Sorry I've been remiss in writing
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Crazy by Mercy Me
Topic: BY way of Explanation
So, if you haven't noticed I haven't been writing in a while. Classes at a four year college are a little more intense than at a two-year community college. So I've not only got a much heavier course load, professors that assign mathematical reports that take more than 10 hours and are only worth 5 points-- I've also got 3 part time jobs that coagulate into a schedule that even an M.D. would balk at before commiting. So as I travel through the bowels of academia, I beg you all, remember one thing--THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HATH MADE, BE GLAD AND REJOICE IN IT! (Cause tomorrow might be worse or never come at all)

Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: "Final Countdown" by Europe (it's an 80's thing)
Topic: BY way of Explanation
I wonder if life is ever what we want it to be? There is an old Jewish Proverb that says "If you want to make God laugh . . . tell Him YOUR plans!" Well, that is basically my whole life story. I've gone thru pretty much my whole life making plans that fall through and dreaming about a future that will never come to fruition. I never meant to hurt anyone's feelings, I'm only trying to do what God tells me to do, the best I can....I know my methods leave a lot to be desired--for most humans--but sometimes "s**t happens"! I have a few regrets in my life: my drug addictions, my promiscuity, walking away from my children, to name a few. Yet following God's path is NOT one of them. No matter how badly I screw things up, HE always has a way to put me back on HIS path. And He never fails to tell me HOW I screwed it up---in hopes that I won't do it again. I am truly apologetic to all those who's feelings I have hurt, crushed, ignored, or otherwise caused undo pain to. I ask you in the Name of Jesus Christ to forgive me and know that I didn't cause you pain intentionally.

ELF

Just thinking
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: RANTING & RAVING
I just wonder sometimes if by saying things directly that people don't really hear the things I say! I try to be as clear as possible but they just seem to hear what they want to hear! Maybe I'll never understand humans (men particularly)!!!! Sometimes I just want to SCREAM Leave me ALONE!!! I've got work to do

ONCE UPON A TIME . . . . . .
Topic: RANTING & RAVING
I wonder why I talk better about my feelings on paper than face to face. I'll readily admit that I understand absolutely NOTHING of the ways of God, except that -- He loves me, He died for me, and HE WILL direct me(when I ask....and listen)!! I never expected to attend a private school, when a state school is cheaper. Yet, here I am! I used to make written lists of everything I had to get done(or could do) and then I would pray about it. Whichever tasks lay open before me and were able to be accomplished, I took as HIS will and followed thru with them! This may seem strange to some, but I have not doubted His nudges! That is why reaching out and telling my story is so important to me! I want everyone on earth to know this sense of peace and Joy! Sometimes, it seems the Lord leads me down paths that I am, not only un-prepared for, but am often highly opposed to doing. like recently ... I've three peoplefrom my past, the "bad" part, get back in touch with me. They all profess sober and settled personas & I rarely doubt the genuiness of their conversions, I mean, look how much I've turned around in MY life. Bu when you have someone . . .dang near, It seems, a million miles away take time out of their busy schedule to help you figure something out, "just because" once upon a time . . .we faced death together and, by the grace of God, came out alive!! I makes all the warm fuzzy's grow by exponential and your faith in mankind rising---to take on the hell that hass become our existance and scream . ....YES LOVE STILL EXISTS.....FRIENDSHIPS HOLD FOREVER...AND GOOD WILL TRIUMPH OVER EVIL!!! I pray everyone in the world has at least ONE friend like that .....Once upon a time.....I had 7 like that.....now I feel blessed to have the ones that remain!!!

IN-cog- NEATO
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Hot For Teacher--Van Halen
Topic: BY way of Explanation
Sorry i have not had any recent posts on the board. This is due to the fact that I just started my undergraduate work at Lenoir- Rhyne College in hopes and prayers of obtaining my teaching degree before I'm forty. I will be up and ranting again as soon as I settle into a groove with my classes and work schedules. These classes are intense(and I'm a professional nerd)!

