Dear Friend
How are you?
I'm sorry I didn't write sooner but I have something very important to say and I needed all the time I could find to write it properly.
Ok this will be my last time emailing you, about this but I need to one more time to explain myself, I'll try to make this long email as short as possible concerning "Getting to my point" because it is really important and it may be long but I'll try not to take your whole day about this!
First of all, I understand that it IS hard to digest everything I told you about how I am now, specially the whole suicidal thing must have been a shock to you , since I never mentioned it to you when I was in it. But there are ways in my life where I have changed so much it's almost impossible for me to live life in the way I lived it before, with the same old interests and ways of talking and well everything. This is highly important for you to read everything carefully and please read between the lines because I cannot write it directly to you , I just couldn't because you have been my friend for such a long time.
In fact because you have been my friend for so long , It gives me all the enthusiasm I need to tell you about this before it's too late.
I honestly do not know how you live life, or what you hope for in life or believe in, we've never talked about it.
I don't know if you are struggling with matters, you wish to remain untold or if everthing is perfectly fine. But I do know one thing, Life in this world brings a type of "hell" at one point, I'm not wishing you to go through it but it is likely we all on this earth will experience some type of an abominational hell and if it's not now, it could be in your 20s or 30s and just incase if I'm not going to be there to tell you about this, when you're going through it. I'd feel better now to know I at least told you while we were still emailing each other.
You know I'm not sure you understand this Christian life I'm in and this isn't about forcing it down your throat at all, but they are things happening in this world that are too big and real to be ignored. When you live in a nice, calm place you are most likely to never hear about those things, (Like I was in Ireland and Scotland, I never knew about these things) But now outside the countryside I see those things.
As you know about the terrorist attack on New York , I'm sure you've heard that "The 3rd World War" has already begun in the middle east!
These things are not just happening by accident because of some crazy lunatic that agreed to obey some evil forces; they have been told to happen for thousands of years in prophecies written in the very FIRST book to be ever published "The Bible". (The Bible was the 1st book published not Harry Potter.) Please tell me you know what a Bible is?!?
And now when I'm reading it and I'm looking at what's on the news, it's all relevant and it's scary cause you see it's all true.
Again, I don't know what you believe is going to happen after we die , you might say, like many : "Well, We can never know what's after death". It's very clear though in the Bible what's after it. Of course you are most likely not to believe it , if you believe that we came to be on this earth through the desendants of chimps (Monkeys, in other words) I never heard anything as degrading for human beings as that!
But I'll tell you what I believe and it's not just little me that have believed this..Because it's not just a philosophy, it's a reality that's been known for thousands of years.
You know, It's kinda hard for me to explain to you about this because your my friend and it's hard to just come up and say :" You know what, this is the foundation in my life now and I can't go back with the old foundation of how I used to be before and so this is how it is now and they are things I need to uphold in order for me to ...well...keep what I call "My Healing".
I know it's confusing but bare with me, because Christianity is so BIG and Huge, it's so real, it's a lifestyle really and I want you to know about it.
Sometimes when I say this :" Well now I can't hang out with those people anymore or I can't watch those movies anymore because of how I am now", It is not because some book tells me not to but out of my own free will, it's from my heart that I chose to abstain from them entirely and it's as simple as this ; because when I do start watching those programs, I can feel the depression on it's verge to strike me again with it's disease or when I'm hanging out with those old friends (This could be people I talk with over the internet) I find myself gossiping again and just talking pointless 'nothings' , things that mean nothing to the meaning of what I saw life is. So I learned to turn myself away from it completley because I can't mess around with anything from my past any longer! They all had a little role into what I fell into, even if they didn't know it!
I know that when I send you pictures of people with their hands up and their eyes close- for someone who maybe doesn't know anything about it- you may have thought it was strange and very weird. And so I need to tell you what it really is because as a 'believer' I want to tell you for your own benefit. It's not just me, it's not just little ole Marie talking about her new way of living life. It's such a HUGE thing. They've got a a whole TV network that is Worldwide (international) talking about this and when I listen to the programs they've got for teenagers every saturday night, it just gets me down on my knees each time because it's so powerful!
