybe she gave the wrong number. that would just suck. I mean, I'm older than her and I'm probably intimidating. A single 27-year-old man is always single for a reason.
bornajinx: haha, that's what I think...A single 27-year-old man is always single for a reason.
LzyBrunette: joel calls about the whipped cream incident
bornajinx: haha! oh man!
LzyBrunette: i'm feeling giving...
LzyBrunette: "hello?"
"Benji, what the FUCK man?" it was Joel.
"What?"
"I'm covered in whipped cream!"

I laughed. I almost forgot.

LzyBrunette: "oh yeah."
"oh shit dude I'm sorry." Joel said suddenly. "are you naked?"
"I am…" I answered thinking it was quite strange having twin intuition. "cause I took a shower."
"oh I thought you were with that chick…what happened to J-J-Jessa?"
"I took her home, we exchanged numb-" I realized I didn't give her mine and she didn't ask…oh fuck.
"Are you going out with her then?"
"I dunno." I sighed.
"What do you mean you don't know? you liked her right? I mean you did sit with her all night!"
"yeah."
"well she was hot and she liked you. go out, have fun, you have my blessing"
"I dunno."
"Quit being a pussy Benj, if you like her take her out." he explained.
"She's a really nice girl…"
"Aww, dude, did you jack-off to her already?" Joel laughed.
LzyBrunette: Jesus, am I that obvious.

"Oh Jess, ohhhh." Joel mimicked. "'oh Benji, you're so big' 'say my name, baby'."
"Shut up, Joel."
"Jeez, I'm just joking."
"Well, it's not that funny."

bornajinx: haha!! He jacke off to her, in the shower, right?
bornajinx: I forgot the d
LzyBrunette: yes he did
LzyBrunette: did i show you that already
bornajinx: I can just picture that...Benji in the shower
bornajinx: no
LzyBrunette: I sighed again as I kicked off my shoes and stripped off my t-shirt. I unbuckled my belt and shimmied out of my pants too. I walked into the bathroom and turned the knobs on the shower. The steam began to fill the room. I slipped my boxers down my legs and gave myself a once over in the mirror. Nasty, I was nasty. I was full of ugly little scars or moles and fat. I'd been fat since I was a kid on and off, but I never got used to it, I never liked it.

The best part of me was my tattoos. My thousands of dollars worth of art. My tats. The reasons I got attention. The reasons I got sneered or stared at. My insurance against working a normal job ever again. The turn on for most of the girls I've slept with, dated, or kissed. I wonder what Jessa thought of them.

LzyBrunette: I stepped into the shower and rolled my head back letting the hot water soak my hair and wash over my back. I shut my eyes and thought about Jessa some more. She laughed at all my stupid jokes, in a genuine way, she really thought I was funny. Her boobs jiggled when she laughed.

Before I knew it my hand had found it's way to my dick and I nuzzled the tip of it. I eagerly stroked it as the hard hot water rained down my back. I backed into the tiled wall and planted my feet on the floor against the non slip applicates. I moved harder, faster, imagining Jessa was here with me, that I didn't have to do this all alone. My knees were giving way, I was gonna fall but I only had to pump it 2 or 3 more times.

LzyBrunette: 2 and half and I came all over my hand and my legs, moaning. Lucky me in the shower. I steadied myself and washed away my wasted seed. I did a once over with the soap and got out of the shower. I felt so dirty. I always had after I did…that.

The phone rang and I jumped. It was one of 3 people. Joel, Jessa (I'll hold my breath), or God, calling to say I was going to hell. I wrapped a towel around my middle, realizing that yes I lived alone and had the freedom to walk around nude, but if I didn't want to see me naked who said I had to be.