Latest New Testament
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: AMAZING GRACE
Topic: THOUGHTS ON GOD
A SCHOLAR’S SEARCH FOR TRUTH ACKNOWLEDGMENTS Unless otherwise denoted, all references to scripture chapters and verses are from the Book of Acts from the New American Standard Bible. As I sit re-reading and reevaluating stories I have read before, I find the truth of the verses that teach us to “seek and ye shall find”; both Acts 17:27 and Matt 7:8 follow my train of thought. When I look at the scriptures with a spiritual mind instead of a childlike story time of parables. I first focused upon the story Ananias and his wife. (5:1-11) Every other time I have read or heard this passage I focused upon the lessons of sharing and “don’t lie or die.” This time I received the instructions on true community and Utopia lay in obedience to God. This is, I in my opinion the spiritual source of the book of Acts, as well as the rest of the Scriptures. While people argue over little nit-picking differences in interpretations, they miss the real point of the personal savior described by Anne Hutchinson, of our country’s puritan infancy. Mrs. Hutchinson said, “If ever I spake that I proved it by God's word,” at her own trial. “I bless the Lord, he hath let me see which was the clear ministry and which the wrong,” It is said that if we ignore our past we are doomed to repeat it. I personally believe the source of spirituality in anything lies in two things. What God wants us to know at any exact moment and what we are willing to hear. I think one of the problems with modern day Christianity is the fact that it became a religion. When it was a witnessing of Christ’s resurrection, sacrifice and love it became a powerful thing. I believe God intended it to be a force of pure love that breeds in humans a desire to be amiable with everyone and everything in existence. The kind of love the hopes even Judas Iscariot can be forgiven, because nothing is impossible with God! When it became a religion, Christianity became as rigid, ritualistic and restrictive as Judaism. This led to such atrocities as the Crusades, which boiled down to the money, or the Inquisition, which became a battle of who is right and who is wrong. Many modern Christians would rather deny the true God access to their lives and heart than do what they are told. They would prefer to go through their lives looking like the good guys and doing what they think is right, no matter what the WORD says to the contrary. The Book of Acts is strong in many respects. It gives simple instructional wisdom, on how the Twelve Apostles lived, after receiving the Holy Ghost, before the commercialism of modern day capitalist society. The Industrial Revolution destroyed the reliance on God in exchange for numerous machines that do not ask for respect and love, in return for what they do for you. The Apostles practiced true communism. Everything was owned by everybody, nobody went without, nobody got greedy, and everybody was blessed with “gladness of heart” (2:46) When Ananias got greedy and lied, he received suitable punishment. “For the wages of sin are death” (ROM 6:23). Sin has become the state of our society. The industrial revolution destroyed the reliance on God for numerous machines that do not ask for your love and respect. The apostles practice true communism, uncorrupted by power and greed. As the Book of Acts unfolds the disciples were punished a number of times by the Sadducee's and other high ranking members of Jewish Society. They were instructed to refrain from speaking in the name of Jesus, yet God delivered them out of this, too, repeatedly. Then people started to complain that the disciples were not doing right by the widows. Yet, they did not drop what they were doing. They appointed trustworthy and Spirit-filled men to see to the task. They did this so that they could continue in their assignment from God. They were to study the scriptures and spread the message of Jesus Christ. Modern Christians misinterpret this and fail to recognize this lesson, thus causing their works to suffer. They go through life thinking that if they cannot preach, or do everything they want to, then it is better to do nothing. Some people think that “If I don’t do it, it won’t get done correctly.” The lesson of delegation is taught here so that we might see that others can accomplish a task more efficiently than ourselves, who would only be doing it half-heartedly, because our minds are on our original assignment. Stephen, one of the men appointed to care for the widows, went on to do magnificent things to the Glory of God’s name. He did “many wonders and miracles” (6:8). This brought many people to the Lord. He also retold the story of the Jews from Abraham to Jesus, in abridged form, to recall to mind everything God had done for HIS people. Then, chastised them for ignoring what God’s prophet’s had been reiterating for centuries. When the people heard it they took Stephen out and stoned him to death. This happens so many times in modern day Christianity. If a man of God tells people that they are doing wrong and need to change their ways, a good many “church-going’ Christians will walk away and find a new church where the pastor tells them to “eat drink and be merry, cause God forgives and forgets, so long as put a lot of money in the plate.” As important as tithing is , I believe Peter said it best, “May your silver perish with you, because you thought you could obtain the gift of God with money!” (8:20). Then we come to Saul, who was a Pharisee and enthusiastic witness to Stephen’s death. Saul’s conversion to Paul is reminiscent of my own life. God can take the most indecent, insecure and treacherous person; fill him or her with HIS light, grace and mercy ; and create a strong and Spirit-filled new creature, built to do HIS will. As many have found out, I am sure, telling people how God changed you can be an arduous and doubt-filled journey. Sometimes, not even the people who are supposed to love you best can understand what happened to change your life. In Acts 9, we learn that God’s love and will for us is stronger than society’s disbelief. In chapter ten and eleven, Peter is taught the lesson of not being judgmental. God tells Peter to not reject what HE has made Holy. Peter thinks god is just speaking about food, until God reveals HIS will. Being a female in today’s society and a professed believer of the denomination CHRISTIAN, I find myself refraining from mentioning the Word, the Faith, or the Name in certain company, for whatever reason. It could be the thought that they will not receive it. Alternatively, they might get offended. To my own shame, some times it is even, do I WANT to meet this person in Heaven? It