fuck me hate
date me rape me
use me abuse me fear me touch me with your scarred hands make
me know the bleeding skin will be seared tear me down with just your
eyes I'm gullible just so you know I trust in all your lies don't
try to be me friend don't unlock the doors that nobody has been in
push down on me make me beg like a dog humiliate me whip ,e with all
your vengeful words that sting like venom spewing the hate that
brings to attention my each and every sin make me bleed make sure I
know that's the design that means I am woman feed my need to know
who I am and what my role in life is meant to be punch me in the
face get my adrenaline starting to race break my spirit and will
within kick me when I am down make me taste my own blood and the
ground where I fall piss on me while I lay here curled in a ball
walk away make me beg and plead my hunger is satiated only by the
blood I bleed so beautiful and read make sure I am barely living and
mostly dead break me anyway you desire let me know with each step I
take I am walking further into the fire you can't make me bleed just
enough how come nobody told me that love could be so tough my
thoughts have become so clear while I am laying here drowning in my
own blood and tears just like and old tire I have seen and
experienced more than a kid should in such short years you have been
coming home so late you smell like sex and you only come to me to
get what you couldn't get on your last date this was and is fate
this time when you're gone and I am left in the dark I promise to
you that by the next time when you come back around my way you will
be happy to see that now you're free because after you left me there
alone lost in my thoughts I took that gun and pointed it into my
mouth hoping to shoot out the contents held within and then I hear
your voice begin to say you can't die this way you got to do it
right so when the cops find me tonight you will be proud to know I
heard you and left the way you wanted me to gutted like a pig my
insides spilled and turned inside out just like I felt my whole life
people can only speculate as to why but how little do they realize
there's a lot about my life they didn't know because when I had
stepped out into the light I hid the bruises and scars so nobody
could see what you made of me constant lies spilled out over your
lips trying to protect what had become left of your pride and honor
now I wonder what for what had been in it for me you made me feels
things I hadn't felt before but that doesn't matter as they put
their tags on my toe listing me as just yet another Jane doe knowing
that nobody would come and lay claim to me because I never cried out
loud so they wouldn't know that even in death I never made a sound
click there goes the morgue door out of sight out of mind forgotten
forever more but they couldn't hear the tears I could finally cry to
bad that for me to cry I had to die it was my only sanctuary in a
life that had been nothing but insanity
|ddeath will achieve ultimate
freedom from pain, fear, and depression. It is also the only way to
experience complete peace. The hell of this pointless life and
existence holds absolutely no meaning or reason to live.
No one cares!
They have proven it by how they hurt me. LOVE IS A LIE!
When you are at this point, there really was no other way out but to die.
Ignorant and/or clumsy individuals may administer the wrong dosage,
use the wrong delivery equipment or substance, and may generally
botch the job
he LD-50 is what is believed will kill 50% of people who take it
(it's only tested on rats or mice, usually).
the focus here is on being sure of dying, and 50% is damn low odds
considering the cost of failure. Thus, dosages quoted here are often
several times the LD-50 (as toxicity often does not follow a
straight line for that last 20% or so). Remember, these are dosages
for people to die with, not the maximum "safe" dose to self-medicate
"LD-50" means the amount of drug it took to kill 50% of the subject
group, usually mice or rats. Doubling the dosage does not
necessarily make it 100%. mg/kg means that for each kg that you
weigh (Americans: 1 kg = 2.2 lb) you need that dose in mg; for
example if it were 2mg/kg and you weighed 70kg you'd need 140 mg for
the LD-50. Note too that doubling that amount does not ensure death.
People vary. People take six times the lethal dose of something and
manage somehow to survive because bodies differ.
Although LD-50 is the best measure available, it does not
necessarily equate exactly to humans. Unfortunately, human data is
not available because the FDA won't let drug companies take a pool
of 1200 or so humans and feed them a drug until 600 are dead.
Toxicity Chart: 30 Toxic
Used in Suicide Attempts Key: 1000 milligrams
(mg.) = 15 grains (gr.) = 1 gram (gm.)
MLD = Minimum Lethal Dose --
IMPORTANT see qualifications of "MLD" above
1. Special adjustments for scoring are found at the
end of the chart.
2. If tablet strength is recorded, make sure the
common dosage in column four corresponds with
the strength ingested. Dosage in column four
corresponds with the strength ingested.
Mild = 0-33% of MLD;
Moderate = 34-66% of MLD;
Severe = 67%+ of MLD.
Drug Est. MLD Doses Est. MLD
# of tablets
30 gm. 5 gr.
(.33 gm.) 90/5 gr.
15, 30, 50, 100 mg.
35, 50 mg.
35, 50 mg.
15, 30, 50, 100 mg.
75, 100 mg.
30, 65 mg.
50, 100 mg.
30, 100 mg.
250, 500 mg.
10, 25, 50 mg.
200, 400 mg.
250, 500 mg.
5, 10, 25 mg.