And the basic of it all, is just who came into my life. It's no human beings, because I came to the point in my life where nothing that I was doing for myself through what the 'world' could give me, just never worked. The medication didn't work, the movies and alcohol didn't help me - Sure they upheld me, The music and all kept me alive. I was actually delaying my death bed timing because of the new episode of Buffy the vampire Slayer for the following week but the time slowly came where that was starting to not matter anymore, I was really broken by then.
Until the REAL THING came in and since it's real, it's affect on me was Permanent not a "1 hour TV show or song relief system" .
I know if you are not going through something really hard or you came to the place where you need to cry out "Can any ONE HELP ME!!!? Why AM I here?"
Then it will be hard for you to believe in someone that can save if when I tell you this you don't need saving! And if you ARE sailing through life and all is smooth, then I'm so Happy for you!
But I need to tell you this for your sake and mine!
You could be thinking "What's this got to do with me, it's her life not mine"!
But you see some things were shown to me and I can't bear the thought of me just sitting back and let all the things I saw happen to people who are my friends, when I can DO something about it!
And It's really important, Aoife. This is no Joke, because life is No JOKE!
We are coming into days that are going to be very hard. I mean a WORLD WAR has started! WORLD meaning all countries,yours and mine will be involved. The goverment or whatever they are called from the USA have already got Back up from their supporting countries to make war with the Middle East. Europe is in it! They're all ready for the blow off on this WAR!
This is all prophetic. if you don't know what 'prophetic' means- It just means some one saw all these things would happen in the future and NO they are not "Forture Tellers" but God's prophets!
All of the previous prophecies in the Bible have already occured and people are watching it happen- The Foot and Mouth disease-Prophecied- The Mad Cow disease-prophecied- Rumors of war and wars being declared - prophecied- The Anthrax-scare to be released in the USA - Prophecied- All Prophecied in the Bible , a book of thousands of years old! So as people see it all happening, it's getting their attention for the other things said to Happen, and let me tell you it's not all good!
It's like here after the attack on the September 11th, everyone just got an instant need to know NOW what life means, What's it for, If it can be taken away from you so fast?!
People are so desperate for answers and out of HOPE that they are seeking God to help them find those answers. Why? because America was founded on HOPE and a belief that this piece of land was some where in the oceans and you know the whole history of it- but what the school books don't say , BUT the AMERICANS do say is that it was Faith in God that made the discovery of the United States.
On the notes (money notes) they have "In God We Trust".
This is a Big Nation and it's a nation under God!
So when this terroism came, they all finally flocked to the churches, because they want to know what's happening to their country and their only hope, is that what God said in His book, the Bible, is true so they turn to church people, "Believers"!
Even the people who in your wildest dreams, you would never see them in a church, Are actually going now. They want God to speak and explain. People who are in Gangs, Drugs, Violence, with Purple Spiky Hair, the Wild&Crazy , who are called "Generation X " people who look like devils really, they can kill you too , are now on their knees asking God to save them.
And when all this happens in one country, in other places, they just don't understand this whole scavenger hunt to find the meaning of life so quickly cause they haven't been faced with death like that country has!
So it's like I'm here, seeing it with my very own eyes and you're not, and I want you to know about it before it's too late.
So that ,If ever you were to be caught in this type of tradegy you would know, before hand, what the biggest and most important thing that your life needed, no matter how great it looks to you now! Because if the end came , would you really know where you'd go?
And that important thing is all through one person...
He's name is Jesus!
I know you've heard the name before. Right?
Infact if you are now saying :"We are in the year of 2002", You are declaring Jesus did live once.
