Always be suspicious.
I suppose it started a few years ago, when I started "putting two and two together", realized that I didn't believe in God, and wondered why things happen the way they do. Of course, this was all fueled by "The Truman Show" and "The Matrix", which probably ignited my suspicion in the first place.
The world seems plain. I like figuring out stuff, and I figured out how the world works. You Eat, Sleep, Reproduce, and Die. That's it. There is no God, so I was pretty much screwed.
Wouldn't it be cool if we really do live in a world such as the one portrayed in "The Matrix"? With a world that has more to it than what just meets the eye?
I guess I forced myself into believing there to being something more to this world, life, and reality. Otherwise life would blow.
all this probably sounds retarded, but it's true