bornajinx: hehe
bornajinx: yay
LzyBrunette: such a man
LzyBrunette: i was thinking jessa did the same thing...haha
bornajinx: that's exactly what I want...my brother calling after I masturbate
bornajinx: yay, double yay
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: i liked..."Oh Jess, ohhhh." Joel mimicked. "'oh Benji, you're so big' 'say my name, baby'."
bornajinx: woo hoo
bornajinx: still...who's bigger...Benji or Joel?
LzyBrunette: i dunno
LzyBrunette: i think it's benji...
LzyBrunette: or joel
LzyBrunette: ha
bornajinx: damn...
LzyBrunette: no i really..i think benj
bornajinx: i can't say in my story, it's too weird
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: yeah
bornajinx: is the dead husband or his best friend that you're currently dating bigger? hmm, nope, doesn't work
LzyBrunette: yeah i know
bornajinx: they do look different...
LzyBrunette: benji and joel and billy and benji?
bornajinx: huh? I mean in my story, Billy's not circumcized (for some reason) and Benji is.
LzyBrunette: oh
LzyBrunette: the middle and should be and "or"
LzyBrunette: an*
bornajinx: oh ok
LzyBrunette: oo i forgot this part...i really like the 1st para
I can't call her. it's late she probably went to her apartment and went to bed. She's probably not thinking about the loser rock star dude who's creepy stalking around the corner from her house. Someone's gonna call the cops if they see my car circle again.

God, I just wish I hadn't let the moment go in the car. I should have kissed her, or said something. I got her number, but I can't use it. maybe everything I thought I was feeling was just me wishful thinking.

