for our youth
misogynist's song
last words
five weak

"waking up is the hardest part of the morning wasting my life caring about where im going
i'd never thought it'd be this way when im lying, trying to make me better then
better not let go, they said fucked the moment i opened up my eyes are angry, heavy, seeking refuge, waiting,
im fighting in the swell of the pain and anguish

time to break out, get out, make out with this shit and waste it, perfect for the misled youth
my world, my way, can't say i'll survive this outbreak
another tragedy the day i was born but what do you care? you don't love me no more
where did i go wrong? it's too late, it's too long im bouncing off the walls again and im yelling at my mom

bitch telling me to sit down, shut up, chest out, chin up fuck you, i stood up, you slut, grab my shit and walked out
i'm not turning back or walking home let me make my own mistakes, solve my problems
its better i got what i deserve from you what the fuck did i do for you to lead my life the way you want?

its my life mom!
if you want to help then pray me well
i'm 18 and smart enough to make it where you're throwing me, the wolves will feed but not on me, i wont give heed
`cause 'imma' fight and stand strong i'll step up and live long
its not my problem you dont love me tho dont think its helpful by doing so

`cause i hate you, despise you, loath you, at the sight of you i writhe in pain and unlike you i dont care how much im worth in gold
i dont want to listen to your shit about doing what im told
you want me to be just like the rest?
this is my test?
i'll fail for sure dont hold your bets

this is what im telling you, i dont need you i dont need your advice,
a vice thats holding me back and holding me up, and wasting my youth listening to all the fucked up shit you been saying
about living well and living large owning a big house and fancy cars
did you ever stop to think at all maybe im my own person with my own flaws?

yeah i dream and wish about the best but its not like me to take advantage then
so in final what im trying to say is mom and dad you make me walk this way
its not my fault i feel the used and i'm wasting this precious space of yours
but im your seed and your product and from your water i bathed to grow up

its not my fault but i take the blame and with you around life stays the same
`cause without you i might not be smart and bright nor sheltered living a misled life
i loved you mom you let me down and im sleepy now, hardcore
im drowning in this sea you call life but i call it hell, and i wont be caught up in this bell
thats ringing my time to leave this life hope youre happy now i found a way to end my strife
and you wont ever have to hear me scream
see mom,
im tired of wasting my breath on you so i'll save the last one in a jar for you

please forgive me god for my misled youth save a spot for me up next to you
where i can cry and beg forgiveness father and spend eternity in burning water
but you see its better than being live
and active fighting mom's blatant lies
so here i come, i'll pull the trigger
fall off this cliff and never suffer

so goodbye mom hope youre happy
move on with life forget about me
i'll be just fine... (gunshot here)"