When you write the date anywhere, in a school note book or where ever, you're saying that was the year Jesus was born. because the calendar started in His 1st year on this Earth. That's why we say "He died for us, 2000 years ago on that cross". The jews in Egypt though don't believe that, so in their calendar 2 years ago they celebrated their 7th millenium. The year of 7000 because their calendar started when Moses obeyed God. 7000 years ago. Moses is a biblical person- A prophet in those times who actually prophecied about the coming of Jesus. They called Him the Messiah! Anyway he brought God's people out of slavery.
The reason the jews are in the year 7002 now , is because they don't believe Jesus was the Saviour, or the Messiah, Moses talked about; who would come into this world to save them from Hell!
And it is scientifically proven that Jesus did come to Earth, then, it is up to you to believe, what His followers (Believers) back then said that He did- That He was risen from death and that He Heals.
If you look at my life , you would most definately believe that He can heal. So, If He heals NOW, He still LIVES now!
So it's up to you to believe He can save. It's up to you, to believe there's a hell and there's a Heaven.
I personally experienced hell in my life and that was nothing compared to what hell is really like... and that's scares me when I think my friends don't know the danger there is and great possibility of going there for ETERNITY. Where No one can save you then.
So when I felt this relief of all the things that was causing hell in my life, it was like I stepped inside one of the courts of Heaven. When you see this, it's like : " Woah!!!Ok if I can experience Hell and Heaven on EARTH, there's got to be an actual heaven and hell somewhere.
And when you are in America and you hear in all corners about Jesus Christ, It makes you think. Of course 4 days in America, I was healed and that instantly brought forth a strong need to know Jesus and He saved me then. My whole life got turned over-night. I mean everything I would have , had strong, life-threatening and very real 'panic-attacks' for if I didn't get whatever that thing was, right when I wanted it , well on the 30th of June of 2001, they no longer mattered to me, all over ONE night, it just left my system because I saw something greater!
He's so real because He can Heal you from the inside. Anything physically damaged can be overcomed by the help of a HUMAN doctor! But when it's something from the inside and you see no medication working- when nothing works because it's your soul litterally in pain and no mediaction can reach the soul because it's a spirit. And all of a sudden because of Jesus, You're free from all the pain that was unreacheable for relief! And no one could walk away from a experience like this! It proves there is a God who hears and cares about you.
And I need to testify about it. Even if YOU are not going through anything today, that would make what I've been talking about, help you in some way. But if one day you do and you ask:" What is my life for exactly?" and you have this emptiness which nothing can fill up; and this is something everybody feels at some point. Even if now you think, you know everything you are going to do and your life is all mapped out, and you feel like you've got it all under control. If you remember ...So DID I !
I'm sure you know this but ever since I was 6 years old till 14, I was planning MY own riding school! I had it all planned. And for 7 years it was all I was : studying for, learning for, achieving for in the early , most important part of my growing process in life. 1st ambitions are aften the strongest! Horses was all I would surround myself with. I didn't change my mind once in those whole 7 years but then depression came and that changed everything BUT then Jesus came and that changed everything again! And it's like He opened this window of opportunities for me before my eyes to live a life. This has not happened to just me but more than 40,000 at our age, had Jesus change their destructional paths onto a road diversion that leads to Peace and Liberty.
30,000 teens joined together in boston to cry out to God, in an open park straight after what happened in New York. I mean watch the 'world news', go online, look it up...it's real and it's so exciting!!!! And, Ok...may-be you have no reasons to get excited about this and you don't want to take your time to explore this and...that's fine. I'm not the one to convert you. I'm just the messanger! And I am because it's not enough for me to say to myself " My friends won't go to Hell because Jesus will save them", If none of them knows who He is. How would you, Aoife,KNOW that He can come and Help YOU, in your darkest hour? So, That is why I am telling you all this. But only an experience for yourself can change you. Even if you may live in a place where none of this seems to be happening to the youth. Jesus sees you, where you are!
And I needed you to know that there is a hell , there is a place where your soul can live in torment forever and I DON'T want you to go there!