bornajinx: so, in that way, the two B's feel and look a little different to Lee.
bornajinx: Poor Benji and his thinking. he should stop
LzyBrunette: like i said...sad and adorable
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: he doesn't know that exactly what jessa likes about him
LzyBrunette: that's*
bornajinx: damn
LzyBrunette: and yeah to what you said to the two looks and feels
bornajinx: hehe
LzyBrunette: i never thought about circumcision
bornajinx: I don't know, but I'm thinking most guys our age are circumcized
LzyBrunette: pretty much, i guess
LzyBrunette: but i mean in my story i didn't think about it
bornajinx: my sister thinks it'd be weird and scary to see an uncircumcized dick
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: actually i think that's the way i imagine benji
LzyBrunette: but i imagine joel clean, so to speak
LzyBrunette: i'm weird
bornajinx: cool. the heads are more sensitive
bornajinx: on uncut dicks
LzyBrunette: hmm wow...ok
bornajinx: se, I'd think both twins would be the same. I don't know
LzyBrunette: well yeah, that's why i said i'm weird
LzyBrunette: but then i have trouble thinking about joel in sexual situations
bornajinx: ah, ok...well, in my story, it's like father like son...Billy, Mark, Gabe...
LzyBrunette: gabe?
bornajinx: oops
bornajinx: shit
LzyBrunette: gabe is lucy's son in awful truth
LzyBrunette: oh no
LzyBrunette: i started writing the sequel
LzyBrunette: this sucks
bornajinx: really?oops. i didn't realize/know
LzyBrunette: you couldn't have none
LzyBrunette: known*
LzyBrunette: but this sucks
LzyBrunette: i'm all excited..cause i started a sequel
bornajinx: I made the baby a boy named Gaberiel William Martin to remember his dad. Gabriel for the archangel and William...because Billy was also an angel
LzyBrunette: damn you have better reasons too
LzyBrunette: damnit
bornajinx: I could name him Luke
LzyBrunette: it's ok
LzyBrunette: are you spelling it 'Gaberiel'?
LzyBrunette: nvm
LzyBrunette: i'm a dummy
bornajinx: I like it that way, yeah.
LzyBrunette: oh
LzyBrunette: really
bornajinx: yeah.
LzyBrunette: i like Gabriel
bornajinx: I didn't know anyone else liked that name
LzyBrunette: i love it
bornajinx: cool
LzyBrunette: this is the second name i have to change
LzyBrunette: i had to change one of benj and jessa's sons in the sequel
bornajinx: oh
LzyBrunette: his name was jack...but joel's son is Zack
LzyBrunette: and they're almost the same age
LzyBrunette: i thought that it was too weird
LzyBrunette: but it's hard to let go of jack
bornajinx: oh, yeah...maybe confusing
LzyBrunette: i really really like jack
LzyBrunette: i changed it to Noah
bornajinx: you could use it. Joel and Benji are twins, maybe they want rhyme-y names
bornajinx: Noah's really good
LzyBrunette: i was really atached to that identity...it's hard to get a handle on the kid as noah...but i'm trying
LzyBrunette: cause i can't change zack
LzyBrunette: zacks way too cute
bornajinx: oh, yeah it is
LzyBrunette: it's Zachariah Joel
bornajinx: that's nice
LzyBrunette: and it was Jack Thomas..now it's Noah Thomas, i guess
bornajinx: NoahThomas sounds good
LzyBrunette: benji calls him "no" alot
bornajinx: haha
LzyBrunette: and kiddo
bornajinx: how bout this,sounds retarded, huh? Mark Martin
LzyBrunette: benji and jessa also refer to the kids as "the kiddos"
LzyBrunette: no
bornajinx: oh, that's cute
bornajinx: I hit myself in the head when I noticed it was Mark Martin
LzyBrunette: all of joel's kids are biblical
LzyBrunette: ha it's ok
bornajinx: Mar-Mar
LzyBrunette: hehe
bornajinx: sheesh
LzyBrunette: oh i didn't tell you the latest twist...
LzyBrunette: joel's youngest son, jamie...
LzyBrunette: he was premature...
LzyBrunette: he's deaf
bornajinx: oh man
bornajinx: it could be worse
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: but they don't know right away
LzyBrunette: and joel freaks out
bornajinx: yeah, it takes a while, I think
bornajinx: I bet Joel ends up loving Jamie very much, though
LzyBrunette: of course
LzyBrunette: but it's really hard for him
bornajinx: aww, I'd instantly love a boy named Jamie
LzyBrunette: the sign language
LzyBrunette: and the not being about to sing to him like the other boys
bornajinx: I'd think it's be hard because Jamie's never hear GC...or music
LzyBrunette: he has to work extra hard with james
LzyBrunette: yeah
LzyBrunette: exactly
bornajinx: oh man. So, everyone has to learn sign language, I guess
LzyBrunette: yeah...i mean at least his immediate family
LzyBrunette: joel, al, the boys
bornajinx: yeah. aw, I love Jamie
LzyBrunette: hehe
bornajinx: I'm one of Jamie's biggest fans
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: ok
bornajinx: man, I'm getting so emotional. Me and my big heart
LzyBrunette: i just realized joel's kids' roles
bornajinx: oh?
LzyBrunette: Sam is the brat, zack is the cute one, and jamie is the special one
bornajinx: aw
LzyBrunette: hmm..benji and jess's kiddo's
bornajinx: hehe...
LzyBrunette: ben, the meloncholy one; isabel, the girl; noah, the artistic/moody one; joel, the adorable chubby one
LzyBrunette: and then there's the other one...grace
bornajinx: aw
LzyBrunette: she's to-be-conceieved
bornajinx: I don't know about Lee's kids yet
LzyBrunette: joel's really really super cute
LzyBrunette: he's really chubby
bornajinx: yeah, like me when I was a kid!
bornajinx: I was always like that
LzyBrunette: he's not like cabbage patch kid chubby...cute round belly chubby
LzyBrunette: hehe
bornajinx: I was more cabbage patch kid...
LzyBrunette: hehe