15, 30, 100 mg.
10, 25, 50, 100,
150, 200 mg.
30, 50, 100 mg.
50, 200, 300 mg.
25, 50 mg.
100, 200, 500 mg.
30, 50, 100 mg.
10, 15, 30 mg.
1, 2, 5, 10 mg.
10, 25, 30, 50,
75, 200 mg.
10, 25, 50 mg.
50, 100, 200 mg.
2, 5, 10 mg.
15, 30, 300 mg.
Special Adjustments for Scoring:
1. When any ingestion is accompanied by ETOH
(ethyl alchohol), increases the toxicity
level by approx 50%.
2. If it is established that a person is a
regular drug user, then raise the number of
milligrams for MLD by 33%.
Potassium Cyanide (KCN)
If you've got some potassium cyanide, or know where you can get
some, then the following method may prove valuable (provided by
1. Take a small glass of cold tap water; do not use mineral water,
nor any kind of juice or soda water, due to the acidity of such
2. Stir 1g (or 1.5g, at most) of potassium cyanide (KCN) into the
water; using more than recommended will likely cause burning of the
throat due to the acidity.
3. After about five minutes—this "waiting period" is important, as a
chemical reaction needs to take place—the KCN will be dissolved and
ready to drink (because it has turned into HCN). It remains
drinkable for a period of several hours, but not much more than
4. Once the concoction is drunk, consciousness will be lost within a
minute. There will be just time to rinse out the glass (to ensure
that no one else accidentally drinks from it—however, one could just
as easily put a big "Warning" label onto the glass, or throw it into
a corner or a fireplace, if one doesn't want to take the time) and
lie down. But beware—a person extremely weakened by illness might
lose consciousness within twenty seconds.
5. While in the
coma, death will follow in fifteen to forty-five minutes, depending
on the physical strength of the person and whether the stomach is
full or empty (an empty stomach promotes faster death).
6. During the coma period, the dying person will breathe heavily or
snore, similarly to people who have taken a lethal dose of
1. asphyxiation (dangle on end of rope for 10 minutes)
Time: 5 to 10 minutes
Time: Should be instant if it does break
Time: Instantanious if you are lucky, minutes/hours otherwise
Available: You need ten stories or higher, and access to the top
floor windows/roof. Bring a bolt cutter to get onto the roof
Certainty: 90% for 6 stories, increasing after that
Slitting wrists or
other (often not effective)
Time: Minutes if major artery cut, eternity otherwise.
Available: You really need a razor sharp knife. Razors are pretty
tricky to hold when they are covered with blood.
Certainty: possible if you cut an artery, improbable otherwise
Time: Microseconds unless you are unlucky (mins/hours)
Available: Difficult in UK, easier in USA (get a shotgun)
Time: 5 mins to unconciousness, 10+ mins to brain death
Available: Anywhere there's a rope and something solid to tie it to
Time: Couple of seconds before conciousness fades
Available: Happen to have a train line nearby? Or a guillotine
Certainty: Very certain, unless you pull away just before
Available: Got a nice razor-sharp sword?
Certainty: Fairly certain, assuming that you managed to gut yourself
properly before passing out with the agony
Time: Minutes (5 mins to die of drowning, 20 to die of hypothermia)
Available: Anywhere there's deep, (cold) water in a remote spot
Certainty: Good, just make sure you sink & can't swim
Time: Seconds / minutes
Available: Anywhere with high-tension, high-current lines & a good
Certainty: Somewhat dependant on luck & how much power goes through
Time: 10 milliseconds, or similar (!)
Available: Difficult to get hold of detonator & good explosives
Certainty: Certain if detonator works properly
Freezing to death
Time: several hours (15 minutes in very cold water)
Available: Got a large chest freezer? Is the outside temp < -10
Certainty: good if you don't get found
Jumping in front of
Time: Seconds (or hours if unlucky)
Available: Anywhere near a HIGH-SPEED railway line
Certainty: Depends on your timing & speed of train. Go for
Time: Seconds to days
Available: Anywhere you can get petrol & a match
Driving into bridge
support at 100 mph
Time: Hopefully instantanious
Available: Fast car, motorway, unprotected bridge....
Certainty: So-so, put a couple of cans of petrol on the passenger
seat to make it certain, & USE YOUR SEATBELT
i never have
seen the point to life
i have been told you live you love you
die but during that time how many heartaches and lies
should you suffer before that kills you?
suicide seems to be the only logical explanation
for exscaping it all but there are those that feel otherwise
they always try to prove reasons for living
be it kids or if you love them at the same time
are humans not meant to be strong
they come in alone and they die alone...
sometimes you feel you can't do it cuz someone will find you
and try to stop why can't people leave well enough alone?
this is supposed to be a free country
then where is our freedom to choose our right
to kill ourselves people complain about overpopulation
well this would help tin out the herd
some of us are not as strong as others
be it cuz of tremendous abuse
suffered in our lives or feeling a lack of importance to others