A Face in My Past
Topic: Parents


I don't exactly remember the 1st breath I took
I can't seem to reacall when I read my 1st book

The first steps I made are a blur in my mind
My first words are memories I can't seem to find

The 1st bike I ever rode or the 1st dress I wore
These are things i never though of before

But one thing I see when I think of all those years
Is my sad face, always looking of fear

You weren't there when I was learning to grow
U taught me nothing of the things a girl should know

I don't know what to do or what I can say
Besides I hate you each and every day

I hate with all my heart and it's not all fine
I will always feel this ways,til the end of time

But I can com to serenity at last
Because all you are to me is a face in my past.

A Face in My Past
Topic: Parents


I don't exactly remember the 1st breath I took
I can't seem to reacall when I read my 1st book

The first steps I made are a blur in my mind
My first words are memories I can't seem to find

The 1st bike I ever rode or the 1st dress I wore
These are things i never though of before

But one thing I see when I think of all those years
Is my sad face, always looking of fear

You weren't there when I was learning to grow
U taught me nothing of the things a girl should know

I don't know what to do or what I can say
Besides I hate you each and every day

I hate with all my heart and it's not all fine
I will always feel this ways,til the end of time

But I can com to serenity at last
Because all you are to me is a face in my past.

Suicidal Acts
Topic: Suicide


Take a knife cut it deep
Drops of blood before I sleep
If I die before I wake
Life was much too cruel to take

Relief is felt-and blood flows out red
Feeling alive instead of dead
Self-hatred, anger, guilt, low out
Total satisfaction- without a doubt

Feeling depression everyday
Insecurities and fears along the way
Low self-esteem feelings of despair
But nobody ever said life was fair

There's a lot of us here, you see
Hatred, broken, wanting to be free
We are afraid, scared, and needing care
Looking for help-is anyone there?

Don't look at us with disgust
A non-judgmental is a must
Remember, we're still lost children inside
Running from the pain we try to hide

Just reach out and be a friend
Don't lie to us or try to pretend
Give us comfort when we cry
So we don't give up and decide to die

Scars tell a story of pain inside
Revealing the secrets we try to hide
Showing the misery a lot of us to share
Hoping and praying that someone will care

Maybe if you look deep in my eyes
You'll see the child behind my cries
And the things that have murdered her soul
All the self-hatred that's taken its toll

We numb our brains to stay alive
Whatever we have to do to survive
We cut ourselves and burn our skin
To punish us and get till of sin

If you really listen and try to
Maybe I'll trust you and take your hand
Just listen to me when I need Your ears
Give me your arms and hug away my fears

Help me rip out the crazy thoughts inside,
And try to find the part of me that died
Help me like myself again
Stay with me and be a true friend.

Missing You
Topic: Death


The sun came up this morning
It wasn't very bright
My dark mood casts a shadow
It's hard to see the light

We all have just one mother
And now that her life on earth is done
The emptiness and loss I feel
Make it hard to see the sun

Tomorrow is a brand new day
May the pain and saddness lighten
I will remember all her love
And then the sky will brighten

Gone is not forgotten
Her love remains behind
She's traveled in a new direction
Love knows no space or time

I will always love her
She will care for me from above
She will send me starlight and rainbows
To remind me of her undying love.

The Silent Tears of a Child
Topic: Abuse


The silent tears of a child
Beaten black and blue
Echo in the empty rooms
But no one has a clue
She knows she's hit for a reason
Although it seems a bit unclear
That she should be hit again
And wake every morning in fear

He often told her
He does it all for love
But why does he turn on her
When she offers him her love
It doesn't really hurt her anymore
When he hits her in the face
It's when people look at her
And shake their heads in disgrace

The little girl, light hair and eyes
Is so pretty dresses in white
Except for the sad look on her face
For fear as she turns out the light
The silent tears of a child beaten black and blue
Echo in the empty rooms, and no one has a clue.

What it Seems to be
Topic: MISC.


To you she's perfect in every way
A smile evryday

She does great in her school
She's popular and cool

But deep dowm in her heart
She's empty and torn apart

The real way it goes
Never really shows

The fake smile on her face
Leaves no depression trace

And the grades she gets in class
She pays for them to pass

But that's still not the end
Not even close my friend

She even does some weed
And cuts herself to bleed

And just to fit into that dress
She throws up for her skinniness

So now that you know, what you see
Is now at all what it seems to be.

This is What Happens When Friends Let Friends Drink and Drive
Topic: Death


Near to the door he paused to stand
As he took his class ring off her hand
All who were watching did not speak
As a silent tear ran down his cheek
through his mind the memories ran
Of the moments they walked hand in hand
But now her eyes were so terribly cold
For he would never again have her to hold
They watched in silence as he bent near
and whispered the words "I Love You" in her ear
He touched her face and started to cry
As he put on his ring and wanted to die
Just then the wind began to blow
As they lowered her casket into the snow
This is what happens to man alive
When friends let friends drink nad drive.

MY BLEEDING ROSE
Mood:  special
Topic: Love


Remember the day we traveled
On peaks of mounted snow
A red rose I unraveled
From death's heart of woe
It was just for you
Resting upon my bloom
Silent within the beauty
Of my closing tomb
But my rose will still scream
In your bleeding arm
Across my hollowed dream
In deserted charm
Weeping I wail
Sleeping on your lovely thorns img My queen so frail
Waiting for my mourn
Let me cherish the fading time
And kiss you how you cried
But my love, oh love of mine
It is too late to hide
They're coming to take me
And leaving you behind
They're coming to get me on my rose you twined
Bound to my still breath
Entangled with my baren caress
When within your petals death
My bleeding rose, your thorns I will undress you into my longing grave
And into your heart your wand i will deprave
Of my blood and of my love.<