does not really matter what I think! It is not mine to judge. How can we, as HIS children, pick and chose whom HE calls. Our only purpose is to expose, uplift, and witness for the LORD. It is HIS to do as HE will with each of us. The majority of the weakness I find in the book of Acts, lay not in the scriptures themselves, but in mankind’s manipulation of the text. In two out of three Bible translations I have used as references, I find discrepancies, that change completely the meaning of the passage for some readers. Culture affects the meaning of a phrase. After the Apostle James was killed by Herod, Peter was put in Prison over Easter, (12:4 KJV), yet in the New American Standard Bible and the Amplified bible it is listed as Passover. To many this might seem trivial, to me it is uncanny. I find this disturbing, because as a scholar, I notice discrepancies easily. As I looked at my calendar this past year, I noticed that Easter and Passover were on different Sundays. I was always taught that Jesus Christ was the Passover lamb for the world. I was never encouraged to practice my Jewish heritage, but I was taught to revere it and have a passable knowledge of its key holidays. This subtle distinction, in differentiating between Judaism and Christianity may account for Christianity’s own persecution of Jews throughout history. I overheard a young lady, in my youth, spout a belief, that since the Jews murdered Christ, they were not worthy of His love. This is inane and nothing more than the twisting of the scripture to suit the human weakness for superiority over others. The Apostles show, thought the Book of Acts, that we are to be servants to all. When Barnabas and Paul are sent on missions by God, the first act that is recorded was the punishment of a false teacher who perverted the word to lead people away from the truth and keep them in his power(13:11). I can recall one, if not many persons who were once, great men of God. The became fallen men who took the Word of God and sold it to their own profit. How many times have we watched them be punished and lose everything? The source that is Acts should be re-read and re-learned. Yet the book of Acts is not just for lessons to learn and wrong-doers punished. It is also to uplift and encourage. In chapter thirteen, Paul preaches to the Men of Israel, on the Sabbath, of God’s love and long-suffering. How through the ages, God has always given the Jews what they have asked for. So moving was his witness that the Gentiles begged to learn of this Jesus and His forgiveness. Then some of the hypocrites got mad and ran them out of town. When people are trying to uplift others, why do some people find it necessary to run them down? Obviously, because they know not the love of Christ (EPH 3:19). Then in Lystra, some of the mystics tried to make Barnabas and Paul god’s because they did miracles in the city. Paul argued saying, [no we are men like you, human, we just met the real God and would like to introduce you to HIM.] This lesson is easy. We must all realize, it is not about us; it is ALL about God! We as Christians are not special, except in the fact that we are loved and forgiven by God, through faith in Christ. When we try to make ourselves more important than god, we fall into the trap of Acts 15. Sometimes Christians start to feel snobbish and better than everyone else, like we know what is best for the world around us. When we start laying down rules to govern other peoples’ faith we are putting “yokes on their necks”(15:1-11). Again the weakness lies in humans not learning what they read. As Jesus said in Matthew 13:13, “because while seeing they do not see, and while hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand.” One of the other main morals to be perceived from the Book of Acts is that we must speak to people in their own language. I do not speak of foreign tongues, but of cultures and society. When Paul and Silas went to Greece (17) they spoke to them in the language of forms and causes. In modern Christianity this is still true. A person who has lived a middle-class life, who has never smoked, drank, or been homeless, may have difficulty witnessing to a recovering drug-addict or a single-mother who strips in bars for the rent. I may regret a great many of my own personal choices, but there is not one of the so-called dregs of society that I cannot relate to on some level. We must reach out to those of our neighbors that we can touch the deepest not those that will most benefit our own position in life. Yet, we must know when enough is enough. We cannot save everyone. As Christians, we must be able to recognize the point at which there is nothing more that we can say or do to convince certain individuals of God’s love. Just as Paul discovered in Corinth(18:1-6). Another duty in discipleship comes from Paul at Epheseus. The people there had been baptized unto repentance, by the teachings of John the Baptist. Paul taught them the continuation of the story, ending with Christ and his resurrection and the gift of the Holy Ghost(19:1-19). When we find new Christians, we should, not only encourage them, but help them into the next season of their salvation. To often we witness to people to believe in Jesus, then we leave them alone to figure out how to live for and like Him. When I get to the end of chapter nineteen and the beginning of twenty, I want to preach. The silversmiths and makers of idols were in an uproar, because the God that Paul preached said that idols made by human hands were false gods and essentially evil. Yet is not this a failing of modern Christians also? Many times I cringe at the sight of the crucifix or cross, because they are idols made by human hands. Not a few persons think I am insane for this, but there it is. Jesus did not intend for himself to be worshiped. Only GOD is worthy of our praise. To raise an icon up, in the earthly image of what humans, who never met him, perceive him to have looked like, relegates Jesus to the same worth as Zeus and other mythological creatures. This is against everything I was taught and presently believe. Okay, sermon over. The main weakness I have found in the book of Acts, again lies in the weakness of mankind as a collective. We read and we learn and we put into practice. How much of that is God’s will and how much is our own blinded, self-appeasement? The Book of Acts was clearly written when, if not soon after the events took place. There is not a shred of doubt in my mind about this. If we call ourselves Christians, should we not learn from the history of the first men to be called by this name? They were willing to die for their testimony of Christ, as He died for us. Are we as willing to do the same for their testimony of HIM?

