Uhhhh
Mood:  d'oh
Been kinda a long day.


Got high, went to the mall, hung with keshia and my mom, went to a few other stores and got some movies. Been a pretty fun day but i'm so worn out lol

I got a really cool skirt, kinda a cross between a hippie and a gypsy, still need a shirt to go with it though.
But I'm a bit tired all around...not my usual self as you can tell :-p

I'm gonna go play a bit of WOW and go to bed..Lvl 45 now :-D

NIGHT!!!!


FoReSaKeN,

Kitty


PS I got a kitten his name is diablo pequeno (spanish for little devil) I just call him diablo though :-p

Been A While
Mood:  loud
Now Playing: Polly Want's A Cracker ~Nirvana~
Wow...it's been forever. I need to write in here more, maybe it'll help.

So not much has been going on really. Of course I'm still playing WOW...lvl 38 soon to be 39. Damn, I'm slow. lol.

Anyways today I went to walgreens with my mom, I GOT GUM AND IT'S CINNAMON FLAVORED!!! I think that's awesome, gets me all excitied..hehe.
I'm going back out with Johnny though I don't think he really cares either way honestly. It seems like he never wants to talk to me, which makes me depressed and not wanna talk to anyone.
I'm getting a kitten :-) I'm so hyped, my mom actually said she missed having a cat around the house SUPRISE! lol. But anyway...yeah, I'm happy 'bout that.
So basically I've been up to the same shiz, doing yard work, etc, etc.
I was gonna go hang out with my friend Annette yesterday but my friend wouldn't drive me so...I felt kinda bad about that.
Not much planned for today either really...just gonna do...well...nothing.
Well, I'm gonna go work on my poetry site.
Laterz

NiRvAnA lOvEr,

Kitten

I HATE THIS SH^T
Mood:  down
I'm so restless, got alot of shit on my mind but don't have any one to tell. I've felt like crying and want to so bad lately but I always stop myself and I don't know why. I hate not having anyone to talk to about how I feel, I exspecially don't like having no why to vent my anger and frustrations. Sometimes I feel like breaking smoething. My nerves have been shit. I hate freaking out like this, not really freaking out but just so....i'm not sure. Just don't know what i should do. maybe i should get on some medicine. or maybe....maybe i should just go away. maybe i should move.



I can't sleep.
I wish i could.


Cracking,
Jen

RoAr!!
Mood:  chillin'
Bleh I have to go to school in a lil while. I haven't slep at all because I have somniphobia, fear to sleep. It's because of nightmares of course.

BTW My sister in law had a baby girl, Maya Valora Mandy. She's so beautiful. When I held her I felt like crying because it's such a mircle, children truely are a blessing. I think that's one of my goals in life is to have kids. They are cute, I know it can be ruff and it's not all fun but having kids truely is a blessing.

Anyway not much has been going down. Been doing yard work and such, playing alot of WOW. LVL @( ALMOST 30!!! WOOHOO, GO ME! I KICK ALLIANCE BUTT!

ANyway not much else to say. Mike keeps calling me asking me to go to prom with him...annoying basterd. My moms gonna tell him off next time he calls.

I better go though, need to get socks and shoes on..later!!

An aunt again,

Kitty

BABIES!!!!
Mood:  rushed
I EAT THEM!!!!.....not really.

My sister in law is in labor...mom's gonna come pick me up soon after its born, gonna go see the new baby at the hospital :-) I'm excitied, as much as I dislike my brother. I don't know if I'll be able to control myself...I'll try.

What's up with everyone having babies all of a sudden?
My two cousins are having babies, my next door neighbors cat is having babies, my sisterin law is in labor...what the hell.

Don't excpect one from me for a long while, lol. I'm not ready for kids just yet and who the hell would want to have a kid with me. I'm crazy.

Anyway I'll post later to update.
Laterz

Eating all the new babies,

Jen

BLEH!!!
Mood:  irritated
Dude...I'm sick of having nightmares. Does anyone know if there's a phobia for sleep? Yes...it's gotten to the point where I don't like to sleep, I'm actually scared of going to sleep. I feel kinda pathetic because of it...not to mention agitated. I don't want to go to the docters so I'm praying it'll go away by itself.