And 'you know how you do have a soul?
Every time you get hurt , when you cry or you laugh. Your emotions, your mind, your ability to think things without speaking them. It's all abstract not in the physical. You can't see it or touch it because that's your soul!!! And that is not going to die! Your body will but not your spirit.( which holds your personality...)
Let me tell you, you don't get to heaven by simply doing good all your life. It's nice but not enough to win heaven! Like never stealing, killing, lying, or slandering others, it's very good not to do those things but it's your Friendship with Jesus that gives you the key to Heaven!
Jesus says :" No one can get to the Father (Where the Father is, is in heaven) unless they go through me first!"
Look, don't ask me how I know but things...serious things are about to happen and you may not be ready now or you may feel you don't need it but at the last minute... you will!!!!!
Whenever that last minutes comes in your life- if you don't accept Jesus or say, you believe He came to Earth and came back to life after they cruxified Him on a tree with nails and that He did it in order for us to be saved, so that when after we die , you don't have to go to a place that is called :"Hell" forever but can go in a wonderful place where you can be with the one who died for us!
You know, even if you are skeptical about this, so many people buy insurrance incase of car accidents or death but it doesn't ever prevent it to happen and after you die it's NOT going to help you out of Hell. But having Jesus in your heart is the kind of insurrance that is true to it's words , when it says :" It's a life-time garanteed insurrance"-Forever. It can prevent you from accidents and save you from hell. What could be better!
I'd like to know if you believe in God, or if you're an atheist (Don't believe) or agnostic ( You're not sure He exists)...???
Yet it doesn't really matter because I still want you saved. I want you in heaven with me. You're my friend and it's really all about you making that decision personally!
Once when I was at a crusade; the ones I talked to you about, where there is so many people. Well, when the Pastor prayed over the youth, out of 3,000 of them only about 20 may-be got pulled up on the platform, where the pastor was- and I was one of them. (This was my second time at a crusade, my 1st was in Belgium). And it was this time last year that this pastor said regarding our decision about Jesus in our hearts; He said: " You've got your place in heaven now and you know what, bring someone along too" and while I was still shaken by the event and crying so much ( At that time I wasn't healed yet) I thought instantly:'My friends!!! They've got to go to Heaven ...Aoife, Roisin...They've got to know the danger of a wrong eternity'. So I know it's been a year since I said that, but I had to learn and grow in it first myself.
But NOW I'm saying it to you. I want you to have a stronger foundation in your life- something else from what the world can give you...Like diplomas and certificates foundations for your life, those won't secure you in anyway after you lived life!!! Of course, wanting to learn and get the right subject in school is great but how do you know you're going to make the right choices??? Or how do you know this is really what you will want to do for the rest of your life? I had big plans too and it all got messed up. You know if you don't have a meaningful foundation in your life. When something comes and rocks the boat your on, your friends and any other humans may not be able to help you... what happens then?
So , I 'm going to ask you something, Go To This Web Site: Sloppy Noodle (I'll give you the address in a minute )
It's only one page, 10 times shorter than what I wrote here. Seriously, like may-be only 300 words and it's pretty cool too! And tell me what you think, and about your decision!
Remember just like I know you need to hear all this (You may not want to though) You also need to know I want to be and grow up with people who believe too, so I DON'T get pulled back by the trash in this world, that comes in my face nearly every day! I don't get my strength to fight them with old things from my past.
Your a friend-that means something big-Please consider all this.
It's never too late till it's too late.
Things will change in the world just like our friendship will because of who lives in my heart now.
I hope I've given you things to think about, this was infact what I wanted to say to you when I asked you 1st for your age to see if I could say all this. You said you'd handle it as best as you could , I'm trusting you on that and so I'm asking! The question is in this website : http://www.sloppynoodle.com/come Go there! Because : Are you eternally secured?
Take care
Love from your friend, whose concerned about your soul
Marie