Thoughts from the past
Mood:  on fire
Topic: THOUGHTS ON GOD
9-08-05
2352 hrs

I look at the world through different eyes sometimes. I see God's hand in so much of the earth. And see His magnificent skyscapes that would make Michealangelo cry for his lack of talent.

I see things that would make a stone-cold-gangster cry at his momma's feet like his best freind died, cold in the street.

I look at my children's lives and know they follow in their heavenly Father's footsteps. they may stumble, but I know Jesus will always be ther to pick them up when they reach for him, but I want them to know I am proud of the people they have become, whether I raised themor not.

I'll learn to forgive myself for some of my past mistakes, but most of it I only remember as a nightmare that only the hope that my grammie wasn't wrong about god kept me going thru at all. And then to keep getting back up again, after being knocked down, time and time again, I know only came through HIS strength.

I question my own deservedness(is that a word?) daily, then He reminds me--IT"S NOT ABOUT ME!!!

It's ALL about HIm and What HIS Glory is all about.

In all the pain in my life I have known that God was around, Telling me I was wrong, yet "I could still do it". I just neede to remember WHO my Father was, and how MUCH HE loves me, and has done for me.
then i remember the end of the BOOK!! and I smile!!
GOD KNOWS HE"S GIVEN ME ENOUGH REASONS!!!!!

Excerpt from my school writings
Mood:  sharp
Topic: THOUGHTS ON GOD
The following is my most recent Intro to New Testament Class:



As this is an opinion paper, I think the title is addressed solely to the person whom asked the question. I bear only the warning that I am a very opinionated person.

