You have probably been wondering why I didn't write anything in here these past few days. Well the reason is because I did diddle squat this whole weekend!! I slept and eat, that was it...so I figured that you didn't want to read about that stuff, so why put it up..anyway. The welcomed rest was much needed, and helped today in class...however it was hard getting back into the swing of things 'cause I did NOT want to get up this morning, but my body will start to remember and everything will be good.
It's snowing...again..so the nice prof that I have, let us out very early..around 10:30 ish...I COULD HAVE STAYED HOME!!! but oh well..I pulled into the parking lot, and someone had taken my spot *sniff sniff* I was so upset. but that was ok, 'cuase I parked next to Q, and he gave me a hug...which was unexpected and weird, 'cause I don't normally give hugs to guys from school...but hey, he's great. So we walked to class together and then waved eachother goodbye 'cause we are in two different buildings...he is such a sweet heart, and his friends are so much fun to hang out with.
Dani and I...well I don't know, I e-mail her, about my cds 'cause I wanted them back, and after that day, I don't know, but her e-mails have started to sound really bitter. Like she is mad at me for something that I did that I have no clue what I did...have you ever seen that epsodie of friends where Feebi is mad at Ross and he is trying to figure out why, and it turns out that he did something to her ina dream..yeah, that's kind of what this makes me feel like...it's like she is Feebi and I'm Ross, I have no clue what I did, and how I did it, but I sure am sorry about it...maybe something I wrote in an e-mail came off wrong, or maybe it's 'cause we haven't talked in months, I don't know, but this really confuses me.
I don't know if I wrote in here about what happened Thursday afternoon with Chris M. and I, but that night at bingo he was like "I'm sorry" for what he had said earlier that day. And all I could say was "okey." Only because I wasn't sorry for what I had said, what I told him were my opions and even though I have started to change the way I dress and look, so I'm not a shock to society, I'm not in anyway going to start changing the way I think, the only thing that could happen is that I open my mind more to different, but my former views won't change. Simple as that...agree? agree.
I've started to read this book called "You don't know me..." it's really cool, it's from a 14yo boys perseptive..and omg, can I relate and laugh at things and say "that is so true." It's a good book, anyone who want to borrow it when I'm done is more then welcome, and I think the best thing about it, is that it is a quick read 'cause they are like all this thoughts that he is thinking in his head so the pages go quickly. But after reading some of the chapters in the book I got to thinking about everything...you know random things that happen to pop into your head at night...and I was thinking that the day I went over to PA, I was thinking it was a bad idea...not that I would get cought by my parents, I mean what can they do now, it's been weeks since that day...but I think that I'm falling for the kid, and I can't, I'm not allowd to...it's not that he's taken, it's just that...well...I haven't quite figured out why I can't fall for him just yet, but I'm sure there is some reason, it could be 'cause I'm afraid...oh I don't know. Oh and this guy Mike who I used to hang out with was tellin me about different things (what i can't tell ya, i'm sworn to secret) but he said something to me the other night, and I was like...sure come on over and we'll fuck, who cares if my parents are up....joking around and all seriousness aside, but now he's like...oh well, call me if you want to hang out...blah balh blah...and I simple told him "nah, I don't think I'll call ya tomarrow." Cause I don't want to hang out with him. I feel that him and I have only have a drum corps friendship and nothing more, if he wants to hang out during the breaks or dinner, that's fine with me...but I don't want to hang outside of corps, for reason, only know by me.