LzyBrunette: I went across the room to Joel's little bed. He'd recently switched to the big boy bed, but I kinda wished he was still in the crib; he slept like a wildman. Jessa swears he gets it from me. His blanket was at his feet, one sock was missing and his pj's were crooked. Cookie (Monster that is) was nowhere visable, which was strange. He wanted Oscar too, but Jack complained that Joel was being a 'copier,' so, I got him the cookie monster instead. He WAS a cookie monster. The boy can eat. He ate a dozen cookies once in one sitting. I'm not saying I should have let him, but he did it. 3-years-old, Jessa was right he took after me.
LzyBrunette: After I took a few minutes to straighten him out and search, I found Cookie on the inside of Joel's pillowcase. How on earth did it get there? I then kneeled down just to watch him sleeping. His little potbelly rising with each little snore. It was the best feeling and sometimes it overwhelmed me, being a father. Knowing that I'd made that little boy and the other little boy on the other side of the room and the little girl on the other side of the wall and the boy in the next room. They were pieces of me and I loved it.
bornajinx: oh man, that was so great!
bornajinx: sleeps like a wildman...I like how cookie was inside the pillow case
bornajinx: don't sleep in the same bed as that kid
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: i like this
"Okay daddy." Joel stood up on his chubby legs and grinned. He was so cute. All my kids were cute. Way cuter than Joel's boys.
LzyBrunette: it's so benji
bornajinx: way cuter than Joel's boys, haha
LzyBrunette: benji's so cute
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: i love writing this stuff
LzyBrunette: all the kids are great
bornajinx: yeah, kids are so cool
LzyBrunette: joel spoils the hell out of isabel...cause he doesn't have any daughters
bornajinx: yeah
LzyBrunette: he gave her a polaroid camera
LzyBrunette: and a goldfish
LzyBrunette: named Snickerdoodle
bornajinx: man...Benji has 5 kids all together, don't the rest get jealous?
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: no
LzyBrunette: they make fun of benji
LzyBrunette: "benji's circus"
bornajinx: that's good, funny
LzyBrunette: "the punk partriges"
LzyBrunette: "benji and jessa are rabbits"
bornajinx: crap, I don't know how many kids Benjishould have...in my story
LzyBrunette: hmm
LzyBrunette: he has some?
bornajinx: no, he will have 1, I think
LzyBrunette: even ben get's mad about having so many sibs
bornajinx: one's good...yeah
LzyBrunette: yeah
bornajinx: ha, I do too, sometimes
bornajinx: I mean, I've got 6 sisters
LzyBrunette: i have it in my notebook somewhere when he's talking to benji after he tells him that jessa's pregnant
LzyBrunette: and ben says something like "Don't you guys know what condoms are?"
bornajinx: don't they ever use protection?
bornajinx: exactly, I'm with Ben
LzyBrunette: and then benji gets mad and ben says "The kids at school all think i'm a freak because i've got so many brothers and sisters"
bornajinx: oh man
LzyBrunette: ben's only 12 but he acts all...big and bad and moody like a teenager
bornajinx: seriously, though. Do they ever use protection, or do they just fuck 7 times a week and up the chances to get pregnant
bornajinx: even with protection
LzyBrunette: haha
LzyBrunette: jessa brings it up too
bornajinx: hehe...so Benji's the type that doesn't like condoms
LzyBrunette: ...wow how'd you knwo that...
LzyBrunette: i haven't written it yet
bornajinx: I just freaking guessed
LzyBrunette: but jessa starts worrying about having more kids
bornajinx: I seriously have to stop with the weird psychic thing
bornajinx: yeah, I'd be a little worried too
LzyBrunette: and she says something like "you think maybe we should start using some kind of birth control benj"
LzyBrunette: and he's like "i thought you didn't like the pill"
LzyBrunette: "Well there's condoms, benj"
bornajinx: bastard
LzyBrunette: "i don't like them"
LzyBrunette: "BENJI!"
bornajinx: vasectomy!
LzyBrunette: "What it's no big deal"
LzyBrunette: "No big deal we have FOUR kids
LzyBrunette: haha
bornajinx: haha, he'll choose condoms over that!
LzyBrunette: yeah then a week later benji finds jessa in hysterics cause she's knocked up AGAIN
bornajinx: damn
LzyBrunette: but tht's their last
LzyBrunette: noah and joel were right after each other
LzyBrunette: they're 14 months apart
bornajinx: ok, why? do they discover birth control, or stophaving sex?
LzyBrunette: haha
bornajinx: 14 months! damn
LzyBrunette: i dunno it's just the last one
bornajinx: cool
LzyBrunette: they're more careful
LzyBrunette: jessa didn't know she was pregant with joel
bornajinx: oh
LzyBrunette: her cycle hadn't really gotten back to normal and she was still breast feeding noah
bornajinx: oh oh!
LzyBrunette: but she started feeling sick and really tired and stuff
bornajinx: man, God really wanted them to have Joel
LzyBrunette: so she went to the doctor and he's like "well you're pregnant" and she was shocked
bornajinx: damn
LzyBrunette: "no but my baby's 6 months old...i can't be...pregnant"
bornajinx: yeah, that's what I'd say
LzyBrunette: yeah and benji was on tour again when she found out
LzyBrunette: so she had to call him and shock him
bornajinx: oh jeez
bornajinx: it's 3 AM here, holy crap. I have to go to bed!
LzyBrunette: i was just gonna say that
LzyBrunette: i got so sidetracked
LzyBrunette: i didn't write any slls
LzyBrunette: damn it
bornajinx: oh sorry
bornajinx: well, goodnight
LzyBrunette: night
LzyBrunette: i should sleep too
bornajinx: yeah, talk to you later
LzyBrunette: night
bornajinx: bye
LzyBrunette: byebye
bornajinx signed off at 12:09:49 am.