Myself

Hmm~~ a little about Erin~ ne? Lemme see. Most of the time I'm laid-back and easy going. I'm friendly enough [most of the time] and easy to approach [except I may be caught off-guard and seem weird, etc.]. If I seem excessively childish/silly at times, chances are I'm hiding something.. which is probably passive-dependence or envy/hurt/anger.

I can be outgoing when I want to be.. I usually don't make friends with people that I think are unintelligent.. yes, Erin values intelligence. Highly. If you shower me with too much attention every time we meet chances are I'll be doing my best to avoid you soon. I HATE having to be the one who initiates conversation all the time [on and offline]. In person, I'm really sensitive to non-verbal communication. So.. I'll probably know whether or not you wanna talk to me. But online, I can't, see.. so be assuring and IM me the other half the time, mkay?

For those of you who have been wondering, yes. I am.. "open". Also known as bisexual, but not blatantly so. Obviously I don't openly flirt with girls and such and make a scene unless I know they're also .."open"; that is, not some trendy bisexual who's saying that to be cool and such. I'm an affectionate person and I'll hug and kiss everyone I care about but I'm an easily made jealous so I'll feel hurt if you do the same (which I agree isn't fair). I'll also have problems with a boyfriend/girlfriend who's overly dominant and moody. PDA is fine with me, I guess, as long as you're not hanging all over me in public.. which is a little awkward. I don't like wishy-washy people... The only time I'm ok with someone telling me they love me is when they really do, usually in a friendship or during a "crisis" or something. But I don't value words much.. and I'd definitely get the message if you were affectionate or considerate. One more thing--people who wallow in self-pity over situations they can control really annoy me..

As a friend, I'm more of a listener. I'll listen to your problems and I won't tell anyone. Howeveeeer... Erin is very insecure and unsure of herself. I'm always hesitant about the things I say and do. Sometimes I'm not much of a talker and I balk at the thought of putting my complete trust in a person. So if I sound a little reluctant when giving you advice, it's not that I don't care. I just don't want to make things worse for you by saying the wrong thing. I don't like not being in control of things and I have an extremely hard time trusting people once they've betrayed it. Then again.. I'm a pretty forgiving person, unless you take that aspect of me for granted. Because I'm insecure and therefore also indecisive, I'm a bit of a push-over; it's hard for me to say 'no' to people. I usually think it's not a big deal or find some way that it could benefit me [see, I CAN be optimistic! for my own good..]. I'm pretty patient if I feel that I'm waiting for a good reason.. I take everything into consideration, but if I do decide that I'm wasting my time, I will start to get pretty damn angry. You might not know it, though, 'cos I'm passive-aggressive. I don't really directly express my anger, only in indirect, small, and annoying ways. Buuut.. eventually I will blow up. I'll feel guilty about it afterwards but it won't change what I did. If there's one thing I hate, it's repeating myself. If I have to do it over and over again for someone I usually label them as irresponsible and incapable of taking me seriously and I don't enjoy spending time with them as much anymore. So listen to me and remember my name. Bonus if you remmy my birthday.

Always, always, always say goodbye. I'll feel hurt and offended if you don't. I usually mirror the emotional content of the person I'm around (i.e., I become outgoing when around an outgoing person, withdrawn when around a shy and quiet person). I can get into many different modes of behavior, even contradictory ones, to get into the mindset of the person I'm with.

I HATE FACADES. ..and people who exhibit them. Likewise.. [they usually hate me because I see right through them]. I'm independent and hate being pestered with a question over and over. Give me a night to sleep on it and I'll probably tell you the next day. I respect individuals.. People who are not interdependent and who don't make themselves a copy of their peers.

Taking things out of context is what I find the most amusing! Also irony, dark humor, and sarcasm. Yes.. [Monty Python is my hero!]

My biggest fear in a relationship is being insignificant and impersonal.. easily forgotten. Best thing is to let me know how much you care about me and how much you appreciate me. It'll have benefits.





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