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01.01.04 Vineland EMS Calls To Me...
12.010.03 Praying For Positive Results.
08.15.03 Beginnings of a  new EMT
05.09.03 Mourning A Fallen Brother.
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     Hello Boys and girls.  In case your wondering this segment is for my friends to catch my latest adventures in my beginnings as an EMT. You can catch updates and adventures as I grow  here traveling the path of the American emergency unsung hero...

11.11.04 I Wish You Could...

I wish you could see the sadness of a business man as his livelihood goes up in flames, or that family returning home, only too find their house and belongings damaged or lost for good.

I wish you could know what it is like to search a burning bedroom for trapped children,
flames rolling above your head, your palms and knees burning as you crawl,
the floor sagging under your weight as the kitchen below you burns.

I wish you could comprehend a wife’s horror at 3 a.m. as I check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late. But wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to try to save his life.

I wish you knew the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled mucus, the feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames crackling, the eeriness of being able to see absolutely nothing in dense smoke-sensations that I’ve become too familiar with.

I wish you could understand how it feels to go to work in the morning,
after having spent most of the night, hot and soaking wet at a multiple-alarm fire.

I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a building fire, "Is this a false alarm or a working fire?
How is the building constructed? What hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?"
Or to the EMS call, "What is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life threatening?
Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun?"

I wish you could be in the emergency room, as a doctor pronounces dead the beautiful five-year old girl, that I have been trying too save during the past 25 minutes.
Who will never go on her first date or say the words, "I love you Mommy" again.

I wish you could know the frustration I feel in the cab of the engine or my personal vehicle,
the driver with his foot pressing down hard on the pedal, my arm tugging again and again at the air horn chain, as you fail to yield the right-of-way at an intersection or in traffic.
When you need us however, your first comment upon our arrival will be, "It took you forever to get here!"

I wish you could know my thoughts as I help extricate a girl of teenage years,
from the remains of her automobile. "What if this was my sister, girlfriend, or a friend?
What were her parents reaction going to be when they opened the door to find a police officer with hat in hand?"

I wish you could know how it feels to walk in the back door and greet your parents and family,
not having the heart to tell them that I nearly did not come back from the last call.

I wish you could feel the hurt as people verbally, and sometimes physically, abuse us or belittle what I do, or as they express their attitudes of "It will never happen to me."

I wish you could realize the physical, emotional and mental drain or missed meals,
lost sleep and forgone social activities, in addition to all the tragedy my eyes have seen.

I wish you could know the brotherhood and self-satisfaction of helping save a life or preserving someone’s property, or being able to be there in time of crisis, or creating order from total chaos.

I wish you could understand what it feels like to have a little boy tugging at your arm and asking, "Is Mommy okay?"
Not even being able to look in his eyes without tears from your own and not knowing what to say.
Or to have to hold back a long-time friend who watches his buddy having rescue breathing done on him as they take him away in the ambulance. You know all along he did not have his seat belt on, a sensation that I have become too familiar with.

Unless you have lived with this kind of life,
you will never truly understand or appreciate who I am, we are, or what our job really means to us…

I wish you could though...

08.11.04 Vineland City EMS Newest EMT

     Well after a long process it's happened.  I have been placed in the ranks of Vineland City EMS.  I have been onboard with this crew for about 2 months.  It's been a whirlwind since the start and a great adventure.  I've been doing so much and improving so much learning along side of the crew here.  I have to admit I was a little concerned at first but I feel very much a part of the team.  The crews are very knowledgeable.  I know here is where I'll find the skill level I wish to find. 

     I'm already beginning to get a stronger grasps on situations and learning to use my resources more effectively.  I keep looking over to the firehouse next to station 2.  I think I might have to place an application over there.  I think I could make a nice addition to the staff on my off time.  A big thanks to the staff and to all my new crew mates.  I'll make sure I don't drive you all insane...

02.28.04 Classes Classes Classes!

     It's been a mad house in my mind with all the classes that I've been taking.  I've taken Weapons Of Mass Destruction Operations.  I'm now one of the guys trained to stay behind and decontaminate People that have been caught up in a hazardous material or Biohazard scenario. I never really thought of how dangerous people can be till I took this class.  It's so simple for some whacko to hurt a whole bunch of people with some crazy fanatic believe or demented fantasy.  It's scary to study some of the chemical and biological weapons we have to our disposal.

