Home at last! Home at last!!
Mood:
chatty
School was pretty good today, had a good day. I was kinda bumed because next week is graduation and that means today was my last day of service learning :(
I have to go around with the my "group" and collect paper bins for recycling, this one girl named Leanne gets on my nerves, ughh I wanna kick her. She's so full of herself and so bossy.
I wish Tj would call me today...that would be like the perfect day. He has strep throat and something else...not sure what it is.
I'm sure he's holding up fine without me though :'(
I miss him so much. He's such a sweety pie, hunny bun, lol. I guess I'll go now though...turn up the heat and nap lol. Later my morbid minded pals
That's the way the cracker crumbles, hehe
Kitten
P.S. I get CJ's Braclet thing with studs on it! haha!! :-b
Almost time
Mood:
not sure
Almost time to leave for school, yuck. Thank god today is "short-day" I get out at 1:30 instead of the usual three o'clock. I wrote a new poem, when I come home I'll probably post it on here, I think it's really good. It's so cold in my house, my mom's cheap and won't turn up the heat. I logged on tj's name yesterday night and found out some intresting things. This chick named Racheal was like warning me or hinting for something it feels like. she was like "becareful, I've had guys chat/backstab me before" I told her tj wouldnt do that and she said "well the ones that hurt you never seem the type"....does that sound like jealousy or a hint? I'm not sure yet...need to get to know her more. Well I better get going, don't wanna miss my morning cig. Later dudes and chicks!
Kitten
Shitty day
Mood:
irritated
Ok...rough day.
Just everything has been pissing me off, family stuff, etc.
Tj not being here, strange enough I seem to be holding up as best I can. I miss him.
I just wonder why he never really says he misses me unless I talk to him on the phone, which is hardly ever and I tell him I miss him he says I miss you too. Other then that I don't think he wants me anymore. I'm mad at him for so many reasons but don't know if i'll be able to stay mad at him. He called me vanessa before he left, which is someone I hate more then anything. He just up and left me like that...I understand that part though it was mean not to think of the effect it would have on me. I know he partied with his cousin and god knows what the hell he did...and this racheal girl online acts pretty suspicious to me, I don't like her, i think T.j. flirts with her and maybe even other girls. I log on his name and he changed the block these people...my s/n under it and still shows up on my buddy list and e mails me. I think he was pissed I blocked vanessas and stuff. Though I don't care. I hate it when he talks to her. He makes me so mad sometimes, I dunno what I should do...it's confusing.
He looks at porn, really gross porn and it makes me feel like shit because I feel like I'm not enough for him. I better stop here though...need a shower for school 2 morrow...write later. See ya dudes and chicks
Baby Kitten! <3333
Bleh life sucks
Mood:
hug me
Dude, I'm so bored!!!! Tj went back to Nj to visit his lil borther...his aunts in the hospital. Watch him not even come back, that would be my luck. I dunno what I should do today...probably just wait around for him to call and see if he is...wow I'm pathetic, can't help it though, I'm weak now and I love him to much. I don't know what really happened to me though I used to be so outgoing and wild but sometimes I think the change is for the better, I always ended up hurt. I just wonder who I am sometimes because I feel like maybe I don't even know.
I'm talking to Johnny, he's so sad :(
It makes me sad because I still love him and everything...though I'd never tell him that because he would just say that i don't.
Tj and I were trying to have a baby :) but i dont think he can because we've been together 5 months now and I still haven't gotten pregnant...FYI we've known each other for like goin on 4 or 5 years now.
I hope he come back I LOVE HIM!!!!! punks...
Moms gonna be pizzed cause she bought me three pack of cig on thrusday and its saturday...I'm on my third pack...dude..not cool...I'll post later k?
BYE!!! ALL MY ADORING FANS!! lol j/k
Kitten