Which of the three gospels most influenced modern day Christianity and why? This is not a simple question. Please bear to mind the diversity of ideas I have heard in the last few days. I have polled the members of society that run in the same social and academic circles as myself. In an age of high-tech idols, such as our favorite show or video game; that supersede homework in the eyes of many members of our society, myself included. I have researched a variegated array of intellectuals, clergy, blue-collar, professional, homebodies, students and people I come across in my harried existence as a student, mom, part-time tutor. I have attempted to accurately condense and clarify this input, if only to clarify my own thoughts on the subject, and hopefully I can clearly convey my own opinion, such that it is.

In all the roaming and researching, I came up with a diverse and varied collection of answers. I started questioning students at CVCC and actually may have instigated a few debates between other students that I did not stay to observe. The majority of opinions among students were split; not in the way you would expect, either. Most people were, themselves, split in their decision as to which gospel they considered to most influential in their walk with God.

The same can be said of the intellectuals that I questioned. Most responses involved a split decision between one book and the other. Citing valid points for all the reasoning in choosing, I come to find that many people seems to find the discrepancies between the books a storyteller’s prerogative.

If you have three eyewitnesses to a car accident, you will receive three similar if not factually accurate accounts. One person will focus on the facts, The Gospel of Mark. Another might focus on a certain noticeable feature, the Gospel of Matthew; while another might choose a completely different feature to emphasize, thus Luke.

My own personal translation of the original question has a completely different connotation. What I see before me is multitude of inconsequential differences between the three gospels, which modern day Christianity has taken as a focal point in and of itself. The different denominations boil down to nothing more than the egoism of the “church fathers” of the last three or four generations. Theologians and scholars have credited William of Ockham as the father of rejecting classical reasoning and thus changing the meaning of natural moral law (Holmes 68). Yet it seems that modern day society is afraid to take back the role of being a lighthouse to the rest of the world. Some would rather fight over the petty features and aspects of the scriptures, than focus on what they say and how that means we should act.
Ockham’s ideas gave way for the dissension and the dividing of the church that is still occurring in this present generation. And we seem to be able to create a new church denomination, just by not agreeing with a current church; this affects a split that practically and truly, in some cases, start brand new religions, or so they perceive. Why is it that humans think they can always have their way whenever they are disagreed?

Whether or not we care to admit it, we as humans are partially responsible for the mess our world has become. What kind of world do we live in, that I cannot allow my children to go into the store with me, to pick out a candy bar, because there are magazines with naked or nearly naked human bodies? Now there is nothing wrong with the human form, but human decency and morality went into a coma several centuries ago.

I believe that Jesus came and walked the earth and died and rose and will come again. But sometimes I get impatient with His timing. I believe the biggest influence on modern Christianity, by the synoptic gospels, lies in the arguments and petty bickering between the members. The discrepancies themselves have become the main focus of religious folk.

Sometimes, it seems as if the scriptures are a teaching tools, for those who are to bee with Christ at His coming, yet they work as a snare for those He wishes to weed out of the good.

Acknowledgments
I would like to acknowledge those persons that allowed me to pick their brains; Ricky Dee and Ric Landers, Stoney Turner, Mr Loss and everyone else whose ears I bent in a quest for diversity and accuracy. And to Dr. B., Thank you for chapter 9, my classes are blending.

Wonder if . . . . ?
Mood:  lyrical
Topic: RANTING & RAVING
I wonder if God ever asks himself, "Why did I let them do that? What could I do to wake them up?" Is it just me or do a lot of people talk big and put up little? maybe it's just me.....I come up with all these incredible ideas on how to make the world, my life and everyone else's life. Then what do I do? I go through my sluggish daily routine; I do what I have to do to get through my drama-filled, schedule-strained life. The one favorite thing I do is share my extra smile with every person who passes my line of vision. I look them in the eye, nod and pass the smile. It may seem like a trivial, insinificant gesture....but who knows how many lives that one smile might touch.....