Anyway..change subject. I look really nice today...did my hair and put make up on. Mom's taking me out to eat at Tumbleweed :-D I'm so hungry!!! lol

I've been playing World Of Warcraft alot lately. Took 8 hours to download the patch that came out for it, damn it sucked. But...My character is almost lvl 30!!! WOHOO! GO ME!!! My firends on there told me I'm the new pope, lol (my character is a priest). God I have so much fun on there just chatting. It's an awesome game.
Anyways...I'm painting the front door today and helping my mom put on the new screendoor. Wonder where she is...she had a docter appointment at 11:00 but it's been kinda long

I'm gonna go, Later my adoring fans!


The New Pope,

Jen

WOOHOO!!!
Mood:  party time!
Man I'm feeling good, had a bit to drink, lol.
Johnny and I talked a bit last night, god it was great. I haven't worked on my book or anything today. I helped move some of my sisters shit to her apartment.
Mom and I went to Feeders Supply to pick up stuff for the fish and some food for the mice. Then we went to big lots for some shit. Not much else happened...
Well I gtg...gonna go watch the rest of silent of the lambs, then watch manhunt or w/e its called...

Later!!!

Buzzed,

Jen

Hyped
Mood:  on fire
I worked out at the gym today. God, it feels great. So I'm in a great mood!!! WOOHOO!!
Anyways...
I need more hairspray! lol. I'm gonna go to family doller, try to get my mom to get me some new makeup also...I only have like 4$...bleh it sucks.
I'm so rich...not. I drunk a bunch of Robatussin last night, damn I slept great. No nightmares finally, well at least I don't think so. that's why I love to drink and get high now...I won't member my nightmares. it's also fun. Yes I know..sorry excuses but hey! least have one right?? right?? hello...

SUPERWOMEN!!,

Jen

Milk
Mood:  down
I need some milk for my coco puffs :(
Anyway, I hung out with Annette and Niel until about 12 in the morning last night. I had quite a bit to drink...smirnoffs tht is. I think I had a pretty good buzz, it felt nice.
Neil pissed me off last night...but lets not get into that right now. He bought me a pack of cigs cause I ran out and got a headache from not having one.
I'm going to get milk with my mom, NO I DON"T HAVE MY PERMIT YET!! GRRR!! I need my social security card which she's ordering for me...well later kids.

Tired and bummed out,

Jen

P.S I'm writing my life sotry kind of thing...it's pretty intresting, I'll post it when I'm done. LATERS ALLIGATORS!!! IN A WHILE CROCODILES!!!

ROAR!!!!
Mood:  bright
You think fish get bored?? All they do is just swim around all day...I really am curious as wheather they get bored with just swimming around or maybe they chase each other and play hide and seek or something? RED ROVER! SEND THAT YELLOW TAILED FISH OVER!!!

Ok...I get bored and am weird, we've established that. I didn't do much today except talk to a couple of friends and clean room. Helped my sister pack shit up for her apartment.
GOD! I LOVE MY HAIR!!!! hehe...it's cute.
YAY!! Tuesday I'm going to a REAL party...I'm so excitied! I called Rob but no answer...poop, I wanted to invite him. Keshia said she might not be able to go, kinda sucks but I really do so I am. Niel's gonna drive me and hang out with us, he's so cool. He's a very good person at heart and a very good friend. :)
monday my mom is making an appointment for me to go get my permit, I'm nervous.
Oh I'm so tired but so hyped. Finished that book The Broke Diarys. Everyone should try and read that, it's a damn good book!!
Umm....not much else has been going on. Got one of these bamboo kinda things to hang in my doorway except it makes a picture of black cats rising from the shadows...it's too cool.
I cut my finger by accident today..it hurt.
I'm watching a good movie...so i gtg..write later. PEACE OUT!!!

Party animal,
Jen