     I've got to be out of my mind.  Speaking of out of my mind.  I'm considering coming to Vineland Fire Department.  I don't know why however I think I'm gonna look into being a Firefighter.  It's just something to keep me going and another way I can help people.  I don't know why I've been so hyper to get trained.  I guess I'm looking for a way to make more of myself.  I'm looking for something.  I'm not sure what it is.  However I do know that I love what I do.  Well I have some pictures of The WMD class going over the Decon Unit.  I'll post them soon as I can...

12.10.03 Praying For Positive Results

     I just came back from one of the tests that are required for Vineland EMS.  I'll tell you what.  4 hours of a psyche evaluation is crazy in it's self.  However it's required to get the job at Vineland EMS.  I have a plan hopefully I can get in a couple of years in at Vineland and figure out a way to get into Paramedic school.  Also I should be able to save up enough money to get myself another apartment.   Vineland Also gives me a chance to advance.  I love my job in Millville and I love my partner.  However I know I'm cut out for handling more. 

     I get alot of people that seem to dislike my enthusiasm for my work.  I hear people think I believe I'm some kind of super EMT.  I don't think I'm a super EMT by any means.  I just love what I do and I'm confident when I do it.  I just think some of us unhappy in our career should reconsider our job if you can't stand someone else doing well.  I guess some people can't take others enjoying their work.  Well I have a spot you can kiss my ambulance people.  I'm not changin' the joy and confidence I feel when I work so you can feel better.  I'm sure others like me would agree that settling isn't for everyone.

08.15.03 The Beginnings of a New EMT

     Well it's been a little tough out on street.  I've been in the middle of a separation so I have to make certain I stay focused on my work.  at least it keeps my mind off of other things.  Well my hats of to Angel Cruz at Millville Rescue.  He's been really hauling in the time with the EMS Crew.  He's been really picking up the skills needed for EMS.  He's gonna make a fine EMT one day.

     I have been able to get some calls with him.  He went thru his first Over Dose.  Man it was bad too the person was all Cyanotic and not breathing.  My partner and I managed to get him breathing again.  We bagged him and kept him breathing till the medics arrived.  Angel being new had everything needed to get this guy going.  I let him step into it and work the guy while I watched.  I gathered information from the bystander in the room and low and behold the guy came back after a little karate in a can from the medics.  Angel handled the situation really well.  I'm impressed.  Good luck man...

     I've added a couple of new numbers to the body count  I guess I have been busy.  I need to spend more time at Squad 34.  I've been slacking.  At least I get plenty of Psych calls this month.  I'm to the point where they call me Mike The Psych.  That's never a good thing.  At least Psych calls are entertaining sometimes.  It's amazing what some people believe.  Between God Sending them to destroy all the evil people in the world, and rats coming to eat them it's always an interesting trip to the Crisis unit.  OH well  I love my job...

05.09.03 Mourning A Fallen Brother.

Rest In Peace Christopher Moreno We'll All Miss You.

     It was one of the saddest days in my life yesterday as we committed the body of one of Millville Rescue Squads finest members to rest today.  Christopher Moreno was one of the finest men I ever served with. He past over the weekend due to a heart attack.  He was only 41.  He served on so many different EMS Units I couldn't really keep track of them all.

      I wouldn't even where the white shield of the EMT if it wasn't for him.  I remember it was just Saturday when I served him on the night EMS shift.  He caught me snoozing and blared over the paging system to rush to my Ambulance.  I thought I missed a call.  So I go running through the building to the ambulance.  Only no one was there and the lights were all out on the ambulance.  I look up into the dispatch window and there he was with the rest of the crew laughing at me.  He caught me snoozing and made sure I wouldn't do it again. :)

      It was because of him that I'm the EMT I am today.  I remember working on the bus with him.  Jen & I were on the shift doing Thirds trying to learn the trade.  He wouldn't let us cheat and he wouldn't let us use the automatic equipment.  I remember his words. "No you don't probee."  Then he would give me a BP cuff and ears and insist I do it the old fashion way.  " You haven't graduated to the automatic toys yet Probee."  Jen would just smile and chuckle cause she knew I wouldn't get away with it.

      I'll keep you forever with me & I vow to be as good as you were Chris.  We'll all miss you.  You were one of the best.  God Keep You Safe...   Man I'm gonna miss you.

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