I wonder . . . . . .
Mood:  chatty
Topic: Fed up with humans
I wonder sometimes how people can be so cruel and seemingly heartless. I am not trying to judge, I just get sick to my stomach when I see the ugliness that is rapant in our society. People drive by pedestrians and joke about the number of points they can get for hitting them! I don't understand!!! What if someone actually started playing this game???? We don't realize what an influence we have on the younger generation, especially those who do NOT have children of their own. Kids look up to single people, because they are mad or frustrated with their parents....remember that they are the generation that will take care of us in our old age, assuming we make it. My daughter's bicycle was stolen last week off her father's front porch, while there were people at home! What is this world coming to? Did my daughter get mad and start yelling? NO--she said "oh well, it's not like I have time to ride it anyway" Her step-mother yelled at her for not being upset. This action was countered by me yelling at the step-mother for yelling at my daughter. I don't want my daughter to grow up learning to hate and get mad when bad people do bad things....She was right in her action to instantly forgive and look for the silver lining. Children embody the purity of true love! Adults everywhere, parents or not, need to recognize that the world's children are watching----WHAT ARE WE SHOWING THEM????

Here is a SCARY thought for ya
Now Playing: Tchaickofsky's 1812 Overture
Topic: THOUGHTS ON GOD
I wonder how many people have actually read the book of Revalation. It scares me to think that there are uninformed people in the world, in this town!

I feel compelled to express my thoughts the best way I know how....In my words....

Being a math-nerd, I have a tendency to work with numbers quite often. Some numbers have been giving me cause for concern.

Take your 9-digit Social Security number (which tells who you are and where you were born) and the new 9-digit zip code (which tells where you live, down to the neighborhood)

You put them togethere you have 18 digits.
Divide into equal parts

You come up with 3 rows of 6 digits
Tell me that wouldn't make a perfect barcode......

These are the thoughts that keep me awake after midnight, when I know I have to be up in a few hours, but I know God will give me rest.

I do not worry for fear of taking it, I relish the coming of Jesus to take home His Bride.

I fear I have not told enough people about His Love, that I haven't been the example I should be, that there is something else for me to do.....

I guess I'll know when I get to that dimension...
and now I'll try to sleep...

I love my mother
Now Playing: dear momma by "Tupac"
Topic: Fed up with humans
I love my mother. I know we haven't always got along. I forgave her years ago for the choices she made in her life that I feel destoyed or scarred mine. I have tried to share God's love with her and have been unceremoniously rebuffed. I have patiently kept hope alive that one day she would come to know Jesus, but today was the final straw of my patience. I ask of any and all that read this to give opinion, advice, HELP!! I love my mom, but I don't want to cut her from my life nor do I wish to be surrounded by negativity and ignorant rantings of hard-hearted petty people.

The history, my boyfriend and I are of different ethnic heritage, my mother(adopted and raised by a yankee, racist, Presbpytarian Mason) has sent me an e-mail spouting .... .I don't knoww hat the word for it is, I know it was vulgar, offending and derogatory; The same verbal abuse I endured as a child, except this venom was spat at the refugees and was completely inappropriate tosend to me. Should I just not speak to my mother, delete all her e-mail's unread. Or ignore it pretend she isn't a hypocritical old-hiefer, who is so filled with hate that she has forgotten how to love and continue to send her quotes and notes and "Jesuslovesyou" stories???

My view of 10 commandments
Topic: THOUGHTS ON GOD
Happy is a child who learns the meaning of play. Believing in the healing fellowship of joy. Uplifting hearts that bend in faith to bear the Word of the Lord.


I see no steps to my altar. There are no crosses or crucifix. There is only there fiery sky and the voice of thunder.

There are ten basic rules, not really hard to follow, and are truly basic common sense.
Thou shalt not Kill To protect your loved ones, or your own life, easy to understand. For fun is sick, you deserve Hell, for money is worse.
Thou shalt not have any other god before ME ¡§One nation under God¡¨ means one God for all and all for One. When did we stop working as One people(Iam pretty sure it was at Babylon.
Thou shalt not have any graven images,
Buddha =,good principle„_idol
The Virgin Mary„_idol
Cross/Crucifix„_idol

A six day work week equals one day off, doesn¡¦t matter what day, just take ONE day. We live in a lazy, money grubbing society. We want, we want, & we want but which one of us swilling to put the effort into it, to earn it? Keep the Sabbath holy

Honor thy mother and father. I have trouble with this one my self. I love my parents, so long as I don¡¦t live with them. But then again, we don¡¦t talk much either.

