Do you agree that life is hard? For teenagers, to put it bluntly, it sucks! What bothers us most about life? Is it our parents who are always down our backs or maybe it is the pressure of school? Whatever it may be, the truth is that it is hard and it can bring us down so much, I have experienced alot of this pain, the pain of a broken relationship between a guy and girl, the pain of your parents divorcing and remarrying some person you don't even know. the pain seems to continue, In other words it follows you everywhere, you would do anything just to have some relief, you would go the distance just to be happy. Most of us want to have hope in our lives, we want to know that everything is going to be ok! That assurance is really important! I have run to everything, alcohol, smoking, I have been down to the pit of hell and back! I thought that it was ok to do all of these things and have some type of release, even if it was only temporary and would lead me right back to my pain. I knew in my heart that it would never make me happy, but I really did'nt care! I thought to myself, I am unhappy and all that matters is that I get my mind off of my life and have some fun and maybe even have a few hours of relief. I am eighteen years old and my name is Jamie. I just graduated from highschool in may. This is the testimony of my life, where I usto be and where I am now, I totally understand what others have gone through and I have a desire to help other teenagers that are going through similiar pain. I find myself on the other side knowing that I have an awesome future ahead of me and I can't wait to find out what it holds. I would love to hear from you, so if you could respond, I promise that I will read it. The reason for my hope will appear in my next entry. I hope to hear from you soon! sincerely, Jamie