Thou shalt not commit adultery. When the Lord is merciful enough to send you a mate who knows ALL your faults and still wants to be with you„_What more do you need? Someone younger, prettier, richer, smarter, saner? Why? We all go through one bout of ugliness, one of beauty, one of shriveled up grayness, and then POOF! Back to dust . . . Where we came from.

And if you want to steal something, steal something worth stealing. Like a smile or a flower to give to someone who needs them. All the really good stuff worth stealing are usually given freely if only asked for.

If you want to have a friend, be a friend. Do not bear false witness Don¡¦t lie about anyone and they won¡¦t lie about you. All you have to do is tell more lies to cover the first lie and eventually you get them all confused and the truth comes out.

Thou shalt not covet anything My youngest daughter said it best, ¡§Be happy with what you have, pray for what you want, and HOPE you deserve it.¡¨

And the one that brings out the last vestiges of hate in me:
Thou shalt NOT take the Lord¡¦s name in vain. I am so sick and tired of the potty-mouthed people. I shudder to think I share a chromosome or two with them. And yes I know I am as guilty if not more than most! But when I hear someone using My God¡¦s name in anything but a spiritual or uplifting way, I just want to knock their teeth out. . . , Ever wonder why do many young people wear dentures and/or have rotted teeth? And yes I¡¦m one of them.

You want to know what is wrong with our country? READ THE BOOK! You think bad things happen just to make you miserable? They happen to see what you are made of! Will you turn the other cheek and ask God, did I do something? Can I fix this? OR will you be like most and say it¡¦s bad luck, or curse God or worse ignore His existence.

Mood:  irritated
Topic: RANTING & RAVING
what are the benefits to society being automated versus live people as per say to the ease at which anyone can order a refill prescription of a narcotic drug with little or no verification and identification of who that person is and what can be done to remedy this without too many inconveniences to the general consumer.




Are we creating a world where people don’t associate with people anymore they only talk to machines and press buttons on the phone or the keyboard or the ATM ? Why is our world driven by hate when we don’t talk to anyone but the machines? We don’t even have to talk to the check out lady at the grocery store anymore we just run our purchases over the scanner and use another ATM-like machine. Are we so afraid as a society of other people that we feel the need to automate our entire lives, from Microwave dinners to automated checkout lines to the computer and the Internet making us capable of purchasing everything we will ever need off the Web and delivered right to our homes, where they probably leave it on the doorstep, because we are too busy making purchases off the Internet to answer the door. Hey Maybe we could get a caller ID for the front door too so we don’t even have to get up and look out the peep hole?

So why are people so easily slipping into a society of mechanized button pushers ? Maybe we’ve become lazy as a society, maybe we just want another person on the unemployment line.




I’d like to prove that these things are the reason we have a society that takes religion out of schools, makes war an event that we are supposed to celebrate, has a breakdown in family ties and values, and parents that don’t know where there children are most of the day due to divorce, separations and unwed parents. We have schools that would rather recommend putting our children on drugs than giving the extra time and energy needed to reach these special needs children that our society has created. When did our children become the last thing we think of
when considering what we do in life.



We have a society that puts “IN GOD WE TRUST” on our money and He is the last person we think of to trust FIRST! Usually we are a people who only look to God when we are at our last rung and falling fast. We look to the money to buy our way out of every problem we have, I would like to see the words “In God we trust” come off our money then maybe the money would stop being our god.

What are we doing?
Mood:  on fire
Topic: Fed up with humans
Times takes on new meaning when you have too much of it. It always seems like you’ll have a few more minutes with the ones you love then they are ripped out from underneath you like a torn and dirty rug that needs to be taken outside. When we do have the time to spend with our loved ones we don’t take it putting off till tomorrow what we could better get done today.

This is the creature man has become, never being satisfied with what they have never counting their blessings and always wanting the grass on the other side of the fence because it is greener. But what humans don’t always understand is that the reason the grass on the other side looks so good and green is cause it has better fertilizer. Usually there is more “crap” given on the other side of the fence then the one you are on, so when you leave your pale green pasture for the dark green lush fields…Remember not to step in a pile of fertilizer!!!